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finally sweet
Date: Mar 1st, 2006 12:23:57 am - Subscribe
Mood: overflowing with love and happiness


well my friends, the past week has been quite the trip.

you will NEVER believe what has happened in such a short amount of time. i dont even know where to begin.

i guess at the beginning


winter break started on the 17th. mark left for florida that day after dropping by my house to pick up a few dvds and to say goodbye. ironic, because it really was goodbye.

the next day, saturday, i went over bob's to mend a few things with him and jamie and just hang out because we hadnt since he and jamie started dating. im very glad i went that night. i got to make things well with bob, hang out with a great group of people, including liam. (liam formerly known as the sex god has been mentioned numerous times in previous entries.) we all decided that it would be sweet to make a trip to NYC sometime during that week. i agreed because, well, its the city, and well....liam was going to be there.

that night i went to chaparone a middle school dance at the highschool. there i saw jamie, and reconciled with her that night when i invaded/slept over her house.

monday i left for vermont. which was a lot of fun. got to hang out with my brother, eat fancy food three times a day for four days, and have the best snowboard runs ive ever had down smugglers notch.

liam and i had been talking online a lot at this point, considering he was still in cahoots with sarah, and i was a direct link to sarah. (however the colleen pursuasion skills owned and got him to realize that sarah did not deserve him) he would me while i was in vermont to tell me the details about the trip to the city (because we were going the day after i returned from vermont) and we would end up talking for hours.

returned on thursday.

went to new york on friday with liam, jamie, bob, seth, renee, kyle, and his brother i dont know his name. on the train, liam sat next to me for the two hour ride : ) we talked a lot.

i like the way he looks at me.

mind you, this entire time, i was still with mark.


nyc consisted of central park, grand central, trump tower, china town, virgin megastore, and just a whole lot of chilling out. it was great because we were all just so ecstatic to be in the city without any parents. it was amazing.

the entire time i just wanted to be with liam. there was such physical and emotional tension between us that day. it was unbearable. not to mention he was sending me CRAZY mixed signals. drove me fucking crazy.


the next day we both skipped sarah's birthday party and went to johns surprise party. im glad, because we wouldnt have been able to talk at sarahs because she would have been suspicious.

again, mixed signals. although we did escape from the crowd for an hour or two, just the two of us. i listened to him play guitar (which OMG HES SO GOOD) and i played piano.

then we caught eachother eyes and gosh, i just couldnt stop looking at him.


we talked online after that night and this is how the conversation went


liam: i'm glad we sort of just fell into communication
me: hah, me too
me: you're very easy to relate with
liam: you as well
liam: but you're more than just an ear

liam: but you're more than just an ear
me: what am i?
laim: brilliant, enticing, and strong-willed
me: why, thank you
me: enticing?
me: lol
me: i dont know about that
liam: no thanks needed
liam: well then, you'll just have to trust me



man, hes good.

i mean he is good.

that night we talked, and i asked him why he said i was enticing. he said "under the circumstances, it wouldnt be right to elaborate..." i understood.

i said "hold on, i gotta take care of something."

i picked up my cell phone, called mark, and told him it was over.


went back to liam, and he said "as thrilled as i am on one hand, i feel like i just kicked him in the face."

he told me that enticing basically summed everything up. i was enticing because i was strong-willed in my faith for God, because of my mind, and because i was beautiful.



::cries tears of freaking joy::

told you he was good.


there is such a connection between us. i cant describe it, and even if i tried it wouldnt make any sense to you.

this is good. this is right. this is what ive been waiting for for three years. it is seriously a dream come true. hes everything thing i dreamed he would be, and so much more.


its perfect.

life is so perfect.

not to mention everyone is friends. i talked to mark, and everything is cool with him (which im very glad about, i always liked him as a friend). jamie and i are best friends again, and even chloe and i are friends. i cant believe this.



perfect


i hope karma spreads so that youre as happy as i am right now.




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