If Only I Could
Date: Nov 18th, 2009 4:06:16 pm - Subscribe
Mood: affectionate
music: Out of Reach
Time passes by like a strike of lighting. And indeed, it has been months since the moment he first spoke to me. No idea of what will happen, I embraced the idea of conversing with him. It has been really good. We chat and chat and definitely we got closer. From chat, we divulge to personal things together, watching movies; eating ice cream and cake; play computer games and many more. My friend once told me that I have a tendency to fall to someone I am used to be with every single day. My reaction? I laughed it all loud and told her, “No I am not that kind of person”. Yet the thing is, I am. I am having this strange feeling at first, I could not stand the time I can’t see him; I am always hoping for our getaways together; jealousy hit me… I am so desperate… so desperately in love as I hurtfully realized. I am lured to the dungeons of gentleness and to the hidden treasures of a beautiful smile. I just can’t stop myself; I just can’t help it. I am singing a song of which the melody is what my heart proclaims to be true. I sometimes have the urged to tell him to listen to my music nevertheless, I can’t. I am so damn afraid. Afraid that the person I am offering my song can’t sing the chorus with me. I have the feeling that he can’t see me the way I see him. His eyes I know are settled for me, as his friend but his heart? I don’t think so. It is certainly a painful reality. I am diving into the pool of nothingness consequently; there is still this benefit of the doubt. What if he knew, would things be in sync with me? Or would it break the bond strengthened by friendship?
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