noises . at . night .
Date: Jul 8th, 2007 3:12:35 pm - Subscribe
Mood: uneasy
im currently residing in lizhis room coz shes happily off in adelaide.
its so different in this room, I think the walls in this room well.. lets say i think they aint sound proof, i hear every single noise and its kinda annoying haha
i m suppose to post photos, but im quite lazy so i think ill do it tomorrow, or the day after..
none the less, today i slept for about 14 hours i took some phenagan werird pill yhest and i had the best sleep ever haha.. wowie!
as i sit to ponder about life, all the noises , are coming from across the road at the tin billy inn,where all the pack packers/international/visitors are partying it hard, on a sunday night ??!! yes, they are rather noisy, singing songs and yelling away, coz i can hear them from 1 street away, 10 story's up. and its annoying. the music,the yelling, the singing, ive been hearing this for the past 3 nights.. and then theres some weird noises that go on upstairs, like the screeching of tables and chairs and door slams, and then to the left of my ear(to the right is the noise from tin billy) to the left, are music sounds, whcih i dont know wat they are, but i know this afternoon there were Loud monstorious sounds of my housemate playing games, got BOOM, BAM, BOOMOOOOMMMMMM BAMMMMMMMM.. all that. but now its silent in her room.
and of cousre, the last sound i hear is me typing. how ironic
how much does God mean in our lifes.
a fren's blog spurred me today, questioned me to ask my self am i really living the life i want, or rather the life that God wants me to live.. and of course to be truthful and honest, no im not.
do i want to be? yes, of cousre. but getting there is another whole different story. im sure god is very disappointed, hurt, upset at me for what ive done and what i havent done for Him.. but rest assured ihope by his mercy N grace that things will change, and soon He will control every single area of my life. mannnn its so easy to say, but so hard to do. how much does God mean to me. how much do i want Him, and how much do i need Him. how much do i want to live for Him, how much do i want to serve Him, how much do i want to love His people, and how much do i want to live for Him. how much? how much..shim... ?
as the music fades, and the silence of the world is at my feet, and no voices or sounds remain, who iS the only one tat remains faithful with me till the end? its GOd.
who is the one who wont hurt me , its God
whos the one who love me unconditionlly, its God..
whos the one who provides for me, its GOd.
whos the one who knows every thing about me, its God.
its God, and so much more.
i want to love Him more, i want to know Him more. i dont wana just write, speak and think it, but i want it to be come action.
i need to yearn for Him like i never yearned before. i need to want Him more than ever before.
... the world declares His holiness,
....... the mountains speak of His name
..... in trouble, in strife, we proclaim
.... His Holy name..
......manifestations of a soul
.........one that is no longer whole
.......but searches the world
....a place to fit in, to belong
........somewhere to sing a song
..........all day long
.........its hard to be strong
.....its hard to have to hold on
.....its only Him we can look upon
......He's gracious and loving
..........when the world seems cruel
.....He's still the most precious jewel
.....to simply live for Him
.........He took away all my sin
........He's where my life begins
........most of the time im rude and crude
.......my life to Him i must surrender
...........for He is such a great splendor
.......a Holy name, a righteous God
.......my life, i give
......let my words sink deep
....the words that i write
.....may they let my heart ignite
.....i hold on tight
.........so much do i want to win this fight
..... i want You to be my hearts delight
AND the world declares his Majesty.
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