grrr .
Date: Apr 1st, 2007 1:24:54 pm - Subscribe
Mood: fat
im
really
peeved
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yuens . is . gone .
Date: Mar 30th, 2007 2:10:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: elated
To the shock, horror, and dismay of many brisbane southsiders, the photo (above) shows the intense firey flames of our favourite chinese shopping and eating complex...
not long after i got off the train, huge fog and haze and smoke bombarded me... all i could smell was smoke, was totally suffocating, i was thinking to myself man what is that smell.. then i got a sms from melly saying that yuens is on fire, at that stage i was like HUH r u sure anot??????
as i got in the car i told mom about it and she was in shock as well, we drove past, and yes, it was definatley on fire, i could see Red burning flames rocketing up into the sky.... the fire went on for a few hours.... Poor yuens supermarket, all gone.. so sad ok.. i wanted to go buy things there that day, but not a chance... all the lovely fish balls maggimee and dumplings all burnt to ashes and dust... sigh
theres many other chinese supermarkets around the area, but NONE that compares to Yuens, The big wide selection of products, the cheap prices..... there will be no more... now i have to settle for 2nd best or maybe even 5th best...
I am saddended by this fact, becuase I alwayas use to go there to buy things, and not to think that its not there, i dont know, the feeling is just numb...
The hub of sunnybank, has been destroyed.. i think yesterday was a bad day, aactually this week is a disasterious week, first some people died off the sydney harbour, their boat crashed and some girl is yet to be found, then jupiters casino's roof was on fire then yuens was on fire...... goodness me..
Well, i bid yuens good bye..
you'll be forever remembered.
until you are built again..
good bye
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hey . hey . its . saturday .
Date: Mar 24th, 2007 11:29:37 am - Subscribe
Mood: intoxicated
saturday has come and gone by in the blink of an eye.
worked the whole day, then went for dinner at punjabi kaka then went for dessert..
boy, was the dessert reallynice n urbanish! keke..
located right in the heart of the Kelvin Grove Urban Village is where you will find blue lotus keke..
we just chilled an ate icecream, so sleepy though today was such a long long long day..
it was really urban with a hint of asianness to it keke, the light fixtures wer really amazing some weird looking shape and some weird light that looks like a mop, and on the roof hanged some bird cages, with no birds inside.
This was our first 8 scoop of ice cream with flavours of seasame, rose and apple, mint and chooclate, chocolate chip, raspberry, strawberry, green tea and mango wow ie, was so nice keke, we decided it wasnt enuf and went back for more but of cosure when u want more, in the end it just tastes like crap.. haha and not to say we felt so majorly bloated after that
but none the less it was still pretty nice with 4 more scoops of taro, cola, passionfruit and delce de luca or something keke.. daniel thought we were crazy.. keke..
what a way to end a saturday..
a nother week has gone by so quickly, monday is coming around again...
assignments here i come.. 
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blog .
Date: Mar 23rd, 2007 9:32:51 pm - Subscribe
Mood: smug
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draw . near . to . Him .
Date: Mar 23rd, 2007 5:10:58 am - Subscribe
Mood: uplifted
our God is a awesome God.
He works in ways we will never understand..
These few days, the mention of God, and just to dwell in His presence brings me to tears , joyful happy tears, that He is with me thru thick and thin.
Im so sleepy and so tired and so stressed about doing my work but God, he ever so reminded me of the verse, "All you who are weary and burdened come to me, and I will give you rest".
indeed, what a powerful verse. Words, can be so powerful in life yo.
some days i wish i can bask in the presence of the Lord forever.. it feels so nice to just worship n worship with nothing but God in mind..
Always keep remdining my self, its all bout HIm and no one else but HIm...
to fall in love wit God over and over again..
He is the one that can take away all the pain
we have all but to gain..
He whispers words in to my ear
like a sweet surrender
that gently calms my fears
my heart feels at peace
because of all the Goodness that He has released
and with Him i know that I can carry on
the new has come, the old has deceased.
God has been good.
sijia, U r worthy of His Love....always know n remeember that.... never doubt and never question...
I hate doing assignments. one is due next friday but i have to do it now coz i will have no time later on..
convention in less than 2 weeks kaka, roaD trip!!!!! sydney melbourne here i come keke...
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overdue . photos .
Date: Mar 20th, 2007 6:47:02 am - Subscribe
Mood: frumpy
heres some photos that ive been lazy to upload for the last month or so kaka..
laziness is one of the things that haunts me..
anyway,
this photo below is from when sarah left kaka so thats like in feb someitme... hmm on the 25th of feb she left ..... superly early in the morning none the less, do misS her laughter.. and her chirpyness..
erm, lizhi i still need to get her num from you!
this next photo, is of when we all decided to go bowling, randomly.. we actually wanted to go drinking haha but then we saw a bolwing alley and we were like woop lets go bowling instead.. so we went, man i so wannted to steal the bowling shoes n take them home, i really liked them.. bowling was really funny, coz alot of carries bALLS longkang longkang all the time haha and i kept saying longkang when they bowled and it truly did go in the longkang.. but then wen i said chinchin which is jap for penis man, they striked yo!!!! hahhaa.. was o funny man that night...
last but not least, the latest outing was last sat, welcome back john park.. back to stay our 2nd most handsome guy from korea is back kaka... still looks the smae, but i tink he became whiter, i dont know how but he did manage to..
this photo is taken in the coffee place at portside, its pretty nce and the painting on the wall is pretty unique n stylish as well.. anyway thats the 3 of them sittin underneath it.. john allister n lizhi ... portside just opened not long ago i tink its mainly for the posh people to go theren drink coffee n go for expensive dinners..
indeed thats all for the time been..
going to melbourne soon in less then 3 weeks time, how time flies.. will get to see jen n jules again!!!! am definatley looking forward miss them heaps...
some days may well and truly suck, but others well they're just bliss..... 
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uH. . Hmmmmm
Date: Mar 17th, 2007 7:30:05 am - Subscribe
Mood: volatile
i dislike liars.
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insomnia .
Date: Mar 15th, 2007 4:35:04 am - Subscribe
Mood: scattered
tears fill her eyes
a never ending sadness that continues to beat so strongly deep inside.
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reality . strike . number . one .
Date: Mar 14th, 2007 12:50:21 pm - Subscribe
Mood: cantankerous
im surrounded by the fakeness of the human heart.
as things slowly begin to manifest themselfs, you realise that the only person apart from god tat u can rely on, is yourself.
people wont be there for you,not even your friends.
the world we live in is a cruel, cruel place, where the unforeseen comes back to haunt you time and time again.
when sometimes you realise,and quesiton everything you do, but then you're just left in a whirlwind of your own imagination or in a pool of confusion.
every single thing confuses the living shit out of you, for instance yourself, your friends, your studies, your work, your everything.
reality is life is not a bed of roses.
as time goes on, you change along with time, it takes you onto its own grip and moves you slowly along its mad time line.
soon, before you even know it, minutes, hours, days, weeks have past by, and you wonder to yourself,where did the time go?
and your answer is: u dont know.
the sad thing is, you cant go back in time to get back the time you lost, - its gone, forever.
photos, and writings, become nothing but a faint and distant memory waiting to be erased from your mind.
you try so hard to let the memories just slip away, your mind wants to, but your heart, well its just not ready to.
you cry out for some release, but u get no response, all you get is the buzzing and loud noises in your head, noises that never seem to end.
u want to do whats right , you always have wanted that, but sometimes, u ask your self is it all worth it?
half of u is answering Yes the other half, No.
to live in this world, and to survive it, its one of the most gruelling, cruelest tasks sometimes, but other days
its ok =)
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moshi . moshi .
Date: Mar 6th, 2007 11:51:24 am - Subscribe
Mood: coy
hajinemashite!!!!!
ogenki desu ka?
watashi no meshi desu.
haha
japanese is an insane langauge.
i fully want to be Jap! haha
they r really cool n nice and funny people.
kekekeke..
sarah left a 2 weeks ago back to good old korea. i hAve photos but am too lazy to post them ahha maybe soON inthe weekEnD..
ok..
oyasumninasai!!!
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i . hate .
Date: Mar 4th, 2007 2:26:45 am - Subscribe
Mood: cheated
i really hate economics
i see the subject
and i want to cry
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general . knowledge . not . so . general . to . me .
Date: Feb 21st, 2007 10:14:40 pm - Subscribe
Mood: colorful
haha, man i am really dumb.
FOR SURE.
yesterday i had a geography/chemisty/scientific/solar system lesson...by ms hannah ong.
hahhahahah it was so funny, i dint know jack
all this while, i think i forgotton my general knowledge and also dint know much bout the earth in which we live.
last time the earth used to be one huge land mass, and because of the ice age, this is why we have diferent land forms, and countries and why some isLands have gone under because of the water pressure.
also, i been wondering bout the green house effect, NOW I KNOW. haha, El nino also is anohter word i did not know, hahahhaha gosh gosh gosh, greenhouse effect, now i think i shoudl be more aware and conscious of my environment, and try to save whats left oF our earth, beacuse i think slowly the earth is rotting away, because of all the pollution, apparently there is Ga zillion tonnes of pollution up in the air, which is causing this green house effect, because when the suns rays come to earth then zap back up, theres heaps of pollution there hiks, tats why we should not use electricity Haha, but thats very hard anyway so perhaps forget it eh shim. haha
i found it funny that we r living on the outer layer of earth hahhahaha, bt none the less, its the truth and we are living on the outer layer dangling there like nothing.
apparetnly people say that hell is in the centre of the earth, apparently they dug reallyreally deep, and they could hear people screaming an stuff. HELL IS REAL people. please note that, and also note that u would not want to go there....
so hell is in the core of the earth where its so hot, anyway thats pretty interesting i thought.
and also we are on a orbit, duh. haha and the earth is spinning and moving constantly each day. kaka and when it makes one circle, thats 1 year for us, 365 days woopee..
we share the same sun as pluto i think it was. haha but stars are actually suns too i knew that one but now juz recapping. there r heaps of suns then juz they r too small for us to see, and OUR sun is so big kaka. the earth is an amazing planet haha. someitmes i cant believe we r living on a planet haha, and i tink there are some extra life forms on mars. haha who are they i think they are aliens really i do. haha
anyway that was my scientific lesson for the day. kaka thanks han
anyway, today im going to be tour guide. gosh. for ccm qut. to take the new students around brisbane and to show them all the shops and what not.
chinese new year was a few days ago, and now is coming to an end.. and school is starting next week
im so sad.. i have to go back to schooll, i deteste school :@ haha...
oh well.. i have no choice in the matter..
good morning world!!!
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riding . high .
Date: Feb 16th, 2007 3:36:48 am - Subscribe
Mood: sweet
i feel that lately, God has been giving me additional wisdom to the little amount of wisdom that i already have haha..
i feel very blessed lately, tohave found a part time job, to teach englsih to some korean people, and to be able to go to convention kaka.. it will be my first time, unbelieveable, i dont really want to go though, but i want to see jennifer n julie again and i guess if i go, thats my chance to see them i havent seen them in ages, and im missing them so convention ill go, and jen n julie ill see too.. hehe, but i hOpe i dont have exams or assignments that week otherwise i think it will be challeninging to go.
God works in ways, sometimes the human mind cant comprehend nor understand.
God has shown me, and given me many blessings....
im so grateful to get a part time job, so much so.... i can pay my bills, my cc, and save money for my trip at the end of the year.
our God works in ways we do not understand... He is really my provider.
to have great friends surrounding me i am so blessed, even though i maynot have many friends but the ones ihave, is more than enough for me =)
another week has gone by, and we are reaching the end of another month.
chinese new year is just like 2 days away, but i think its not such a big deal, becoz we 're living in brisbane its just kinda another gay old day... juz a time to eat and collect the ang pows. kaka..
i wana post photos of hannah n ronalds engagement!
ok.
heres for the Eyes to see
heaps of people came.. i reckon around 30... hehe... it was a good bbq, too much food, i reckon around 100 chickens were killed, 1 whole cow, 1 whole lamb. goodness, it was meat fiesta.
this is us at freestyler rosalie. we went to eat desert. yum yum man...
this is my delicious dessert, but i was way too full so i couldnt finish it, sigh. what a waste haha but it is really nice... so sweet and mouth watering kakaka...
this is Hannah's ring Wakakkakaa, but its on my HAND for testing hahha its really a nice ring i didnt really want to give it back after trying it on haha 
haha....
man , this was the first time i rode in a cool as convertable, we had the roof off and everything my hair was so everything thouh. haha but alot of people waved at us and said hi haha.. was hilarious... i never sat in a car with no roof, u feel so close to the road, so very close, its like u can see exactly whats going on.... hehe
was a great night ....
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whos . that . ?
Date: Feb 13th, 2007 5:31:30 am - Subscribe
Mood: irked
its my dearest.
check her out..
she looks so cute!! kakakaa....
happily dappily in malaysia
shes blossoming daily.. into a wonderful and beautiful flower !!!!!
miss U.!
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un titled .
Date: Feb 13th, 2007 3:40:38 am - Subscribe
Mood: glum
its valentines day tomorrow.
hiks.
how i haTe this day...
haha, but its ok.
hmmmm
havnet blogged in a while, lazy to blog andupload...
will upload photos soon.. tongiht perhaps or tomorrow ....
the toilet is calling me..
kaka
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for . the . record .
Date: Feb 4th, 2007 7:15:12 am - Subscribe
Mood: peeved
we had a hawiian night thingy e week thingy on friday, was pretty hilarious..
i smelt like bbq chicken after though haha but it was so hilarious especially the games i laughed until i cried man.
the insane games, took the night away really they did, especiialy the one where u had to put your hand in cold freezing water from a bucket and see who could leave it there the longest, haha i swear i thought my hand was gonna fall off right there in the bucket.
but none the less on the whole it was pretty alright.
another week has gone by again, next week then the week after is V DAY haha .. woopee for those lovers.
everyones been really moody lately haha.. and pimples r popping out everywher eon my face.. gosh.i think my period must be around the corner as such.
february is here, its pretty fast how time flies, lizhi and ee lee will be back soon! woopeee.... how ive missed them.... keke
anyway photos, from the night!
Where theres US , there is FOOD. ahha Food surrouNDs us, i think if we dint have food eating actitivites we wouldnt have much to do... haha :p
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listen .
Date: Feb 1st, 2007 1:22:34 am - Subscribe
Mood: random
very nice song ..
click and playyyyy. its beauitful....keke
Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete
Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release
Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....
[Chorus]
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believin you
You don't know what I'm feelin
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
Sooo long ago
Ohh I'm free now and my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your arms
All cause you won't
Listen...
[Chorus]
I don't know where I belong
But i'll be movin on
If you don't....
If you won't....
LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete
Oh,
Now i'm done believin you
You dont know what I'm feelin
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...
thats right..
u better listen!!!
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bribie . island .
Date: Jan 29th, 2007 4:19:42 am - Subscribe
Mood: sour
photos of bribie island trip.
i dint really enjoy it that much though.
was way too smelly, i think bribie island is like fish town, every one there is fishing hardcore.. haha and its so smelly and dirty.. i felt like the ocean was vomiting up all this grose dirt and stuf..
tangalooma is the best beach i ever been on, so clean, and the sand is so fine and soft, and the sea, is so so so nice, so clear, and so clean, you can see the sunlight sparkling down into the water.. best beach ever!
we dint catch a single fish ahhahhaa.. excpet perhaps one lttle cute fish that seya caught but threw back.
i think im not a fisher man haha..
but none the less, i gave it it a shot, donway is like seems to know everyhing bout everyhrting haha so he taught me how to throw the line in ahha and yeh, i tink fishing is all bout waiting for the fish to come attack ur line, which i guess is not my kind of thing at all, i dont have the patience for that. so after 3 minutes, i said see ya later to fishing, and hello to eating!!! haha.. what else can u do, if ur bored, but to eat right!?! haha
so me don n myrna headed off to the nearest cafe and ate.. even though the food sucked, but still it was alright.
i miss chinese food so much when i eat all this junk yaard stuff like fish n chips and all that fattening oily stuff.
the view is pretty nice though, the ocean is so wide wide wide n long hehe..
and the only way across to the island is by the big ugly bridge haha.. so i cannot imagine myself even living on an island like this, id feel so so so bored haha..
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reminice .
Date: Jan 28th, 2007 1:38:45 pm - Subscribe
Mood: queasy
my friend told me that kate hudson and matthew mcC (cant spell his last name goodness me!) were in town just a few days ago, why i did not know?!!! they were filming some new movie at QUT. haha QUT out of all Places.. sigh.. apparently they were doing a 4 minute take and it took so long haha.
life is going pretty slowly at the moment.
today watched the final of the men's tennis.. man it was realy intense and fully good.
at times i think back to my new zealand days, how i miss them sometimes even. hehe, my frends there, friends tat i made since young.
i dont know what makes us think of memories, for me i think i think of memories because either im bored or they are spurred by something thats happened, or ive just suddendly remembered those times..
i tink our brain is cool, it has heaps of compartments, where we can store our memories, yet still live our day to day life. it can adapt to situations, to different people, etc. haha
i have had so many good memories and so many bad ones i think they equal each other out. haha nah acutally more good ones yay. hoho...
i think life is getting more n more unpredicatable.
i m still the same old crazy me
we went to bribie island the other day, was so hot i think like 37 deg, dint manage to get much of a tan though.
brisbane is going to start drinking recycled water by next year how great is that? goodness me...
i miss everyone today.
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internal . affairs .
Date: Jan 21st, 2007 7:33:54 am - Subscribe
Mood: psychotic
yet again another hot n scorching day, a great day for tanning, and indeed tat is wat i done... feeling very hot now though kakaka..
yesterday night we all went to this new korean place BBQ in sunnybank, surprisingly it was really really nice.. the service was good, and the food was great. kakaka.. even tho we stunk like bbq after.. many the food was yum yum!
check out all the food yo.... haha, korean food is mainly side dishes though... so there were heaps of sides, but the sides were the best.
after the dinner we went to watch dejavu. goly, it was fully good. i was kept in suspense the whole way thru..
dejavu to the max haha..
sometimes i wonder if actualy my whole life is just a dream and i havent woken up yet... if it was man,i think its one of the most real dreams ive ever had.. haha..
the movie was like back tracking into time, using this relaly cool machine. its too complicated and complex to explain coz i hav no idea wat kind of machine it was but it was cool... too scientific for me anyway.. in the middle of the movie, someone behind me sneezed, haha me n ee lee couldnt stop laughing!!! somemore after the movie they told me that id found my sneezing partner already. haha.. but the sneeze was really funy, the noise the loudness n the way the person sneezed cracked me up to the max man haha. :p
as the photos show, thats the 4 of them giving speeches, and han in the blue keke, n us singing them a song!!! aww...
back tracking to friday night, we had a small farewell for hannah ronald priska n wei hoong at caregroup... yet again people are leaving, but yes, as we all know its about time that they leave.. hannah somemore engaged already, i think its about time huh!hehe... we sang to them, we presented them with a multimedia and gifts and some of us shared our hearts with them kaka..
coming to think back about all these people, they have been in daniel one for so long, since day one... DAY ONE man....
so its gona be so weird witout them there.
thinking back on the memories, made me think and apprecaite thEm so much more. especially my dear dear hannah. she is such a dear person to me. without her i literally would not be alive today.
she has been there wit me thru thick n thin. stood by me thru it alL.. as i began to speak bout all the great she has done, haha made me sad a bit to actually come to the realisation that she is going. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
but i know is for a reason.. and god has already told me that thru one session of praise n worship, where he siad that he will take away the support group from me. wah.. i couldnt believe my ears... haha and to stand independantly wit Him, not with others woo.. wat a challenge it will be!!! ahha but i wil get there, slowly......
but indeed hannah has been a tremendous blessing into my life, she never fails to make me laugh.... althe time crakcing jokes, bullying me, haha :p
the thing i like about our relationship is that its very open, we can joke around, muck around and do all sorts of stuff, but yet when it comes to shepherding and serious stuff ie: god, its serious time.. theres always a time for serious sutff n always a time to joke around.
i seen her change from been a single lady, to been an attached ENGAGED lady kaka..
its been a funny yet interesting journey to see her relationship with ronald flourish into what it is now... to see how in the past she was still gettin to kno him slowly and now wah. they r like so in love.. im happy tat she has found him, even though in the beginning actualy i was quite skeptical about the whole thing, i see tat he will treat her really good 
and she deserves to have the best treatment..
she has been so caring, so loving, so dedicated, sacrificial, humble n all things under the sun.... hehe
she is all things lovely.
hehe... m0ving on to another chapter in her life..... she is my shepherd n my very good frend, she'LL always be.
love u banu nanu... keke
u kno u always hav my support n my help for ever.. always here 4 u !!!
indeed, years have past, n people have moved onto a nother chapter of their lifes! working life... hehe im sure they are all gona be great blessings to ng3.
oh ya.. forgot as well, to say that Jen n KEn r Also Engaged haha, gosh this is the year of engagements keke...
so happy for them all....
jennifer n kenneth r also a very very good match kaka.. :p
cant wait to attend your wedding...
life is moving
faster n faster
ba dA b00m!
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two . thousand . and . six . went . out . with . a . BANG .
Date: Jan 17th, 2007 2:53:50 pm - Subscribe
Mood: sleepy
felt like making my photos from 2006 pretty to post up keke...
ive chosen my favourite photos from 06... heaps.. haha...
THATS IT WOOPEE
good bye 06 hope 07's photos r cooool tooooo!!! hehe..
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living . in . the . desert .
Date: Jan 17th, 2007 10:44:08 am - Subscribe
Mood: ok
these past few days have been scorching... mentle hotness to the core.... its been a frigging desert.. haha
none the less, im in the search of finding as many jobs as i can so that i can store up the bling hhaa... so far, its going average... want to find more though, just went to pancake manor to apply wit mel, hope tat we can get it yo, its so near, and so walkable, so goooood let me get it god please.
i got one huGe pimple on the side of my cheek my Goodness, its really huge im gona pop It, i cant stand it anymore haha..
as you worship God more n more n as u pray more n more, and surrender everything unto His mighty hands, every thing just seems ok in your life, like rely on Him, fully and everythings gona be alright.
slowly, changes are happening.
they will happpen
u jus gotta hav faith yo!
im so sleepy again i napped but then just i feel very sleepy...
lizhi left yesterday hiks.. hihi even tho its a short departure, kinda alreadymiss her and her fruits n veges already.
we celebrated her bday b4 she left, even tho its on like the 3rd of feb, but we deicded to give her a really advanced one hehe. as she was swimming we brought cake down to the pool n celebrated there haha..
got photos, but havnt had the chance to load them in the computer yet...
hope tat time flies by this year..
please time just fly ur self !!!!
i wana shower.. haha im smelly n sweaty.. eww....
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the . pursuit . of . happYness .
Date: Jan 15th, 2007 6:02:39 am - Subscribe
Mood: unreal
thIs movie, was very good.
was heart warming, and so touching....
about a kid and father, striving to be happy, just wanting to get by.
these few days ive been sneezing like theres no tomorrow, ive been using so many tissues, and yup i want my NOSE gone. its majorly getting me very agro and angry n agitated haha... i hate my nose so much.
yesterday also, went to see joyce meyer! a motivatonal speaker from the usa.
indeed, her teachings were so real, and so practical was i like wooooowiwwwwiieeee..
she spoke about emotions, and taught on how not to let your emotions take control of you and your life.
since im an emotional person, what she said really spoke to me, and i took a long hard look at the way i feel, and to justify the way i feel.
spur of the moment emotions are times in which no costly decisions should be made. we shouldnt base our deicsions on feelinges alone, if we did, i think everyone would be lazy bums, not doing a single thing. but intead we should do what is right in Gods eyes.
we have to learn to control our emotions and not let them take control of us.
anyway ive got terrible memory but i wrote notes, so i can re fer to them when necessary.
nothing much alse doing today.
tomorrow going to the airport yet again
and going to go for job training.
hope i can get it hehe..
thats it, im so sleepy
i think im gona nap.
gd nite
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u . r . my . healer .
Date: Jan 12th, 2007 2:28:16 pm - Subscribe
Mood: changed
God is our healer.
as i heard news about mike from planetshakers that he is sick, and has cancer, really so sad to hear, but sitll he chose to stand firm in God, still going out on the last day of the melbourne convention to preach to the crowD...
indeed God is our healer..
today, christine came across an interesting little short what she called 'poem' bout time... and i think its pretty interesting...
To realise the value of one year ask a student who's failed a grade
To realise the value of one month
Ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
To realise the value of one week, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realise the value of one day, ask a daily wage labourer with several children's mouths to feed.
To realise the value of one hour, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realise the value of one minute, ask a person who missed the train.
To realise the value of one second, ask a person who has just avoided an accident
and to realise the value of one millisecond, ask a person who won a silver medal at the olympics.
How important is time to all of us?
1 minute, 1 second and 1 millisecond, could change and alter the circumstance, or situation, - it could be life changing, and life defining.
treasure time, and make the most of it
it wont come around for the 2nd time.
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girls . get . periods .
Date: Jan 10th, 2007 3:01:05 pm - Subscribe
Mood: ugly
and everyone runs away.....
isnt that the case? that time of the month will always come around for us, and we'll start to look sad and gloomy, we'll start to scold people, we'll start to complain even more than we do before, we'll even cry perhaps, and we'll feel so down and negative... (well, me anyway haha). period makes u gl00my... guys, are lucky to not get them at all.. b0gg0r...
and the WORST of them all is that, we get PIMPLES.......grrr..... so many have been popping out on my face, i want to sand paper my face away along with the pimples. goodness me, they feel so annoying and i just wanna keep scratching them but i know i shouldnt otherwise its just gonna get worse...
this is day one, day two hopefully gets better. day one feels like complete and utter crap, haha stomach aches until u feel so lousy to do a single thing, so you just sleep.
as the days go by, it improves.. hehe, they call it PMS, but then its CMS i think, current menstrual stress instead of "PRE" menstral stress...
ok, lets leave that behind.....
i just came back from watching blood diamond..... my goodnes, its one of the best movies, apart from the holiday (u cant really compare the 2, because they're both in different categories) but man,was it inTENSE!!! 2 Hours n 22 minutes of intenseness, i dint one time get distracted, my whole focus was on the movie the entire time... lol... it was fully action packed, my heart raced through out it all.
its so tragic to see the way in which africa was and still is now. to see so many young, innocent lifes taken away, to see all the blood and gore. these movies always get you thinking man, wat a wonderful world we live in, wat we want is just a stones throw away, and yet, we still complain about the food we eat, the clohtes we wear, the distance we have to walk, we complain about everything.
while we're complaining theres like thousands of people suffering, in refugee camps, some just wanting to get by the next day, some been killed, some been torturted, some been raped.
they just want to survive.
theres so much hate in this world.
after watching this movie, it made me realise yet again what a cruel world we live in.
the movie brought the reality to life.
a very inspiring movie, and really a movie everyone shuld watch, you're heart will be touched..
today i feel ugly, but who cares right.
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no . pain . no . gain .
Date: Jan 8th, 2007 1:27:40 pm - Subscribe
Mood: empty
jannuary is soon coming to an end. its funny how we were just celebrating the new year and now 1 month is going to be over..
time does fly..
all the randomness and thoughts n emotions have come to me, i think my period is coming haha, i like to blame my emo-ness on my period well.. becuz it seems to be that every time its coming, i feel gloomy and emo. and i think its coming prety soon, coz pimples r coming out to play and also yes, not to forget the moodiness..
oh.. i cut my hair today, i have become, 'singa sedikit rambut'... haha thats according to hannah. my head feels 5 kg lighter, the lady cut so much, wowie, my hair is fully thick to the max.
gloomy days are around the corner for me, as everyone departs back to home countries for holidays.. haha, time to ponder , reflect, pray and seek god in this time of alone-ness..
there are many things i want to do actualy, look for job, church formatting stuff to do, preparing farewells for cg, goodness..
dont know where to start.
dont even know i want to start.
dont know how to start.
sometimes i think who are we to judge other people.
i judge people. but who i am i to judge others.
i dont want to, but someitmes i cant help it, and it just comes out as vomit
how alot of us aim to be a 'better person' than the one we are now - define better person. indeed, many answers i will get,is 'become more Christ like ra ra'. yup, sometimes you have to force your self to think beyond the square / circle / rectangle.. which ever shape u may choose.
in the end, is it all worth it??????? all that we do, becoz of you.
when you feel lost, and confused, He is all you got. He is all you need. and He is all that you will ever want.
when you come to experience Him intimately, He is what you want to keep experiencing, you just wish and long for that touch again.
this is the end goal.
but to get there, is a bit challenging.
b0gg0r!!!
haha
there are people who tell me, live this life to the fullest, we only have one life to live, our time on earth is very short.
then there are people telling me that life is the most longest ting we will ever do here on earth...
i dont know la..
whatever comes, whatever goes..
today i jogged haha first time in the OPEN public AIR that i jogged.
i think i jogged about 5 Km, if im not mistaken haha 5 km or less... from tank tower to QUT then across the good will bridge along to southbank then along the victoria bridge home.. haha i almost literally DIED. even though we walked some of the way man, im so unfit to the max..
sweat sweat poured down in and out around and up and down me. and my face turned into red tomatos haha...
i felt like i had ran 1000 miles.
then somemore go back, we did 100 stomach crunches and some weird other things haha..
consistency is wat i need and by the end of the year 5 kg i can loose.
routine and consistency.
thats this years plan.
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untitled .
Date: Jan 7th, 2007 9:54:52 am - Subscribe
Mood: chaotic
god
dearest god
please help me.
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as . far . as . the . eye . can . see .
Date: Jan 4th, 2007 4:03:07 pm - Subscribe
Mood: mystified
another day gone past,
cooking again today, for the multitudes haha.. :p but actually quite enjoy cooking. dont know why dont know , really dont know but just DO!!!!
hmm, new years eve, the low down was...
we ate dinner, cooked dinner, then we went up to melly's plc to drink.. haha
we started drinking around 1030 pm, and i was pretty loopy by about 1130, coz we played snakes n ladders, and lucky for me i dint land on any of those ' take a shot' or 'take a double shot'....
in the end i dono , i dont thik i drank tat mch but i was like tomato looking already..
this really crappy guy, the most ungentleman guy i ever met in my life, he was such a Beep i can enter many bad words in there but i shall NOT... he keep forcing us girls to drink - wheres the compassion in that, and he was been a total arse, if i could i wouldve dumped him over the balcony so hed shut up! singapore guys. TSK TSK... wat have they become?! sigh!
ive never met such a rude and utterly monsterious guy in my life before.
wat a dork.
a MCP is what he is.
thats the dinner i and ee lee cooked, yum yum, simple yet yum ! haha..
indeed, can u see my face is fully as red as nearly the same color as my tee shirt haha. and that stupid guy in the back ground, man.. he kept asaying drink more, u cannot like that, umust drink, he was just plain rude, its hard to explain or describe his rudeness coz my english is limited hahahha 
but yeh, he is really rude ful stop.
last week i watched the holiday and night at the museum.
the holiday must have been one of the best movies i have ever watched. it was so funny, and so romantic, and jude law, well waht can i say, he truly did take my breath away!! he was dam hot man, as hot as fire... he was on FIREEEEE yum yummmmmmm... nite at the museum was shit, was fnny but i think they gave away too much in the ad's so it kinda spoilt it, and it was so unrealistic, like pls, comeon, where in the world would the museum come to life!
i just finished talking to po, regarding if shes the best out of the best. hahaha and i decided shes one ofthe best that god is the best, but she is 1 of them, whic means shes not the best but shes 1 of the best which means shes in the cateory of the best but stil not the best, just a part like everoyne else whos in the best group, is the same eqaulity haha... mabe this is eeasier to comprehend po in writing? kakaka.
oh ya, before i forgot, this is wat chuilian gave me , so cute
i found out as well today that some parts of malayisA are separated by south china sea, was like :O serious? haha.... goly my goly, wat happened to my geography?? :|
when my cousin was here we sat city cat, boy was the view breath taking.. so nic eman, so dam nice.
i was liek wowieee... but it was one of the longest city cat rides of my entire Life.. 2 . 5 frigging hours,no wonder i fell asleep haha..
somemore met that moon young there.
brisbane is actualy a quite a prettyplace, even though it may shut and sleep pretty early, a city tat sleepes early, its still nice to live in. the views, the eateries, the PEOPLE just make it a whole new better place..... and i just fall in love with it again n again..
i got more photoss tat i wana put up, but im lazy already..... coz it takes so much effort to make my photos all pretty kakaka..
i think this week ive been cooking heaps. im gona make RIBS on this weekend woo, i cant wait i love them heaps.. hihi
forever eating.
sigh.
nope.
but i need to exericse, coz ive been pronounced fat, by many many humans around me. so whenever lizhi goes exericing im tagging along keke.. and i need to do stomach crunches daily. shit.. my stomaCh is bombastically huge.
i have not many feelings about this year, but all i know is that i aint superly overly happy, and i aint overly superly sad, im more in between the black and white, which is good actually.
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a . new . year . has . begun .
Date: Jan 2nd, 2007 3:00:07 pm - Subscribe
Mood: deep
i tink im pretty forgetful, or rather i got a disease of STM.(short term memory)
sometimes i forget things that just happened like 1 hour ago or who im suppose to meet tomrorow, haha but in the end i can remember...
its what, the 3rd day of the new year, but it dosent feel very new.
dont ask why, coz i dont know.
spent the day reminiscing on many things today, began n wondered why im so unmotivated to do things, to loose weight, to read, to do everything..
gosh... dont know what is wrong with me..
ive been saying im gona post photos up for ages now, haha but still i havnet, im too sleepy to post, or rahter no mood to post them...
back to normal this week, a week of just doing house hold chores, going out for coffee's and dinners and just mucking around the house... and yes indeed searching for a frigging JOB and also doing some church stuff... gosh.. i have acutally got a list of things to do which ive completley forgotton actually.
if i sit around the house for the next 2 months im really really not gonna want to even go back to uni again. aha so i beter get up n do some thing.
everyone's going on holidays soon and leaving me all alone here snif..
ive nothing much to say because i dont know whats going on in my head.. sometimes its so happy sometimes its so sad.. haha
its mixed emo's yo haha
but i know at the end of the day i must be Happy...
good night
p/s sOmething that po read to me, which i was touched by... written by some lady. haha
i love the way we're us,
there's nothing we can't discuss,
the way we know each other's moods,
our warm romantic interludes,
i love the way our smiles reflect,
our common trust and deep respect,
the strength we share to conquer doubt,
the way we work our problems out,
i love the way we can laugh and tease,
i love our similarities,
the little flaws tht we ignore,
each never felt like this before,
i love just one look or touch,
can feel so right, can mean so much,
the best of you, the best of me,
combine to make a perfect we!
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dj . says . rewind . rewind .
Date: Dec 30th, 2006 12:17:45 pm - Subscribe
Mood: complicated
keke, coz i been too busy to uPload photos , im a bit free tonight n in a photo uploading mood, but still got alot to up loAd, but tonight just upload the remainding of my birthday and xmas presents!!!
2 presents one from shuhan for xmas was a $15 target voucher which i have so happily usd to buy chocolate and cds.. ahha
and also from ron n han for my bday i got MONEY yo bling bling!!! woo....
amy n keith bought me this country road bag for my xmas n bday present. so nice so nice..
hehe, love it so much!!!!
Anklet, silver from ee lee for christmas! woo,i broke mine ages ago, so was so happy to get !!!
billabong key chain from lizhi keke.. so Cute n nice
cute photo frame from carrie KAKAKA
whos goin in IT? hehe i WOnder..
of cousre my PO
kekekekek
k thats all i guna write since yeseterday i wrote a tank of an entry
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my . prayer . today .
Date: Dec 29th, 2006 4:24:53 pm - Subscribe
Mood: weak
today
its my prayer tat i can love the unloveable...
that i can love those who i wudlnt want to love.
sometimes im so sick of my attitude, the selfishness, the meanness, and the sense of no compassion tat i have for some people around me..
its hard to love.
it is.
its hard to care when u dont like that person.
it is.
as i begin to realise many many things as the year is approaching to an end, i begin to see my bad side.. i begining to hate it, and i beginning to really want to get rid of it...
i wonder someitmes am i that mean.
and i am i think.
im sElfish.. HUMAN ..
im unthoughtful hUMan ....
haha
but thats me..
god will help me i know, he will.
he must!
heheh
im sick of alot of things
the question is Do i want to change.
aNd if its for the best, of cousre i will want to change.
cHange me o god...
renew my heart..
renew my mind..
help me to love ur people..
give me a heart of compassion..
help me to love those tat i find hard to love..
help me to reach out n save more souls for u ..
i really pray that next year will be a brighter year..
haiyo. i wnat to put photos soon..
very sooon.. jus wait
but actually, thinking bout things this year, i have been very blessed..
to know so many kind n lovely people around me, people tat have been there n supported me.
i always use to complain that man brisbane is so boring, nothing to do, ppl r crap, etc, but now when i compare my life back to the life i had in new zealand and here, i feel like my life here has so much more meaning.
i been thinking lately bout how much i treasued n loved my nZ frends,but now i just cant be bothered to even contact them... its true. haha to my dismay, our purpose n meaning in life is so differnet.
after my 2 years here and attending this church, i really begin to cherish people more, and get to know alot of really great people... they have changed my life, for the better..
now i can say that brisbane is such a great place to be, its really true, its the people that make the place, not the place that makes the people...
im so greateful to the close frends i have, to hannah whos been wit me from day one here, whos seen the worst of me, to the good of me, whos stood by me thru every single thing ive been thru, whos helped me, whos practically saved my life. even til now, the kindness shes shown to me thru her sarcastic words, her care, and her time and money, il never forget.
to poh lin whos been such a great encouragement in my life, who ive shared so so so so so many happy moments with, who ive cried with, who ive spent the most excessive amount sof time with for 2 months straight... whos just been such a real true and genuine fren to me, one tat ill never ever forget.... one tat even though distance separates us, our hearts are always joint words just cant describe how i feel for her!!!! such a close frend sUch a close friend, one tat i hold so dearly in my heart, so dearly....
to jennifer as well, who over the years, never failed to help me, who always when i had a problem would go and fight for me, when i had issues with QUT she took time off work to come with me to talk to the ppl, who will at all costs find solutions for me for my problems, who will sit there and think with me when im stuk, who will so generously treat me to go on holiday, who wil so generously helpme wen im low on the bling... whos been there for me
to chuilian who from the beginning i am not close with at all, but her generiousity astounded me, baffled me and left me dumbfounded... such a caring frend, a frend who wil cook for me, and do things for me, who wil bring me here n there, who wil yell at me, and want to kill me. a friend who has supported me, generously given to me, and who has spoken into my life, and given me so much joy and laughter. a freind who left me without saying good by e haha, but i know her heart... a reliable a fren tat i can count on when ever i need help or am in trouble, shes there.
to julie, whos been a great fren over the years, even though we've had many many rough patches, we still seem to be able to mend them and move on.., shes been my room mate, and my house mate, and my good frend.. shes helped me, cooked delicious food for me, been there for me, cried with me, pinched me, wanted to kill me, helped me, borrowed clohtes to me, done so much for me.
to yean lii who has been a great fren as well, whos showd support, whos cared for me, whos sent me sms's to see how im doing, whos encouraged me to seek God eve tho shes not chrisitan haha, whos offered help to me, treated me meals, been there for me..
to ee lee my current room mate whos like an older sis to me, whos always teasing me haha, whos always offering me food, alwways helping me, always scolding meeee, always telling me to clean bathrooom, house n our room.. who has always given me presents, helped me out here n there... thank u, wat a gd fren u are n wat a great wife u will be haha...
to lizhi hoho... indeed, a new fren, whcih i kinda was 'forced' to get to know ahha coz she is chuilians fren, so from begining i was like hmm but after a while, i begin to see wat agreat person she is, and imnot just writing this coz i know shes gona read this but truly from my heart, after getin to know her more, i begin to see how patient she is, how helpful she is, and how nice she is. helping me she has always done... even tho i cannot spend mch time wti her coz shes always sstudying, haha indeed ive learnt to eat veges n fruits so much more than ever before. very motivated, and never gives up...
to melly, my new fren haha, who always knows how to tease me, haha :p but is such a kind n lovely sister always crakcing jokes, sharing wit me thankful n greateful to know u n hope that i will be knowing u more next year ur cuteness ur generous heart
to david, who is my good guy fren whos been there for me from DAY NUMBER 1 to now, whos helped me out in all my classes, whos gone t class wit me, told me not to wag, but yet i do, whos been ther for me whos cried whos laughed n whos smiled with me...
to don whos always always made me laujgh, whos seen me thru my darkest moments whos drank wit me, got drunk wit me, haha talked sense into me . inded i had so many many laughs with this bro.. a great person he is, always cracking jokes always coooking, and buying an making me bubble tea
i dont have many close frends, but the ones i do have, is enough for me. half of them r halfway across the ocean, but still..., they are my closest....
ive taken so much, and now i know i need to give back... i need to , i must....
im satisfied with the friendships i ve made, someitmes i dont tink i need or wnat to make any more frends haha, but i know i must.
God. pls give me the heart for ur people
i hope 2007 will bea much more exciting year, one in which im not so lazy to do things, one in whcih im not so lazy to speak to people and also to delveop relatonships with them.
sometimes i feel very sian.... like wah.. my life, wats going on.. but then i always have to hit my slef n tell my self tat i am very fortunate to have great frends around me, a loving God, n family here.
i need to learn to appreaciate them more..
i want to give back..
i do..
not only i just say it, but i mean it..
give me time...
i will make it..
i pray tat God will change my heart and restore n renew me for next year!
i dont know what words to descirbe what i am feeling, so just leave it.
sometimes i feel like im going crazy.. haha
but i know that what i feel is stupid n very spur of the moment, and that everyhitng will be ok tomorw.
wen my head hurts, when i got ulser in my mouth, when my teeth hurt and my eyes hurt, i am MOODY to the max.. but i shuldnt be.
keke..
sorry
this is the person i am.
the true true me..
im not a nice person, really im not.
im only nice to those i want to be nice to.
haha..
but none the less
im working on it..
i need strength from up above..
tonight christine siad we need to treat our life here on earth like a mission trip.. haha hmmm indeed to an extent i do agree wit her but i am yet to reach tat stage where i want to go n plant church i tink im more of a stay here person n pray for those who go to plant church hahaha...
as 2006 comes to an end, i pray n hope tat 2007 brings much more joy, and happiness n ever lasting friendships r been made, old been restored n tat my relationship wit God will grow n develop so much more into the most intimate of all relationships....
only You know how i feel..
only You know the depths of my heart
only You can restore this pain
only You can take away all the insane stuff that goes on
only You can make me a better person
only You can bring me to places ive never been..
only You. only You. You alone can restore me and bring me new life..
only You are the one n living Saviour of this World..
2006 i bid u good bye
hello 2007 !!!!
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happy . birthday . to . YOU .
Date: Dec 28th, 2006 3:42:05 pm - Subscribe
Mood: hardcore
Its my dearest's birthday =)
even though i may be busy, and forget things, ive never ever forgotton ur birthday never ever..
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
sorry that im not there to celebrate with you, but i do wana wish u my dearest fren the happiest of birthdays
hope tat all your dreams and wishes come true
love you lots...
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merry . christmas .
Date: Dec 25th, 2006 2:28:53 am - Subscribe
Mood: ditsy
merRy ChRistmas...
happy new year.....
been too busy to write in heRe..
i wanna put up heaps of photos n stuff like that, but it will have to wait until new year is over
the next few days will be goin around brisbane out of brsbane, touring. woo!
hehe, my ear is gone.. i think im permanently going deaf..
but none the less...
chRistmas is here ...
woo...
celebraton time.... not just celebraton amongst frends n fam, but celebRaton of the birth of our Lord, Jesus Christ...
rite rite riTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
eat more, and get fat in this festive season... kekekek..
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emo . town .
Date: Dec 21st, 2006 6:15:20 am - Subscribe
Mood: incomplete
i been so sleepy these few days.
i think it must be coz i been goin out heaps, and doing all this walking n crap.
my cousin arrived on tues night.
im sure yest wen went to dreamworld i walked at least 5 km.
today also mt tambourine, nearly dead haha. slept half way back to brisbane..
but its good stuff
think i ll be putting on heaps of excess weight this few weeks coz of the excessive amounts of eating tat wll be going on..
sigh
tonight going to christmas lights 3 hour bus ride around northern suburbs..
goodness..
hope its good..
it better be.
i always never learn my lesson..
always fall into the same traps time n time again..
no more... had enough.. who can put up n go thru all the bull shit..
the heart is a fuct up place.. where all the fukt up things happen...
ppl say, wahtever dosent kill u, only makes u stronger..
beep...
i beg to dffer..
mAkes me friggn lunatic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ha, no .. in a way yeh it makes u stronger.. so nxt time u wont fall into the same trap again n u;ll be liek see ya later dude..
got alot of photos tat i wana post, but cant today.. perhaps tomorow or sat..
im just gona reLax at home tomorow. then got our xmas cg thingy goin on.... i hav to practice the sign langauge.. gosh..
my ears beeN ringing the whole day...
fck im full of complaints..
haha
but its ok its blog
i wana jus complain al the shits outta me...
i look ard, the ppl ard me n i see alot fo them facing the same issues wt bGR... cant help but to feel the pain they must feel
the hurt, the anguish, the waiting, the tears, the heart break. love hurts.
i read on a frens blog something bout love which is so true, but i forgot the blog site and i forgot what she wrote. haha
its ok..
as long as I know..
anywaya, i tink this month is like over soon, so glad.. next year faster come n get over wth.. so i can
get married.
haha
jokes
not.
nah
dono
hai..
anyway
talk rubbIsh..
merry christmas n happy new year.!!!!
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happy. birthday . to . me .
Date: Dec 19th, 2006 3:25:30 am - Subscribe
Mood: merry
haha..
hmm, wat a day. haha
blogging!
ehhe
on sunday went to celebrate me n amy's birthday at punjabi yum yum... so yum hehe...
was a great time, with everyone,jus laffing away, get teased until gila.. haha but yeh, it was alll good
thanks to mel who organise the whole event
then yesterday nite went to watch the guardian , was really good! very touching story.. i never wana drown.... im so scared to die drowning lol.. i prefer to die a calm death not one in the water because its really really diabolical to die in sea... its fully freaky yo...
after the movie i came bak, then i was like hmm something strange is goin on here haha... but then suddendly wen i was on the fone to ah po they came in and sung hapy birthday to me and also got cake yum yum.. been eating so much cake lately tho haha.. its been nut jobed yo..
so tehre i was in my sleeping clohtes n my plasters on my face was like wat da.. hahaha
cake was nice, TIRAMISU! hehe.. very nice cake, yum yum.. so much cake eating lately!
and the good part, hehe got presents woopeee, more presents kakaka..
this one is from my dearest jen.. her lovely pooh pencil case.. hehe so cute
not to forget lar, that she treat me go gold coast for the weekend
this toiletries bag i think it is anyway haha is from jessie! woo, roxy yo ! thanks
FCUK rock my woRLD im in love with all things from fcuk !! hehe mel got me this. cap and tee. ' no fcuking worries' lol.. mad shizza yo.. hehe THANKS
wooopeeeeee, vouchers again myer voucher $50 from ee lee ... thanks dearest room mate hehe
and then wat great timing post man came today, to deliver lisans pressie all the way from good old malaysia! haha a cute teddy bearr.. awww thanks pastor san san! hehehe...
thanks to everyone who celebrated my bday wit me, sent me sms's, wrote me bday cards, gave me presenets.. kaka indeed im very grateful to know everyoneeee for their thoughtfulness n generositiy
tats it for now..
hehe
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parting . is . such . sweet . sorrow .
Date: Dec 17th, 2006 5:02:51 am - Subscribe
Mood: ghetto
before i begin,
let me say happy birthday to ee lee for yesterday (16th dec), and let me get off my chest that,man it sucks to see people leave.
it sucks to be the one that stays, but you see every one leave. to go to the airport constantly to send your beloved friends off... indeed, over the past few weeks ive had that feeling of emptyness in my heart... even though i know that these people ill see again but still emptyness.... sadness tat i cant see them again.
i always get flash backs of the memories, and even though memories perhaps are suppose to make you happy, sometimes they make me sad. haha..
this is something im stil learning to over come, to rely upon greater strength, strength tat wil allow me to feel happy all the time
by God's grace i will
yesterday at the airport, was sad again, seeing jen go , just really made me think, man everyones really going, they r for real man.. just was so fcuked up in the a hole.. haha thank goodness i dint shed tears of a river.. only a drop here n there.
ill miss jen, heaps. her smile, her talkativeness, and HER. hehe, shes been there with me thru ups n downs, everything..
alamak jen, why u wana leave for haha..
yes but as life goes on, we will stil meet again!!! yay...
Today though, as i was worshipping God, i hadnt felt God's presence and his Love in my heart for a long time... today i realy said to Him that i want to seek Him wholeheartidly, i dont want to think of anything but Him when i worship, and i didnt... all i could think of was how Great our God is.. He, filled my heart with His love... and gave me the peace i needed.... and even though the journey may be tough and even though i may be suffering now, its for the best., that i need to see things in a bigger picture, that people will come and go in my life... but god, He is forever.. He'll never leave me.... indeed, in the long run, i want my mentality to be thinking like that.. its hard i must admit, even now, but i know in the long run thats what my goAl is, that i want to Full rely upon Him, fully tRust in Him, put my faith in Him, so tat he will carry me thru the good times n the bad.. just like the song we sang today,
' with all i am ', into your hands i commit again with all i am for you Lord, ill walk with you whever you go, thru joy and pain...
something like that..
that song is very very nice..
sometimes, we just have to be willing to open our selfs up, to let God work in our lifes, and to commit everyhting unto Him, its hard , fully hard, but in the long run, its worth it =) coz he is worth everything..
so on a brighter note, i feel better compared to yesterday
theres not a doubt in my mind, that i will forever love and forever miss those close friends who have left.. jen, po, chui lian.. never ever will i forget them! and i know we are gonna meet soon!! righte ah po? hehehe vry soon!!!!
on another brighter note, at 12 mid night saturday we celebrated ee lee's birthday with a cake and song. hehe, lizhi baked a blue berry cheese cake, my goodness it was so niceeeeeee beter than any store bought one.
then the next morning, i went to accompany dear jen with her errands and we went xmas shoping for the last time!
hehe, i tried on her engagement ring, man i dint wana take it off after that n she was fully yelling at me, take it off take it off ai yahhhh dont be like that .. lol.. it felt so nice to wear it. i do nOT know why!
and she gave me her gold ring that she'd been wearing for over 3 years.. awww,so sweet of her.... heh, treasure it wit my heart n wear it until i meet her again.. sigh i dont like gold.. haha
then after that our house hold + carrie went to hogs breath to celebrate ee lee's birthday! woohoo, steaK! woopee, yum yum..
n we had mango cake, can u imagine i ate 5 PIECES.. 5!!!!!!!!!!! yup, i swear i wil never eat cake again lol.. but dis morning i ate a bit of cheese cake errrr shim....
after that, i came back, waited to go to the airport to farewell my jen off. heh, thank God that her luggage was just fine.. the lady was so nice .. hehe
my last photos with her =(
indeed, was a sad time.. but happy for her tat she is starting her new life with kenneth in melbourne
after tat came home, cooked....
and thats about it
and i did receive some birthday presents already!woo!!!!! 3!
chek them out yo!
this one is from priska and alvin... some shower gel and soap thingy .. hehe thanks
this one is from carrie, a funny looking flower lol, so pink n so long can use as cane haha, and also a myer $30 voucher! woo! thankasssssss
and a fossil watch strap! wakakaka, i wanted this for ages.... fully love it to the max yo! heh... from lizhi n shuhan thanks u both
haha, december is fulLLLL of presents gaLore! haha...
tonite goin to celebrate my and amy's bday.. donno where yet though keke...
even tho thers sadness in life, it balances out... wit the joy
a baLanCe is good.
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y0u're . my . inspiration .
Date: Dec 15th, 2006 3:56:19 pm - Subscribe
Mood: scattered
to my dearest po:
youre my inspiration.. what can i say, you really do take my breath away hehe this poem is dedicated especially to you my dearest friend
The English language contains many words
Some of which I have never heard
And some I have not preferred
To describe you in one word would be absurd
Because there is so much more to you than just a written word
Even when we’re apart
You bring this great joy into my heart
And it will never depart.
Your radiating smile
Makes everything so worthwhile
To run a thousand miles for you
I would do
To bring you back here
Just wanting you to appear
It would really make my year
Everything has changed without you here
Everything just seems so dam queer
Walking past the places we’ve been
I hold all the memories within
And my heart can only grin….
You’ve made such impact in my life
You’ve never once caused me any strife
An encouragement and blessing
You’re always impressing
And I just can’t help but expressing!
Every word I say
Is from the depths of my heart
They are not all just made up
Listen to what I say please;
I love you so much
You’re my very close friend as such
There’s nothing I would not do for you
I never thought we’d end up this way
So true, so real, to this day
Thank you for sharing your life with me
You are really my cute little bee
Who always wants to live amongst plants and trees
The time that I spent with you
The laughs that I’ve had with you
The tears that I’ve shed with you
The food that I’ve shared with you
The gifts that I’ve given you
Everything that we’ve done
We’ve had nothing but pure and enjoyable fun
You are indeed my loved one
And there’s nothing that I’ve regretted and done
Because you’ve been nothing but my bright and shining sun
I always tell you that are so cute
My little popo to you I salute!
And with that I give you a toot toot!
Hold on tight to what you believe in
When the end comes, that’s when it all begins
Eternity in heaven with our wonderful creator
No one is greater
To them, we say, see ya later!
Let the love of Christ be our centre point
Where we were first joint
His love shall never disappoint
You’re beautiful, gorgeous and pretty
You are definitely in the hot committee
And to top it off, you are so very witty
You are always loved by me
Always missed by me
And forever I will be your friend
Right to the very end,
My love, for you will continue to conqueror and expand
It will reach the hills, the mountains and it will be so grand!
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i . may .
Date: Dec 14th, 2006 2:02:37 pm - Subscribe
Mood: resentful
i may not be the best.
i may be misunderstood.
i know i cannot be that someone
you expected me to be.
but i am still me.
still that same out-of-tuned key
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and . whats . next .
Date: Dec 14th, 2006 12:17:31 pm - Subscribe
Mood: toxic
ive been going to farewells constantly
someone is always leaving, esp this year, all my good friends are leaving me
tonight we just went out for dinner with jennifer kinda afarewell thingy..
i think ive had enough people leaving to last me a life time
the amount of times ive been to and fro from the airport is countless, but its never been me the one leaving, its either been im sending people or im picking people up
on saturday, im going to the airport to send jen, next tues im going to the airport to pick my cousin.. and wen ah po comes im going again im looking forward to the pick ups, not the drop doWNnnnnnsss..
i got a massive as headache now though.. sigh
dinner was pretty good, dont know why i still felt hungry though haha..
we ate , we always eat, if its not sleeping its eating.. haha
we talked, jen talked heaps, haha but our topic seeme to be around relationships and how to sustain a long and lasting relaitonship.. it was pretty funny to hear all those stories of all those lil fights n tiffs that they all had.. haha..
sometimes girls can be really really really complicated and complex, we make such small things into such big things, causing huge as fights, when actually they can be fully avoided.. but thats just us... hA ha, espeically PMS, and during period, wow thats the worst.. ive never been so moody as i have this few weeks, coz i got my period.. this is the moodiest month ever lol..
at least we have pms,and our periods to blame haha..
half the ppl tat r in a relationshIp say that they would rather be single, then the ones tat r not in, r complaining they wana be in one, sometimes i think , why dont we just swap places huh..
after dinner we went to woolies to do a bit of shopping haha, i bought all this unneeded stuff coz i was fully craving al this food man.. and everyh thing was so cheap coz it was nearly closing time.
i scored a whole bbq chicken for $4..
and some jam donuts for $1.40
and some gum for normal price
and some 2L coke for $1.70
im all st0cked up yo. lol..
i think my contacts r giving me massive headaches.. ffs...
anyway, photos
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ken . and . barbie
Date: Dec 14th, 2006 7:32:49 am - Subscribe
Mood: indecisive
sometimes i wonder if ken and barbie were meant to be togehter?
wat happened to them?
sometimes i feel that everything is so screwed up
when will barbie get ken
or when will ken get her barbie?
we all wana find our barbie and our ken one day, soon.
everyone wants to have their ken..
the adventures of ken & barbie are exciting and very adventurous
barbie aint plastic.
shes real.
as me n u
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sing . me . a . song .
Date: Dec 13th, 2006 5:12:43 am - Subscribe
Mood: unstoppable
songs, theyre cool..... these 2 songs have been dedicated to these 2 girls, on 96.5fm haha. nah, jokes. but i wish. they r such nice songs, even though they r prolly for lovers, haha but most of the lyrics in the song represents us!!! wahhhhh
cool right.
haha.. the never be replaced song has been with us a long time.. hehe.. its so cute that song. and when po sings it is EVEN CUTER YO! haha..
these songs are dedications to both parties hihi...
indeed, such sentemental meaningful lyrics!
bravo to the song writers...
songs make our hearts leap with joy! some songs are so great, they can change your mood 180 degrees.. the lyrics, the melody can set you straght..
music is like food to your soul..
when your down, listen to music..
relieves and calms you, esp hillsONGS YO!
lalalalala
im in a song mood today..
these 2 songs, rock yo..
they totally rock..
dey da bomb..
the nuclear bomb!!!!
kekekeke...
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love . is . a . drug .
Date: Dec 12th, 2006 7:34:15 am - Subscribe
Mood: meh
today is so hot, i can die shortly.
what a lazy day today has been, woke up late again, caught the train back to city, stayed at home, ate my lunch then suddendly spur of the moment wana go city.
go city, lala, walk around,look at things, went to the new FCUK, so nice i wana buy the hat and the tops mannnnn hehe....
then went to cotton on, buy a top, then go searching for oprah winfrey hahahaha..
im so sleepy again now. sigh
later imgoing to watch alot of tele, and opRaH see if she can touch my heart as much as she's inspired and touched that ah po haha.
city is packed to day with all the weirdos, and all the spray can artists around queen st.
yesterday when talking with ah po, she told me tat i had transform big time, from a person tat was fully deprssed until now can laugh at everything ahha..
actually, is amazing, how Great our God is, that i can be the persn i am today, evne though i still got my mood swings n everything, but really,God worked miracles, he is amazing... and without the support and help from friends ard, i dont think ill be alive today.. serious wo...
as the year comes to yet another end, there are many things tat i have to ponder about..
ponder about next year and whats in store..
about my studies
about my relationships
about church and cg
about family
about everyhting i guess.. hehe
sometimes i think we, no perhaps I take God's love for granted.. theres so much more that i could do for him, but maybe im not that willing yet.
He has blessed me tremendously in many areas of my life, and i fail him in so many.. like studies, i never take seriously.. sigh... tat is one big burden i have in my heart.. how ler next year... bugger..
but i know next year i gotta study like shit mad ... have to really go HARDCORE. no more mucking around for shiM... heh... i say tat every year, but i hope next year will be diferent.. ihate studying so mch, it really sucks me dry..
is one of the things on this earth tat i detest the most, that is studying.
this year has past so quickly, like in the blink of an eye, pop, its gone again.. i think its because this year has been so fulfiling, so much joy, so much laughter has been in my life, because of my darling .. hehe..
but really, im so thankful to God this year...
very much so.
sometimes i miss God.. and want to go into his sweet presence time n time again... but i always lazy.. i shouldnt be hey. hehe
god is all all the time.. he is ... HE really is.
when i feel troubled, he is there to help me out of my worries and fears.
all the problems tat burden my heart, i wanna lay it down before him... hais
i need strength..
from a source greater than my self.
im sleepy again now..
i think i got a new disease lol..
jen is leaving this sat.
the whole world wnana leave me here.. hiks hiks..
miss my dearest today
hehe
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its . a . happy . day .
Date: Dec 11th, 2006 6:02:44 am - Subscribe
Mood: Happy
today, i woke up fully late, 11.05am...
dreaming for really long lol..
my stomach feels queezy now, i feel like i want to vomit already.
ate too much.
my pimple is getting smaller so glad.
actually today was not suppose to go out, but then went out for lunch wit hanz0 and mel.. kaka..
we ate nandos for lunch, my goodness, 3 of us, eat the FAMILY FEAST, which consist of 2 whole chicken and huge chips..
fatnessssssssssssssssssssssssssssss....
no wonder i feel like vomitting now.
wah, vomit already right, so much dam food, everyone look at us like we fat pigs, 3 people eating that.. ahha
i think hansen also scared at the amount melly n i ate.. haha, and some more he get scolding the whole way thru, poor guy =(
after lunch, we went shopping, look around at places...
i like this sign .. so much, i dontknow why, but like it alot.
very pretty, n wHITe..
wanNa thank that hanz0 for my first birthday present so nice he...
i got bluff tho, he say that he wanna buy wallet for his gf, then we help him choose, then i say wah this one nice, verynice, very nice, then he buy then in the end, it is for me .. like wat da!!!!!!!!!! wah, so touch one..
heh...
anyway both slippers and wallet is very nice wor. i love them alot hehehehe..
i am feeling very sleepy now coz i think i ate to much.
still got many things to do though. sigh.
i really like december keke
like the sun outside, my heart is shining brightly inside and out!
i wish i was a millionare then i can buy everyone wat they want.
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out . and . about .
Date: Dec 10th, 2006 6:13:54 am - Subscribe
Mood: annoyed
yesterday went to have a small kinda farewell movie and dinner for jen.
we went to see casino royale, very good movie, fully action pack and intense man, and nice sex scenes which made my eyes go 
lol.. i havent gone to see movies for like 2 weeks now since ah po left me. so this movie was full of goodness.. hahah
after the movie we headed to punjabi palace for dinner.. strollng along walking to west end, alot of new buildings have poped out n they look fully wicked.
we went to punjabi palace, the nicest indian curry in town.. well i think so anyway. i was fully craving curry for ages, had to satisfy the craving some how rite hehe..
it was yum, very yum....
then after that we decided to walk back to city... then stopped by this cool street sign to take photos lol.. me n my street signs im just loving them eh...
half way when taking photos and walking back over the bridge, and after getting majorly attacked n tickled by jen, suddendly i saw ferris wheel, wahhhhh i said lets go lets go, then we all go lo..
end up sitting in the ferris wheel, dam nice, the view, wah spectaular, even tho i a bit scared at the beginning, ah r we gona fall, ah we r gona drop, ah my camera is gona drop, ah my fone is gona drop, ahhhh we r all gona fall out, ah its gona malfunction, ah, here ah there. haha but then ok la, i started to like it n shake the seat we were in lol, then that yean lii fully scared of heights, soemmore shut her eyes the whle way, and sit as still and as stiff as a statue, i never seen her so stiff and not moving b4 lol. was relal funny hahha.... :p
but the view of brisbane was really nice, brisbane is actually relaly nice at night , esp overlookin from southbank to opposite, the lights, the buildings, the atmosphere, the everthing, is so calm and peaceful, i can feel serenity...
eh, i got one big pimple on my face i cannot stand it, i hate so much.
then we, the lazy people that we are, took the train back lol...
thank you guys for the wonderful night, the convo, the talking, the yelling, the shouting, the scolding lol.. i know i wasnt in good mood, pms i think lol, so thanks for putting up wit my mood, my snaping here n there..
indeed, these 2 people hav been such great frends to me thruout these 3 years knowing each other.. is been a great journey, and even tho that ah jen is leaving, me n yean always will keep her inside of our heart.
the times tat we spent together, the tears tat we cried, the problems tat we shared, is someting tat i will always hold in my heart.
never once have i loved u guys any less! never once have i ever stopped loving u and never once will i ever stop loving u all..
u all mean alot to me, and no matter where u may be, always know ler.. that friends r always there, if not phsyically, always in ur heart.
as our journeys in life are diferent now, ah jen, wish u the best in melbourne wit ur soon to be hubby lol, n yean still see u around la, u dun spend so mch time wit that thomas la.. :p
thanks for the friendshipppppppp mwacks mwacks mwacks...
my dear as well, whos back home already..
im sleepy again i cannot imagine my self..
i hate this pimple..
hate so much...
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the . story . of . our . lives .
Date: Dec 9th, 2006 3:10:08 am - Subscribe
Mood: sleepy
There were once 2 girls, living in 2 separate worlds.
Their words did not meet at all.
They did not know the other existed.
Until, One day, God decided to let the 2 cross paths.
From the beginning it was not easy. Both were shy.
Sandra was more of the introverted type, she enjoyed her life, she had many friends, and she loved to smile, her smile would radiate from within her, she had a great passion for writing and reading, she always wanted to learn more about how she could improve her English â€" please, as if her English wasn’t good! It was as near perfect to how the Queen would speak!
People were attracted to her.
Some girls from university came and talked to Sandra and her friends. They introduced them selves and talked about God. I think Sandra was pretty interested, as when Courtney walked past a couple of times, she could see that they were in immense deep conversation.
Courtney thought to her self, man these girls are a bi