Brave Me...
Date: Jun 23rd, 2004 2:37:38 pm - Subscribe
Mood: envious
Yesterday, I braved myself to have a haircut. I was a brave action since I never let anynone cut my hair except for myself and my hairstylish for over 10 years. And the funny part was I used to have a male hairstylish but yesterday it was a female hairstylish..so it was quite an experience for me...and the result itself wasn't to bad...the way she cut my hair was almost the same as I usually cut my bangs!!!..
Anyway...that was the amuzing part of my day....but like any other day, I had my downs..especially when I got to think about my future...ooo...how depressing...especially when I thought that what I am doing now is the same as wasting my talents...hicks...I become more depressed by this thougt....and it will occur again tomorrow...
The only remedy is to keep on busy...make myself busy..with anything..reading..yeah..I am going to read some more...
hmm...let me see...ah...these are interesting quotes:
"Man simply does not exist but always decides what his existence will be, what he will become in the next moment. By the same token, every human being has the freedom to change at any instant...man is capable of changing the world for the better if possible and of changing himself for the better if necessary"[Viktor Frankl]
-->does it mean I don't have to change if I don't want to even when people, the society or even the situation impose me on doing so??..hmm..tricky...
"One finds what is right for one by listening in order to let oneself be molded, guided, directed...One finds out what is right to do with the world by the same kind of listening to its nature and voices, by being sensitive to its requiredness and suggestions, by hushing so that its voices may be heard; by being receptive, noninterfering, nondemanding, and letting be."[A. Maslow]
-->Good thinking!!!
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My Downs
Date: Jun 22nd, 2004 2:29:40 pm - Subscribe
I got another dissapointment yesterday. One of my applications has been rejected. I have lost count for this one.
At first I was very dissapointed, 'coz I was looking forward to join that specific research team.
But as the day went by, and I prayed a lot that night, I thought, hey..maybe that job wasn't meant for me..that it won't be good for me..
Well..I also then remembered that I was quite confused about the topic and I thought that I wouldn't know what to do if I get excepted to do that research.
And after that I thanked God for their rejection and prayed that He would give me another chance to use my knowledge for something better.
I don't know why, but lately I have been loving and enjoying my religion a lot..I learn more things everyday about it as I enjoy reading the Koran everyday....
Hmm...sometimes after reading the Koran, I feel very peaceful and believe that I could handle anything bad that has happened to me...
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New Revelation and Others
Date: Jun 21st, 2004 8:23:57 am - Subscribe
Mood: accomplished
During the weekend, I had a new revelation about myself...
It turns out that I like ironing...well..actually the results of ironing..I like the smell of warm clothes which you get right after you ironed some...hmmm...nice...although I didn't do a really good job on it, but I did a lot of ironing during the weekend..
And also, I continue to read a book, and I stumbled into a good quote:
"...being human always points, and is directed, to something, or someone, other than oneself--be it a meaning to fulfill or another human being to encounter. the more one forgets himself--by giving himself to a cause to serve or another person to love--the more human he is and the more actualizes himself." [Viktor Frankl]
For me that was a very good and very true thing to say...
It stresses again..that we live for a purpose..and by serving that purpose, you actually actualizing yourself as a person and by that your life has a meaning!!!!
What a wonderful phrase....
I love reading books and revealing new things as I am reading it...it makes all of the process of reading worthy, don't you think??
'Coz it means you are really learning and achieving something by reading a book!!!
I don't usually get that part of reading..but now I do!!!!
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Cloudy Day
Date: Jun 19th, 2004 2:53:55 pm - Subscribe
Quote for the day:
"You've failed many times, although you may not remember. You fell down the first time you tried to walk. You almost drowned me the first time you tried to swim, didn't you? Did you hit the ball the first time you swung a bat?...Don't worry about failure. Worry about the chances you miss when you don't even try." [Yate, 1995]
Hmm..what a nice quote. It makes you pondering..
When I came across this quote, I had a lot of time to reflect it into my life...how everything come to pieces, just like a puzzle and in order to make it a complete puzzle, a complete life, you have to put the pieces one by one..sometime by try and error method...
All the things happened to you...happened for a reason...but it doesn't make you stop wondering why did it happen to you..and wondering what would happen if you didn't take that road, didn't make decision....
You just have to take a chance...make mistakes...and importantly, learn from your mistakes..so that you can be a better person...
Hmm...maybe I should try that...why not?
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First edition
Date: Jun 18th, 2004 9:54:19 am - Subscribe
Finally...I am able to put my mind into words...my first web log!!...what a relief...the idea came to me out of my frustration and depression living in this silly country and doing mostly nothing..except of course free webbing everyday...everytime!!!!
With all the time in the world, many things came to my mind, without an outlet .....hmm..very disturbing...just pacing around the house..wondering what can I do next...hmm...annoying...
But, I am quite happy now..I thought doing what I am doing now could be somewhat a therapy to overcome my boreness...
Everything will be fine.....
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