accept what you\'ve done, accept who you are
Date: Aug 21st, 2005 9:40:39 am - Subscribe
Mood: zen
do you ever step back from what you think you are? i mean, do you actually live your life by your "ideals"? i like to think i do but sometimes i'm not sure.
just a thought....
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cover your tracks with cash
Date: Aug 21st, 2005 9:37:43 am - Subscribe
Mood: passive
watch the jetsteam blaze across an empty sky, spend the next 3 minutes reflecting on a weekend, know that until thursday its going to be hell without you.
know that your date with your future is approaching fast.
i know i don't fear it.
in fact....
i relish the prospect.
no more will i catch fire......
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x\'s for eyes on me and you
Date: Aug 6th, 2005 6:50:28 am - Subscribe
Mood: zoned
the darkness is safe for now. we had a beautiful talk last night, i never wanted it to end, but like all good things it had to
waking up this morning was like waking up in heaven next to an angel.
she means the world to me, and for the 1st time in my life i know that she feels the same about me, and its the greatest feeling in the universe
maybe i'll catch fire.....
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they moved the goddamn site?
Date: Aug 5th, 2005 12:36:59 pm - Subscribe
Mood: distracted
no wonder it took me so long to find it again!
anyway, things are great
too fucking great, i keep waking up touching the sides to make sure i've not died and gone to hell
met a beautiful lady by the name of.... no that isn't fair, she will remain anonymous!!
got my old job back too, the band is officially 1 year old ( www.brackenwood.info ) sneaky plug there, but hey...
just a little worried that i'm going to lose that dark edge that keeps me sane....
i doubt it somehow.... 
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does it end this way for everyone?
Date: Jun 19th, 2005 12:02:27 am - Subscribe
Mood: fatigued
i mean, you can drop your generation x style, "ooh, i'm so goddamn cute and mysterious, cooler-than-thou" schtick for a start. there is absolutely nobody in the world who really gets along with that attitude
but that's not the point here
the point is, do we all tread this stupid path for a reward? is there actually a big pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?
who knows?
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cherokee red
Date: Jun 18th, 2005 11:04:48 am - Subscribe
Mood: bubbly
what a b-e-a yootiful song! its by a band called brandtson and it won't quit!! in a better mood these days, still job hunting, still screwed up bodyclock-wise
how the devil are you?
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god, it annoys me!!
Date: May 28th, 2005 6:41:10 am - Subscribe
Mood: agitated
sexism in general, even comments like, "she's got great tits", or "i bet she bangs like a shithouse door in the wind". why make yourself look like a total slobbering fool? surely i'm not alone in thinking this?
how was your year?
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no, but seriously...
Date: May 15th, 2005 8:10:33 am - Subscribe
Mood: reflective
so i've had a week to myself with no social interaction, i even skipped band practice. AND THE PHONE NEVER STOPS FUCKING RINGING!!! when will my friends stop pressuring me into going out in my shithole town, into our one decent bar...... screw it, life's too short and its a goddamn BEAUTIFUL day.
how was your month?
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back into retirement
Date: May 1st, 2005 8:04:47 am - Subscribe
Mood: wired
friday night should've been the greateast night of my life.... well maybe that's an overstatement, she was out looking great as per usual, she's so fucking effortless its crazy. but anyways, yeah. i was out with the boys, playing stupid drinking games, talking football, talking shit and all in all having a pretty good tome until they turned up, drunk off their faces and proceeding to have a go at everyone. sorry if i seem a little disjointed..check the mood
how was your week?
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my birthday...
Date: Apr 21st, 2005 1:20:44 pm - Subscribe
Mood: disenchanted
so far has sucked. lost my job, but on the plus side i saw a friend of mine and we went out for lunch
which was nice
got a phone call off my best friend too about tomorrow's meal/party/chance to make a fool out of myself, not once did he wish me a happy birthday
goddamn drummers... anyway, how was your day?
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the romance is dying
Date: Apr 17th, 2005 12:14:48 pm - Subscribe
Mood: lovestruck
so here i am again, exactly where i was a year and a half ago. bitching about being single, wishing i was with (insert crush here).
she asks about me, she wants to know when i'm out, she wants to come out for my birthday, she got me to dance with her, i love her, i hate her, i dont need her but cant stop thinking about her. give me my whisky back. and hey, turn this song up.
every line they ever wrote was mine
i guess friday holds all the answers, i'm keeping my superhero suit in the closet this time.
god i wish i was you
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feeling kind of peaceful
Date: Apr 17th, 2005 10:59:58 am - Subscribe
Mood: lucky
listening to comeback kid, musing on whether or not to go to band practice tomorrow. gotta get up early for court though, gotta pay a stupid fine. least i've got the week off though, i guess thats another reason to be "cheerful" hope tina's out friday night....
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friday night and other related horror stories...
Date: Apr 17th, 2005 10:02:54 am - Subscribe
Mood: reminiscent
it was my old college friend's birthday bash, the plan was to meet up for a quiet few beers, and a reminisce about the old days... that soon turned outta hand! first off the girl i'm interested in, tina, never showed so i thought, whatever, i'n going to have a good time regardless. well i sank so (too?) many beers and my alter ego, mr complete and utter arrogant fuck appeared and proceeded to destroy the evening, and from hereon in i can't remember shit..
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summer\'s almost here
Date: Apr 17th, 2005 9:57:48 am - Subscribe
Mood: romantic
i much prefer the winter personally, its easier to hide in the shadows, having said that, i enjoy the summer, long nights with my friends, long walks to nowhere with whoever's on my mind at the time. plus emo music sounds better in july.
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emo, screamo, post-hardcore, whatever...
Date: Apr 17th, 2005 9:40:47 am - Subscribe
Mood: skeptical
my first blog, and on an emo site too. gradually i'll let you all know some more about me as this progresses. i'm niall, i'm 26 in approximately four days. i live in burton upon trent in staffordshire
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