thesleepactivist

On letting go
Date: Oct 12th, 2005 3:32:15 am - Subscribe



Found out that Suhaibs village was totally destroyed in the earthquake (Kashmir). Sort of puts things in perspective. Tragedies always do.

His family wasnt effected... but there are friends, neighbors, acquaintances.. people he sees everyday.. the grocer... that little girl who always plays jump rope at the street corner.. nameless people who make up an essential part of your life..

sigh.

My stomach is churning.. didnt wake up for sahur (the super-early breakfast for people fasting) and the time for breaking fast seems ages away.

Went to the ramadhan market with Logan yesterday. walked along the noisy noisy lane.. merchants yelling.. prices and the name of food intermingling with all sorts of smells..

and felt so much peace.

Its hard sometimes.. there is so much paranoia.. the re-analyzing of past "incidents".. trust is fragile in some moments..

But in moments like this I just feel like I know that its workable. Manageable. Not perfect. Not easy. But just.. worth working for.

And all this while a man is waving a chicken leg in my face.

Love can survive and exist in the strangest places.



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