sleigher's Blog

battered
Date: Nov 25th, 2005 6:43:10 pm - Subscribe
Mood: drowning in remorse


i'm sorry...

i don't even deserve the attention...
i don't deserve the love...

i apologize for causing you this much pain.

i'm so sorry

but i cannot love you the same way that you love me..
i know you're not asking me to feel the same way..

but..

i don't know. you are my friend and it pains me to know that i am causing you this much heartbreak.

you smile... but i know you're breaking down.
you remain standing... but i know you're weary and broken..

i'm so sorry.

i know you'd tell me you don't need my pity. i don't pity you. but... i just don't want to hurt you.

i'm tired of hurting people, causing them pain, making them miserable.

i never asked for this.

i wish i can make you happy.

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void

i don't know. i am happy. i am sad. i feel.. confused.

i'm starting to breathe again but i feel like i'm still being held back by my past.

who am i? am i alive?

there are a lot of things i would like to say here..

but i am lost.

let me gather my thoughts...


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eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Date: Nov 22nd, 2005 3:56:08 am - Subscribe
Mood: bewitched



a smile more blinding than the sun's...
an aura dripping with deadly sweetness...

a shadow covering the entire truth...
a facade that never stops...

when will you shed off the mask?
when will you show me yourself?

will you ever let me in?

"a heart covered in ice..."

.... a decision i made...
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breathing...
Date: Nov 18th, 2005 4:37:04 pm - Subscribe
Mood: woozy


whew.

here i am again.

am still currently fixing the site ... but geez, how i missed writing.

still feels like the old one. had this place not blocked the previous server, i guess i won't be having any trouble setting this up again. anyhow, whatever. aeonity's kind of nice, actually.

hmmmm.

i wonder where i would start.

*sigh*

i am now breathing.


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