|Yeah, I guess he didn't see me like I thought he did. How can you just erase someone out of your life like that. I think its just me. But what it really is- is the friendship. It's not the same like before. As much as I've moved on, I still think about the past we had. It was so fun while it lasted. But it wasn't worth losing the friendship. It really wasn't. I wonder how he feels about it. Someones obviously keeping him updated on me. I dont mind. Just wonder who. Anyhow. Still got 4 hours up in this beotch..so I need to do some work. Thank goodness Im off Monday and Tuesday. May be I'll have my sanity back.|
Happy Monday. I know its Wednesday, but I was off Monday and Tuesday. So, I'm to the point where I want to ask my doc for some no-anxiety meds. I find myself at night figuring how I'm goin to pay for school. my performance, and all this other stuff. Ugh. What a life at 26, huh? Then I had a dream about my friend. I miss my friend. I don't think I'll ever have the heart to tell him that, but deep inside, it bothers me. Profoundly. Like even in my dreams.
On another note. I went to my school yesterday to talk about how Im gonna pay for it. Ha. Its almost like a joke. Like where on God's gracious Earth will I find green like that? Oh yeah I took little man to see Ice Age 2! How cool was that movie? He loved it. I loved it, and I love how it was just us 2. It was a mommy and me moment.
I cant stand my job anymore. I leave for 2 days and the person that covered for me, didn't do jack. So, is it really a vacation? Yeah..it is. Then after you come back and have paperwork piled on your desk from the last time you left it. I just need to vent. I'm tired and I know I need to hustle the next couple of days because I was gone. Mom emailed me. I should call her back. She bought me a nice gift for getting into the University...Apple's iBook..the 12incher. I'm blessed. And not to mention, Im finally almost done with paying my credit cards!!! Life is good and yup..you said it. I CANT REALLY complain. Vegas is coming up and dam, I cant wait to get FrUCKED up! Greenery, and double stacks. Yeeah.