Walking the fence
Date: Jul 8th, 2006 4:04:48 am - Subscribe
Mood: simple
spawnliness: t-90

I was raised under extreme views and constant restraints. In some cases people like me turned into killers, others turned into Rock and Roll stars.

I stood up for what I believe 100% in the face of constant trial and minor persecution, mostly because I was so different, being from a cult and all.

Those were hard times, I grew up and one day I finally got an opinion of my own which they call bad apples spoiling the bunch. It has been difficult for me to build a new belief system, some might say it is weak or a cop out.

My strongest belief is in balance, that is my foundation now, that is my tao. Because everything that is bad must have good and everything that is, has the is not.

Everything in balance, isn't that what they taught in church/kingdom hall/cynagog /or whatever.

Everything in balance, Yin & Yang - two principles which oppose one another in their actions.

And Now some quotes to live by:
The most important human endeavor is the striving for morality in our actions. Our inner balance and even our very existence depend on it. Only morality in our actions can give beauty and dignity to life.
Albert Einstein

It is better to rise from life as from a banquet - neither thirsty nor drunken.
Aristotle

Enough is as good as a feast.
English Proverb

We may outrun
By violent swiftness
And lose by over-running.
William Shakespeare

To go beyond is as wrong as to fall short.
Confucius, Analects

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Back with a different view
Date: Jul 8th, 2006 3:24:16 am - Subscribe
Mood: alive


It has been sometime since my last post here. Even at my last post I had a different view of blogging. I thought, I need a sounding board, some people who I can bounce thoughts, and feelings off. Some place I could write about stuff and maybe help people or make them laugh. I was annoyed that I had few comments, viewers of what I was writing.

I only recently relized how completely self centered that is! It actually came to me as I have been posting at an
Ex Jehovahs Witness site. I share a great commonality with the people of that site but I have been feeling as if I am not heard.

Silly me has realized, come to my senses, I do not need to hear what people think, I really only need to write it down and capture my thoughts, it is a theraputic and positive experience with or without any comment.

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TV trouble
Date: Dec 21st, 2005 11:34:15 pm - Subscribe
Mood: disconnected
spawnliness: 39

Something seems to be wrong with my tv
it keeps turning off very randomly
it powers down and I loose my scene

It really annoys me the way it's happened
it started glitchen and behaven badly
I poored my heart out but it's not having any

Seems something's wrong, yeh my tv
not the first time it's happened to me
I know its not the last time I loose vision

Something is terribly wrong with what I just saw
think it's taken my last part sanity
I lost it for time now I lacked vision

Seems that my tv is not so great these days
playing old scenes
showing old shows
loosing it's power of thought

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What a great day...this is....
Date: Dec 3rd, 2005 1:41:43 am - Subscribe
Mood: Super Happy
spawnliness: 100°C

Ok two wonderful thing have come to pass, actually one happened yesterday and one today.
Yesterday I finally decided to settle on a software purchase. I have been trying so many music writing packages but finally a friend of mine suggested Intuem. I bought Intuem. My blood is now boiling over with creativity, I am so fricken delighted. This music software is great, it has allowed me to get right down to writing music, MY WAY!!!!!! Steps Song Actually its great for creating mixes as well....Oooooohhh booooooy.....

The other wonderful thing that happened today is this Retro Start Trek. Ok it is not TV ready but hell it's a lot of fun if you enjoyed the original Star Trek series. Its laughable, fun and very intertaining.

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Walking the fence
Date: Nov 29th, 2005 11:09:23 pm - Subscribe
Mood: simple
spawnliness: t-90

I was raised under extreme views and constant restraints. In some cases people like me turned into killers, others turned into Rock and Roll stars.

I stood up for what I believe 100% in the face of constant trial and minor persecution, mostly because I was so different, being from a cult and all.

Those were hard times, I grew up and one day I finally got an opinion of my own which they call bad apples spoiling the bunch. I never have been able to give 100% to any particular belief since then, thus some would say I walk the fence.

My bad apples introduced me to new thinking, new passions, new directions. Other than some sex, cigarrettes and lots of booze I didn't turn out that bad. Infact, I am a pretty good apple these days with my core intact, no rotting however I really do not have strong beliefs, you know ones I can attempt to support with facts. I have passions but those are mostly supported by an inner mechanism, I can not put many words behind those passions.

Wierd! I really do not know why I rebel against things that will make me have a single opinion. Some consider me to walk the fence trying hard not to lean this way nor that. Sometimes I do lean but that is usually someone pushing me to explain but I always strive to get back to the center, where I am grounded.

My strongest belief is in balance, that is my foundation now, that is my tao.

Everything in balance, isn't that what they taught in church/kingdom hall/cynagog /or whatever.

Everything in balance, Yin & Yang - two principles which oppose one another in their actions.

The most important human endeavor is the striving for morality in our actions. Our inner balance and even our very existence depend on it. Only morality in our actions can give beauty and dignity to life.
Albert Einstein

It is better to rise from life as from a banquet - neither thirsty nor drunken.
Aristotle

Enough is as good as a feast.
English Proverb

We may outrun
By violent swiftness
And lose by over-running.
William Shakespeare

To go beyond is as wrong as to fall short.
Confucius, Analects

spawn exit






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