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Sometimes you think that you are looking at yourself all wrong, you become critical and then you relize you are human.
I often say, "I am a simple man, with simple plans". Remember that song by XTC, Major of Simpleton, that song says it all.

Some of my favorite lines.
Never been near a university,
Never took a paper or a learned degree,
And some of your friends think that's stupid of me,
But it's nothing that I care about.

Well I don't know how to tell the weight of the sun,
And of mathematics well I want none,
And I may be the mayor of simpleton,
But I know one thing,
And that's I love you.
When their logic grows cold and all thinking gets done,
You'll be warm in the arms of the mayor of simpleton.

I'm not proud of the fact that I never learned much,
Just feel I should say,
What you get is all real,
I can't put on an act,
It takes brains to do that anyway. (and anyway...)

That's me, well the love part is kind of sappy but I do love my wife and children very much, so I guess that makes me a sap......................More on that topic when I think that I will not make people sick with my boring life story.

My first computer was an Amiga 500 used for writing music using Bars & Pipes, those were the days. Staying up all night writing music, playing Sim City, programming and that sort of stuff. That brings us to my topic, music writing.

Music writing is difficult these days, I could go out to the garage and resurect my Amiga 1200, with I think it was 32MB extra RAM, then I might be able to write again. The truth is I really do not have the time and the software for the MAC and the PC sucks. Yeh, I have looked but nothing comes close to Bars & Pipes Professional. I have tried numerous demos, I bought Free Style and Retro, that was fun for a short time but those did not make it to osx and I have limited sources, can't go around buying new software with Two children and one income.

Free Style was close, real close and affordable, now I have to run it under 9.1 on my G5 IMAC and it suffers performance issues especially running Retro at the same time. MOTU the makers of Digital Performer want you to buy there $800 software (I think I just saw a sell for $400-$500), Free Style has thus not been improved and is all but removed from there site.

Here is my wish, Bars & Pipes Professional fully working for Mac OSX. I will settle for, Free Style type that works on Mac OSX but it need to be able to have effects and tools added either on the track or a single note and when you add notes the up, down, left and right arrows should reposition the note and make the appropriate tone changes when in the process.

Next time, programming and maybe I'll crack out some HTML.
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spawn2u Programming 101 Nov 10th, 2005 7:44:41 am - Subscribe
I remember my first computer experience, some really neardy kid that I was kind of forced to befriend had a Radio Shack TR 80. That kid was messing around with Basic programming and gaming etc. Oh for you kids out there the TR 80 was one of or the first home computer. It took forever to read in the data from a tape drive.......Graphics were minimal............
Anyway, that was not so exiting. In the 9th grade they finally had computers in school but I didn't find the computer lab until 10th grade, I ate alone. Anyway, they had some mac computers, again real early style so I learned a few silly goto statements and I was happy....
I kept watching computers grow up with me but they were just outside of my reach and then Pizza happened.
Rewind a bit, after I took the GED and got out of school, screeeeeech, off the track for a second. Ok I have to say, I would not recomend getting out of school unless you came from a very disturbed family or something, that unfortunately was where I came from, no crying, sobing or other required from anyone on this subject. Back on track, so after school I started working here and there and eventually landed in Round Table Pizza, where I worked for 10 years, yes thats right. Those were the days when all my smarty friends went to college and got degree's. I didn't know how to support myself and do that but I managed a few classes including Programming 101 with Pascal.

Learning to program was the best thing that ever happened to me, other than my wife and children. Today, I am forced to program in VB but it is not that bad with the .NET framework.
Today, I spend most of my time figuring out how interface mapping with html interfaces, google on steriods.
Today, I work with complicated systems and data and work in cutting edge technology (GIS using ArcIMS, ArcGIS).
Today, I have a great paying job all because computers and technology is natural to me, I love technology, I love problem solving and making things easier for people and I apply myself 110%.
I may not have a degree but I am good at what I do, oh and I am proud of it too............
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spawn2u Passions of life Nov 11th, 2005 4:22:18 am - Subscribe
I think everyone needs to stop for a minute and think about what they like to do. Ok, I know most are thinking sex. That is not what I am talking about. What are you passions?
Smelling flowers?
Making Beer?
Driving along the coast?
Writing music?
Yoga?

I was reminded the other day of one of my passions, Kung-fu. I started talking about it with another person and I could not stop myself. It is not obsession it is passion.

I studied Kung-fu, Northern Star Praying Mantis for about 5 years. It taught me so much about myself, I was reborn.

Kids happen and they take a lot of time if you want to do it right. Someday, when my children are less dependant on my wife and I, I will return to my Kung-fu, music writing, my passions. For now I will allocate just a bit more time than I have in the past, for my health and sanity.
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spawn2u Yaba Daba Doooooooooooo Nov 12th, 2005 12:42:57 am - Subscribe
It is done! Can't tell you what, well I don't think so but some of you know what I am talking about......

Shhh, Next Thursday and Friday your back on. Come on down!!!!

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spawn2u Manic Drepression is not new to me... Nov 12th, 2005 6:13:45 am - Subscribe
Things are so PC these days that the term Manic Drepression is no longer the term, its acually bi-polar. I liked Manic Depression as a descriptor better.
My father was diagnosed with manic depression, there is that great song by Jimi Hendrix "Manic depression". Oh don't forget Kurt Cobain suffered manic depression, that's what they say anyway.
So with all the possitive spin on the term mainc depression, why did it turn to bi-polar? My guess, because black people became African American, Indians became American Indians and so on. I don't have a beef with any of those changes but I do hold a personal grudge against the people who took away my clearly manic depressive father and swapped him for a bi-polar man.
Right now, unless he is dead, out there some where, my father is either up or down, he is either crawling out of his skin or wanting to die in his skin. either way I am pretty sure he is depressed or manic but I am damn possitive he is not bi-polar.

Father of mine by Everclear......


Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
You know I just closed my eyes
My whole world disappeared
Father of mine
Take me back to the day
When I was still your golden boy
Back before you went away

I remember blue skies
Walking the block
I loved it when you held me high
I loved to hear you talk
You would take me to the movie
You would take me to the beach
You would take me to a place inside
That is so hard to reach

Father of mine
Tell me where did you go
You had the world inside your hand
But you did not seem to know
Father of mine
Tell me what do you see
When you look back at your wasted life
And you don't see me

I was ten years old
Doing all that I could
It wasn't easy for me
To be a scared white boy
In a black neighborhood
Sometimes you would send me a birthday card
With a five dollar bill
I never understood you then
And I guess I never will

Daddy gave me a name
My dad he gave me a name
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name

Daddy gave me a name
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name

Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
I just closed my eyes
And the world disappeared
Father of mine
Tell me how do you sleep
With the children you abandoned
And the wife I saw you beat

I will never be safe
I will never be sane
I will always be weird inside
I will always be lame
Now I'm a grown man
With a child of my own
And I swear I'm not going to let her know
All the pain I have known

Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My dad gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
Then he walked away
Then he walked away



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