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Ruminations
Date: Dec 26th, 2008 10:10:31 pm - Subscribe
Mood: pensive and stressed


Well here it is, December 26-Soon a new year will be upon us-My where does the time go? I hope everyone out there in Aeonityland had a good Christmas or Hannukah, whatever the case may be.
So-You want to talk and sort things out so we can get back on track, eh? So why do we keep falling offtrack? I know you'll just make up some excuse to take any of the blame off u and put it all on me like u usually do-I read your Myspace messages btw, and I did not misread what Faith sent to me-seems pretty cut and dry to me. She did have a point-that that what u percieve as not caring is exactly what she said-tiredness of the act, the act of "if everything doesn't go my way I'm going to kill myself" act. And if u think Brandy was pissed off at the "xmas" thing, well telling her to fuck off really sent her into a state-I'd stay away from her for a few days if I were you. See, right now, I don't know if I even want to get back on track-I don't really know what my feelings are concerning you. I know your family makes things difficult for you but you seem to be making no effort whatsoever to be strong and to stand up for yourself with them, which in turn, causes one of these "states" of yours. I don't need a basket case by my side, someone who's going to have a meltdown everytime there's an issue or a problem-I need a strong, emotionally mature, and emotionally stable woman by my side that I can count on when things get rough. you have not shown me at all that u can be these things-and I'm not going to walk on eggshells for the rest of my life either, not knowing what's going to set off the bomb that I feel is slowly ticking inside u. I will concede the point that I should have said more to you then nothing when I got home Christmas night-that probably didn't help anything. Let's just say that my faith in you has been severly shaken-and so has my trust since you apparently had sex with some guy named Liam. I just don't know anymore if we can make it together...
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