I'm back..big update.
Date: Jun 4th, 2007 1:24:32 am - Subscribe
Mood: ugh
Bloggah's-
I can't believe I haven't blogged in this long! Ahh! I was going nuts..then I realized I just had to get back to my bloggin buddies.
Okay, quick update. I'm no longer taking sax lessons with Philipp..long story..don't feel like getting into it. He kicked me out of quartet and i'm totally done with him. I called Ken to see if he had any open quartet spots for next year and he said he would check it out.
I was going to audition for MYWE (Mass Youth Wind Ensemble) but I threw my back out and twisted my pelvis so I was on oxycodone during my audition time and they wouldn't reschedule it for me. So that is over for next year. Kill me. I'm auditioning for NYSO for next year and i'm going to kick Frank out of his seat. YEAHH BOIII! (woah..that was weird)
So I met this guy Eric who is 22 and is a senior in college studying classical and jazz sax. He is awesome. He reccomended some audition pieces and i'm going to send him a recording of me playing and he is going to help me fix what sounds bad and make it sound better! Woohoo! And we are going to set up some internet lessons via webcam/mic. I'm pumped..it will be fun. It's cool becuase he's totally chil about the fact that i'm alot younger than him. Oh and ps: he's good looking.
Alright, for the more tragic news. Mike Latta an old swim instructor at Brooks died last month. He was an EMT and had a hole in his heart and it tore and he died while on a call. :/ I went to the funeral..it was so sad. I can't believe he's gone.
It's been a little over a year since John died and more and more kids from Masco just keep dieing. What is God trying to do up there man?
Alright well i'm going to vblog with my new amigos on stickam.com.
Cyaaaaaa,
strazESfab
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I'm back!
Date: Mar 18th, 2007 11:03:12 pm - Subscribe
Mood: bleh
WOW! I've been gone for so long. I've been super busy. Just stopping by to note my schedule for this week.
Monday: School. Lacrosse tryouts (3-5..or 4:30-6). NYSO (615-815)
Tuesday: School. Tryouts. Concert. Church
Wednesday: MCAS. Tryouts. Lesson. Rehersal
Thursday: MCAS. Teams posted.Home.
Friday: MCAS. Pratice. Home
I think im forgeting alot. Hmm..
Oh well,
Yeh..HELLWEEK!
strazESfab
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Long day
Date: Mar 7th, 2007 2:19:29 am - Subscribe
Mood: deep
Bloggah's,
So it was a really long day and I wasn't feeling up to going to the YM so I was like..yes ok...I'm not going. Then I check my facebook and BOOM..there is a message back from Rob. (I sent Rob a message yesterday about how I felt like God was abandoning me and how he wasn't answering my prayers or anything.) So, it's Robs birthday..I made him a card and we started the chatting. We played some games and a round of WA! Then it was time for Rob's talk. I was totally expecting something not related to me at all. BOY WAS I WRONG. I felt like he wrote it to talk to me personally, while addressing a whole group. It was nuts. The ENTIRE time, he was talking about how God takes a long time to answer some prayers and that he is never abandoning us. He bought a finger rosary and gave it to me. Hmm. I don't know. It makes me think. I really need some "processing" time to let all this run through my head..but there is so much jumbeled in there that I can't focus on one thing and it's driving me crazy.
I would just like to take a second and publically thank my blogging buddy, Justin. I really appreciate all the help you have given me. You have NO idea how much it means. I owe you my life.
Well, I have to go make some flyers and do alot of stuff before I even sit in bed, so i'll blog later.
Love,
strazESfab
PS!: Steve gets out in 3 days!
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FED UP
Date: Mar 5th, 2007 10:58:27 pm - Subscribe
Mood: worthless
Bloggah's,
It doesn't seem right to me. It honestly doesn't seem fair, or anything. I want to go away to private school, follow? And so my dad calls Worcester Academy the other day and they say that they "rarely accept juniors". (Note he went there so that boosts my chances) They said that, then cointinued to say how they don't accept juniors. Now, call me crazy, but I really don't think that is very fair.
Of course my mom along with my "friends" don't want me to go. Mom says it's too much money. Dad is behind me. It doesn't make much sence to me at all. I mean, if it's what I want to do, why can't we just be behind me and help me do something I want.
I had another God conversation with Margo today. She told me he doesn't hate me, but I don't know how much I can agree with her. It just doesn't seem very fair that he is making my life like this. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY! Is that so much to ask for!?
I have to go to rehersal now. I'll blog later tonight.
Until later,
strazESfab
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Confused
Date: Mar 4th, 2007 2:16:19 am - Subscribe
Mood: sensitive
Bloggah's,
Sorry it's been so long. I don't really understand whats going on with me latly. So much for support from your friends. I don't get it. Everyones turning against me for being nice! I mean, it's not like I don't already feel bad for scamming someone out of rooming with us in Disney. But I mean, then I try to be nice so i'm not hated forever and thats what I get..them talking about me behind my back saying stuff they know isn't true. Have you ever wondered why you actually have friends? I think God wants me to be alone. All my relationships have gotten ruined latly. I seriously don't think I have hung out with friends in over a month. It's pathetic. My life is so sad. I don't want this to turn into a blog of me feeling sorry for myself, I just don't get whats going on.
Steve's getting out on parole on the 9th. Thats so soon! It's crazy. He was supposed to get out in April and hes out on Friday! I mean, WOW! I'm really excited. I don't know why I have only seen him once while he was there...I told him I would be back and I never did, which I felt bad about. But, now that hes out, I think he can come check in with us once in a while. He said his sister lost the necklace. I can't believe it. There was such a fuss about giving it to me and then she decided to keep it and lost it! HOW CRAZY IS THAT! Ahh!
Thinking about this 100% seriously though. I have such a strange relationship with God. I never thought about how weird it was until now. I feel like he doesn't want me to be happy. Don't get me wrong..i'm not losing my faith or anything. I know hes there, but I just feel like hes trying to make me misrable. The other day Brian Schwartz (A senior at school) was in Utah skiing and went down a back trail, started and avalanche and was killed in it. I never really knew Brian, but it seems like God is being awufully selfish up there, taking everyone I care about. John, Keith, Taryn, Laura and now Brian. It just doesn't make any sence to me.
Not to mention, hes taking all my friends and making them turn on me. Did I do something wrong?
Anyways, I guess I just think there is something wrong with me latly. I cry at random times and don't know why. I just get sad for no apparent reason and start balling. It's like my old mental breakdowns I would have except they come on more often and alot stronger. Argh. Oh well.
Until later,
strazESfab
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