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I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you all of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping inwards you got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you there's something about you now I can't quite figure out everything she does is beautiful everything she does is right you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you what day is it and in what month this clock never seemed so alive |
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Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last wake me up when september ends like my fathers come to pass seven years has gone so fast wake me up when september ends here comes the rain again falling from the stars drenched in my pain again becoming who we are as my memory rests but never forgets what I lost wake me up when september ends summer has come and passed the innocent can never last wake me up when september ends ring out the bells again like we did when spring began wake me up when september ends here comes the rain again falling from the stars drenched in my pain again becoming who we are as my memory rests but never forgets what I lost wake me up when september ends Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last wake me up when september ends like my fathers come to pass seven years has gone so fast wake me up when september ends man, that song sounds sooo good on the radio, but the lyrics just make the song look dumb |
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I am so freakin in love with this song!!! just as mi sisses, they're half deaf from me blaring this loud in the car when it comes on the radio!!! So you sailed away Into a grey sky morning Now I'm here to stay Love can be so boring Nothing's quite the same now I just say your name now Chorus But it's not so bad You're only the best I ever had You don't want me back You're just the best I ever had So you stole my world Now I'm just a phony Remembering the girl Leaves me down and lonely Send it in a letter Make yourself feel better Chorus But it's not so bad You're only the best I ever had You don't need me back You're just the best I ever had And it may take some time to Patch me up inside But I can't take it so I Run away and hide And I may find in time that You were always right You're always right So you sailed away Into a grey sky morning Now I'm here to stay Love can be so boring What was it you wanted Could it be I'm haunted Chorus But it's not so bad You're only the best I ever had I don't want you back You're just the best I ever had The best I ever had The best I ever |
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| sry for the abrupt announcement of my return a few days ago. but my heart was hurting and the anger was the only way i could release some of it. since then a number of songs have run thru my brain and i wish i could remember some to put in here, but my bad memory will forever haunt me. maybe later i will write them down. |
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| wow... you know what. now that i'm back. im really hurt and i don't think that i even want the internet at home anymore. hopefully i won't have a heart attack on the drive home. |
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| see you all on the 23rd or so when i get back!!! i'll miss you all!! |
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woohoo!! only like 4 days away!! and i am gonnaa see likke everyone that i want to except *sigh* Kutless... *cries really hard!!* just cuz im bored i'll let ya know where im gonna be at what time and who im gonna see!! Thursday: 5 - Peder Eide (speaker) 5:45 - monk and neagle 6:15 - out of eden 7 - sonic flood 7:15 - The Afters 7:45 - everyday sunday 8:45 - thousand foot krutch 9:15 - rebecca st james 10:30 - tobyMac 11:30 - bonfire/worship or Superchic[k] Friday: 9 - devos w/ By The Tree 10:30 - seminar 1:45 - mat Kearney 2:30 - seminar 3:30 - By the Tree or Falling Up 4:45 - Tait 6- Compassion thinger 6:45 - skillet 7:30 - KJ-52 7:45 - ZoeGirl 10 - The Newsboys 11:15 - Fireworks/bonfire Saturday: 9 - devos 10:30 - seminar 2:30 - seminar 3:30 - big daddy weave 4 - krystal meyers 4:45 - matthew west 5:15 - anberlin 6 - Building 429 7:30 - Chris Tomlin 8:30 - Salvador 10 - Audio Adrenaline |
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| mwahahaha... i blogged!!! |
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First best friend: Sarah M****** First screenname: chellie_07 First self purchased CD: Britney Spears Hit Me Baby One More Time First pets: Cat First piercing/tattoo: ears First musician you remember hearing in your house: no clue Last cigarette: never Last car ride: this morning coming home from piano lessons Last good cry: last saturday, i got lost driving at night Last movie seen on video: hmmmm wow, i don't remember, i think Lemony Snickets Series of Unfortunate Events Last beverage drank: grape juice Last food consumed: grilled cheese Last time showered: this morning Last shoes worn: barn work boots Last disappointment:finding no one online Last shirt worn: volleyball tshirt from 8th grade Last website visited: youth reborn Last word/s you said: she's sleeping, don't bother her (referring to the puppy) What color socks are wearing: white What's under your bed?: blankets im not using time did you wake up today? 6:30 Where do you want to go?: Adam's House ![]() Where are you going to live?: Wherever God puts me How many kids do you want?: i don't know, not many Current mood: happy Current music: none Current taste: grilled cheese Current hair: in a ponytail Current clothes: grey sweatpants, volleyball tshirt (work clothes) Current desktop picture: purple flower Current color of toenails: fushia Current hate: nothin really Are you double jointed?: somtiems in my thumbs Can you roll your tongue?: yup Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: nope Can you blow spit bubble?: *sigh* i wish! Can you cross your eyes?: yeah Tattoos?: nope Piercings and where: ears Do you make your bed daily?: never! CLOTHES. Which shoe goes on first?: hmmm i think left Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: haha yeah On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet?: $20 What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: a pair of earrings, occasionally a necklace Favorite piece of clothing?: volleyball sweatshirt FOOD: Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl Have you ever eaten Spam?: yea Favorite ice cream flavor?: too many to choose from, but i LUV dippindots How many cereals in your cabinet?: umm i think 3 or 4 What's your favorite beverage?: pepsi Do you cook?: sometimes GROOMING. How often do you brush your teeth?: 4 or 5 times a day (im obsessed) Hair drying method?: half towel half hair dryer Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?: yeah strawberry blonde MANNERS. Do you swear?: no Do you ever spit?: all the time when im working in the barn WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE. Animal: dog Food: pizza Month: december Day: Saturday Favorite Cartoon Character: Bugs Bunny Subject in school: Biology Color: pink Sport: volleyball and softball TV show: Law and Order IN AND AROUND. The CD player: Reliant K Person you talk most on the phone with: lately Adam, haven't had too many calls Ever taken a cab: nope Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors: who doesnt? What color is your bedroom: baby blue Do you use an alarm clock: every day Window seat or aisle: window What's your sleeping position: right side Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? yeah i can't sleep without a blanket on Do you sleepwalk: nope Do you talk in your sleep: oh yeah, but not in english Do you sleep with stuffed animals: no. How about with the light on: nope Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on: no Do you like to snuggle: love to! |
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| hey guys this may be my last update here at emoblog. i hate to leave ya, but its time to move on. its been great, don't worry i'll miss you all. and i will be back to comment on ur blogs, don't worry! |
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mmm, i just mowed part of the lawn and it smells amazing. i love the smell of freshly cut grass. i should invent a candle with that smell man!! today was fun. there wasn't anything really exciting and there wasn't anything too horrible. i like normal days. i haven't had one in a while. it's kind of relaxing. yeah i don't really have anything to blog about, it was just a good day. jen got her license today!! woot woot! idk why that is so exciting, she doesn't have a car or any means of driving. but oh well i guess i'll b happy for her. |
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it just doen't work. prom was so miserable. my hair turned out badly. joe wanted more than just a prom date. i danced a grand total of 2 dances with him and the rest of the time i spent crying on the balcony or putting on a fake smile and dancing with my girls. i should have just gone with my girls in the first place. my dress itches terribly but im gonna wear it to church anyways. no, there probably won't be any pictures any time soon because my camera was stolen. how stupid is that? someone went in my purse and stole my camera, yet they left the $30+ that i had in my wallet. retarded theifs!! yeah, so i'm thoroughly exhausted, i slept on a pool table last night, and i have to work a huge buffet today at 1 o clock.
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| today was amazing, and will continue to be. i knew today was going to be fun, but i never expected this. i got up at 4:30 this morning to get ready for state solo and ensemble. that was a joy. we rode in a van for an hour and a half. for the last half hour i had to go to the bathroom soooo bad! it was horrible!!! i felt every flippin bump!! as soon as we got to SPASH i ran out of the van only to find Bryan. i ran at him as fast as i could and he caught me. hehe, he's so awesome. i can hug him and whatever and it means nothing to anyone. i wish i had more guy friends like that. but anyways then we got into the school and i finally found a bathroom. i changed into my dress and all that jazz and went to find a practice room. i warmed up my fingers and had a really good performance. then i went to find my room. that high school is sooo freakin huge!!! twas insane! i got lost 3 times. on my way to the room i ran into neillsville people!! how sweet was that?!? we wandered over to where my site was and talked for a while. it was mike, earl, jake, eric, andrea, jodi, and a few other girls. the girls had a performance elsewhere so they took off. i asked laura if she would turn pages for me so we stepped into the room. the room was pretty small, but jake, eric, and mike all crammed in there. ian walked by too so he joined them. and guess who waited in the hall? yup, earl. what a surprise!!! so even more nervous than i was before because of an audience, i trudged through my song and did not do well at all. but i guess the judge didn't think that because he gave me a first. either that or it was early and he hadn't had his coffee yet. i talked to jake afterwards and he said nice job and all that. so then ian and i had our duet. we practiced and then found our room. the bench was almost too small for one person to sit on so we got two chairs. we were really low to the ground and our page turner kept turning too soon and that didn't go very well either. i don't now what we scored on it, but im hopin the judge still gave us a first. ian was being a sweetie and tellling me he didn't even notice that i messed up. but its ok, because we're performing agian next friday night and we had fun doing it. so then i was pretty pooped and bryan escorted me down the hallway trying to find somewhere for me to sleep. i've never been escorted anywhere, so that was pretty sweet i guess. we ran into the neillsville people again and they were about to perform. we watched their show choir and they were amazing. they sang where is love and soul man. the first one wasn't all that great, but i am still singing soul man. they were amazing shakin their booties up there!!! man, i wish i could sing so that i could dance too. i was sooo tempted to take a video with my digi camera because i want that performance to be in my memory forever. it was sooooo good. bryan and i went back to the gym and mike followed. we talked some, said he did a nice job and then he gave me a hug. i have no idea where that came from cuz he's practically in love with jodi. oh wells, free hug i guess. i went to leave and there was a lil stand selling things so ryan went and bought me three roses. that was really nice. no one has bought me flowers for the heck of it. that was pretty cool. and tonight is prom and i can only imagine what will happen!!! |
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You left your Bible on the dresser/So I put it in the drawer/'Cause I can't seem to talk to God without yelling anymore/And when I sit at your piano/I can almost hear those hymns/The keys are just collecting dust But I can't close the lid You left my heart as empty/as a Monday morning church/It used to be so full of faith and now it only hurts/And I can heart the devil whisper/"Things are only getting worse"/You left my heart as empty/as a Monday morning church The preacher came by Sunday/said he missed me at the service/He told me Jesus loves me/but I'm not sure I deserve it/'Cause the faithful man that you loved/is nowhere to be found/Since they took all that he believed/and laid it in the ground I still believe in Heaven/and I'm sure you've made it there/But as for me without your love, girl/I don't have a prayer You left your Bible on the dresser/so I put it in the drawer alrighty, i'm not depressed, but i just heard this song on the radio and its really good. makes me cry quite often. this week has been really good and will only get better. yesterday i spent the day in chanhassen, minnesota and went to a dinner theater. saw beauty and the beast, and then swung by the mall of america. today was, well just another ordinary day, i went tanning for the first time and bought some pink nailpolish. tomorrow im gonna get trained to waitress. yay! saturday morning is state solo and ensemble, i'm pretty nervous about that. but then saturday night is partay!! prom night that is. goin with joey oey oey!!! hehe. afterwards we're goin to jill's house for a movie and we'll prolly sleep there. then sunday morning i'll come home and sleep for hours on end until 5:30 when i go back to work. nooooooooo! wait, sunday is mother's day. that means i have to go to work at like 1!!! not cool! i'm gonna be so dead tired. gah. ick. pfft. dang i totally forgot about that. oh well, i'll live, always do. ciao! |
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what a weekend, and one to come!! friday went to briana's house for another movie night. i cannot believe it!! joe lied to me. lasts week we watched the grudge and i told him i wasn't coming this week if we were watching another scary movie. so he promised he'd borrow dodgeball from his brother for us. i was pretty excited cuz i've wanted to watch that for a while now. so i come after the softball game all excited to watch dodgeball right? so they throw in the movie and it turns out we watch Saw instead. ugh, so another night of screaming!! that movie is freaky. especially the closet/photographer scene. when he took the pic and the flash went off, i screamed this bloody murder scream!! twas horrible. and bcuz of the guy hiding in the backseat of the car in the parking garage, i have to check my backseat now every time i get in my car. stupid! the plot of that movie was sick. like the guy was so twisted with all his plans. enuf of that so saturday i went to the varsity softball tournament in town. we took 1st in the thinger. twas greatness. then went back to briana's and took a nap until work. oh yeah and in there we watched without a paddle. that's hilarious!!! good movie. lil crude humor. then work, then home. this morning (sunday) went to church and talked to sarah afterwards. came home, cleaned up and ian came over. we went over our piece and talked about his prom last night. their theme was moonlight in paris. romantic, eh? i don't even know what our theme is this year, lol. but yeah, he was pretty tired. poor kid. thats how i will be next week at this time. dead tired. at least it will be somewhat quiet. half of my family is going to my grandparents' house so it will just be me my dad and brittany. why do they always leave the sister home that i don't get along with?!? ugh. oh wells. time for me to go! |
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| ugh, i hate disagreements. nothing is even wrong. everything is taken care of, i just feel like it was a big fight. im not mad, not angry, just blah. i don't know what it is, but i don't feel right.. |
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yup, we won again tonight. 13-0 i believe. my game was so-so. i sat the first two innings and then went in to play third base. its a good thing the ball never came to me because i couldn't feel my fingers and it was slippery. it was raining out, AGAIN. i hate playing in cold weather!! it sucks. but i got a run and we won so its all good. not too much to write here. im not really in the mood for blogging, i'll prolly just go comment on other peoples!! |
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| finally, i have some time to sit down and write some stuff out. friday night i had a softball tournament and it snowed!! yes.. it rained and snowed in april!! not cool. and mr. lenz wouldn't call the game! made me irate. so i froze my rear end off... not to mention screwed up the game numerous times. needless to say, we got our butts kicked. so i had a crappy night, until we went to leave. my mom bought me a car!! how nuts is that! craziness.... its a sweet car. 2003 black ford focus. she's real pretty! i luv her. i think i've passed 4 people in the 2 days i've been able to drive!! pretty sweet i guess. so yeah.. my car, i have a car. i love being able to say that. i have no clue how they're paying for it either. after i got my car me and briana decided to have a movie night. me, her, austen, joe, and steve all went out to her house and watched the grudge. i did NOT like that movie at all. i don't do well with scary movies!!! i screamed soooo many times. and that part with the jaw was just gross. if you haven't seen the movie, don't watch it, its a waste of time. we're gonna have another movie night this weekend i think. we're tryin to come up with a good one. not scary. i was thinkin lemony snickets or somethin like that. idk if its out on dvd yet tho. hmmm... oh wells. then saturday mornin we went shoppin and i got some coolio stuff. and today i just got back from the school play. this year they did The Beverly Hillbillies.. it was ok, but i had a hard time understanding what they were saying at times. and now dang i have just a lil time before i gotta go to work. like maybe 45 mins or somethin. |
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I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain Just to be with the one he loves How many times has he broken that promise It has never been done. I've never climbed the highest mountain But I walked the hill of calvary ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Just to be with you, I'd do anything There's no price I would not pay Just to be with you, I'd give anything I would give my life away. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean Just to be with the one he loves How may times has he broken that promise It can never be done I've never swam the deepest ocean But I walked upon the raging sea ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I know that you don't understand the fullness of My love How I died upon the cross for your sins And I know that you don't realize how much that I gave you But I promise, I would do it all again. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Just to be with you, I've done everything There's no price I did not pay Just to be with you, I gave everything Yes, I gave my life away. another good one^^ today was a semi-ok day... math homework is really piling up, but i can't really do it bcuz i don't know how. i stayed after school today and got a worksheet and quiz done, but ran outta time to do the actual lesson and homework assignments. im still 13 pages behind, but i have no clue what sine, cosine and tangents are... i missed that whole lecture, so i'll do it tomorrow during study hall when mrs. opelt can help me. i had to milk cows for my dad tonight. ugh, i forgot how bad they stunk up that close. and this one cow, jeanne, was super crabby for some reason! she kicked me in the knee and then in the wrist. the only thought goin thru my head was 'softball! i gotta pitch, u break my arm i'll break ur neck!!' lol, yeah as u can tell i just LOVE my cows. she took part of the skin off my wrist and it feels nice and sore. my knee is alright... but still, im not happy with her. not too much to write bout anymore... pfft |
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My world is closing in On the inside But I'm not showing it When all I am is crying out I hold it in and fake a smile Still I'm broken I'm broken Only one can understand And only one can hold the hand Of the broken Of the broken ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ When no one else knows how I feel Your love for me is proven real When no one else cares where I've been You run to me with outstretched hands And You hold me in your arms Again ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I need no explanation of why me I just need confirmation Only You could understand the emptiness inside my head ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am falling I am falling I'm falling down upon my knees To find the one who gives me peace I am flying Lord I am flying ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I have come to you in search of faith Cause I can't see beyond this place Oh You are God and I am man So I'll leave it in Your hands dang so i have a thing for posting lyrics lately. but they're so good and have such a life application. music is my boyfriend!! today was basically boring. went to a math competition... major waste of time. i got like 2 questions right outta 15. yeah it sucked. but ohwell, i got outta school, right? talkin to sarah right now. she's still dealing with her breakup, which im sure she will be for a while. im just glad i can be here for her. i luv her sooo much!! |