things could be better p2 (the Problem)
Date: Jul 29th, 2006 9:38:42 am - Subscribe
Mood: destroyed and yet alright
alright i think i got everything i need to write this stupid shit.
TO ALL THE FRIENDS I KNOW I MEAN NO DISRESPECT TO HER BUT ITS I NEED TO GET THIS OUTA MY SYSTEM CUZ IVE BEEN FUCKING PISSED OFF FOR A WHILE NOW
Alright now its about 2am and im gona start to write this, ok recently ive been thinking about this girl her name is Sel yais every problem starts with a girl, how immature. I used to date her back in 6th grade hahahaha so far far away! We went on this school trip and we started to like each other again it was crazy to belive that we started to fall for each other all over again. Well after that school trip we not exactly got back together, we made out and stuff and it was great it was the best feeling in my life better than getting drunk or fucked up (in a good way) whatever ppl say. But things went i guess well for the first month we didnt fight or have anything to fight about things were fantastic! Then... i introduced her to my friend, he was one of my best friends and from the min he talked to her on the phone he instantly liked her so i was worrying like ohh shit my friend likes her, and i have a lot to worry about cause all the girls like him the hottest guy around kinda thing. So yais i was worried, so i guess things became a little edgy between me and her i was like are you alright and being more worried, cause they were talking on the phone late at night, and shed be like wait il call you in 30 mins im talking to him! im like WTF ITS 2 AM!!??!! so i became so suspicious but always she assured me, so i felt better. Then it was valentines day and her best friend told me the perfect gift would be a bunch of roses so with whatever money i had i bought her 12roses with a teddy bear and anybody would be amazed if they saw it haha my mother went with me to get it cause i need a womans oppinion, i would ask my friends but they were too busy buying stuff too. On that valentines day i kept trying to put it in her locker but it wouldnt fit cuz of all her books, so i put it in mine and told her to get it later. She did and everybody was like WHOO GAVE YOU THAT ITS SO BEAUTIFUL! so i felt good that day. But that all came to an end...... il talk about that day at the end of this blog. So that day i was FULLOFENERGY! me and her talked so much and the days just kept getting better, but my friend ahhh fuck it! il just say his name! his name is adrian, and he was one of my best friends they kept talking on the phone everyday but she kept ensuring me. weeks later this happend... One day at my friend adrians house i looked at his phone and messages from my the girl i loved'z bestfriend were there saying i love you and he wont know, and i was like WTF?!?! since wen were u with her!! and he was like since forever then i knew somthing was up!!! i was like no way he was sweating and getting fitchy so then i said straight up! are you with Sel, he finally admited to me yes man i am. THEN I JUST CRAZY I WAS WTF WTF WTF!!!!! AHHH!!!!! and he was like calm down pls man let me explain and i was like no shit u better and you know waaaat u better hurry im gona kick the shit out of you! and he explained stuff but not all of it, il find that out later on, so he called her and he said i told him, so then i was on the phone with her FURIOUS AS HELL and she said "you know we have been done i mean we dont talk and you must know already we are you should understand its better this way" so then i was just depressed but more angry than depressed, she picked a guy that would fuck her then leave her just like that adrian just wants to get in any girls pants! i know him too well. so then i just went its your funeral i dont know if she heard it but i said it loud. And wouldnt you know it a week later they were done he left her for another girl, and he had another girl on the side. isnt that wonderful. Well can you belive it i went back with her.... g0d all the commenters can just go stupid me stupid me im all for it, so then yes i went with her but as far as i knew she didnt cheat on me. Then a few weeks later before graduation adrian finally broke the silence and shit he wanted to tell me for so long, he said on GET THIS [Valentines Day] she made out with him OMFG!!! and other days they made out and stuff she called him from a party they were all drunk and they fucking made out in her house and all this shit all when me and her were together SO IM NOW AHHH!!!!!! AHHH!!!!! haha she doesnt know i do know this. and oh so many stuff he told me everything but if i were to name all of this id have to get a whole now page! So then shes with me all open hearted and i still like her i knw ppl i knw.... but this is still before graduation. and get this she said the reason she "left" me was she thought i didnt love her! OMFG!! she said she needs time to "study" haha yeah study making out and other shit with my best friend! and i knew that she needs to study for summer boarding school. so i didnt talk to her for a week maybe two and if she wanted to talk i said i said i was available anytime to talk! then days later i get this drama! FUCKING AHH!!! so yeah, and now its summer yais summer how great and im great im meeting people hanging with friends and family! go down to the beach go surf bodyboard and meet chicks haha my friends they always go "chicks pare chicks get the chicks" haha always funny with them not ever a dull moment. and people i have forgot about her for most of the summer just this week i think i emailed her to see what she was doing, she said she was hanging with her new friends and the new boys like this specificly italian boy and some dude that plays lacrosse, haha watev she said that he hurt his shoulder and she "comforts him everyday! hahaha yeah sure! WATEV somthang else is going on! im thinking that i mean after what ive gone through i think i should you know. i dont think il ever trust another girl fully ever again and oh i rememberd she said before graduation "i cant love no more adrian broke my heart" and i was like HAHAHAHAHA in my mind im like YOU BROKE MY HEART BITCH! with the cheating! and all that shit the lies all that SHIEEET! so now im chilling out talking to new people and just living life to the fullest yesterday was my cousinz last day in Fransico so we had a great drinking day. hahaha and today he left so emotional day and now im just ya know chillinz. ey ppl comment on this shit haha! haha you knw she knows this site! itz crazy oh well now she knows how i feel and if she got questionz i got answers and haha she said she loves me and if she really does i REALLY need to know why she does and if she really wants to go ahead with a relationship haha i can commit! but shes the flirty kind and wont really settle for one guy! oh well
Suprahye OUTZ
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