~ surrender ~

innerst inne lengter jeg
Date: Jan 13th, 2005 10:31:31 pm - Subscribe
Mood: reflective
dreamscape: en sky skaper skygge av tvil

i am awake. wide, in fact. 4 hours of dreaming in metropolis and cells brimming with sleeplessness.

mind has been so overcrowded with stringless thoughts and sticky webs of reflections, its bordering on intolerable. well, i guess it has been intolerable. cells have had enough and benumb themselves with virtual, visual anaesthetics. ephemeral first aid.

i've made only vague gestures in response to my pestering will to change, to leave, to grow. i feel like i am sinking into a deeper part of this cycle. deeper: im in norway again, smoking, holding hands with ina. wanting to forget what i left behind in the desert.

i no longer want to hold relationships that contaminate with their pallor and grey-tinged forgetting, yet i long for this heart centredness that sometimes envelopes from within.

i breathe deep into my lungs. the staleness scraping out catches on a memory, i cough reactively and eyes moisten with reflective jewels.

at this moment i am lost in this.

surrender.

then, fleetingly, i find my trust in the movement of love and let go..
Comments: (5)

b14d3 - January 14th, 2005 Thanks for the awesome comment. I absolutely love the template you used for this site. Im glad I inspire someone, that makes my life worthwhile :-D <your poetry3 <Mr Brightside3

onthemetro - January 15th, 2005 this is beautiful... i love yer writing as well - i could easily lose myself here for a while... thank you so much for reading, stop by anytime... yer language is captivating... real...

genocide - January 16th, 2005 the way you use your words, are with out a doubt moving..anything i can do to make you feel better, loved?

surrender - January 16th, 2005 the offer and warmth is enough to persuade my mind to let go and my heart to open

un_heartme - January 25th, 2005 [Sorry it took me so long to respond.] I love my background too, thank you very much. It's nice to know that I have fans. And no, It is not me. But I'm working on a layout, and hopefully will post a picture of me, I'm not sure yet. <take care33

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