Date: May 20th, 2006 12:36:13 am - Subscribe
Noise: Motion City Soundtrack - Everything Is Alright
Woke up at 6am feeling nauseous. I ran to the bathroom and threw up the ice-cream I had before I went to sleep. That sounds anorexic, doesn't it? But I'm not. I just took an overdose of pills.
Why? So that I'll get into hospital, they'll write up a "suicide attempt" and I won't go to army. I don't wanna go there. Don't wanna waist 2 years of my life on that. I prefer doing other things with my life.
So my grandma woke up and I told her. She started yelling at me that she's sick of my "suicide attempts" (I call it self-injuring because I don't really want to die). She said that she wouldn't call for an ambulance because then you have to pay for it. What a lovely thing to say.
So now I feel sick and stupid. I'm like one of those lame teenage-kids, who harm themselves just to get attention. At least in my case it was for a good cause. 1 soldier less= less death. I don't wanna be a part of that shit. It's better to be a live coward than a dead hero. Nicotine Stains: (0)