Also, Dest came home, so Harry, Allison, Dest, and me hung out for a while.
And, yeah. That was today.
Look at me and Harry!
lolz. Purty
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Really, they have. And nothing has been bothering me. I haven't been upset. I did feel a little down today, but my throat hurts and taking a cough drop gives me a headache. So, yeah. I know a lot more about Harry than I did yesterday morning. Last night, we played 20 questions, only we stopped counting and just went back and forth asking each other something. I wonder about a lot of stupid things .... I feel comfortable talking to him. I'm not shaking or my voice is wavy. It's cool. lolz. So, yeah. Things have been great. ________________________ One way to ruin something great .... be honest .... |
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yay .... no school for me .... I'm feeling better, though. My thoat isn't as bad and my ears don't hurt and it DOESN'T hurt to breathe. so, yeah . I talked to Harry last night. And this morning. lolz. It was all good. He is the kind of guy who doesn't think of me in a bad way when I sound like someone who has been smoking for 30 years. It works out well that we both have Cingular, 'cause if now, all my minutes would be gone. lolz. I do enjoy talking to him ... alot .... So, yeah. Things are good. |
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I yesterday, I finally got the data cable for my cellphone, SE Z500a, and I have to say, it is ghetto as hell. The cable works fine! It's the software that's the problem. It's buggy and cheap. The software came on some Asain CD-R and it barely works. So, right now, with nothing else to do, I'm downloading something else and giving this a try. It comes with an MP3 clipper, which is a bonus for me. The Sound Editor is too hard to figure out on the one that I got. It refuses to save when I ask of it. Hopefully, this free program will be less buggy. *crosses fingers on free downloads* http://global.mobileaction.com/download/download1.jsp?phoneBrand=2&modelID=310&go=+Go+ |
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Yesterday, I went to see a movie with Harry. Movie= Good. Harry= Good. lolz. Afterwards, we went to my school's play, Little Shop of Horrors. That was good, too. So, yeah. I like Harry, a lot. And I'm not letting myself ruin this. He is too good to let go. I did get the feeling, however, that most of Fenris does not like him. Just a feeling. ^ That is something that I should just let go, 'cause it's stupid. I'm not even close to most of them for that to be an issue. |
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Ever been afraid in in a panic. I am. And I find myself searching the internet like a loon for something that doesn't exist. Like the internet can truely pinpoint one thing that I am looking for. Well, not a thing. More like a person. I'm still scared. |
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I've been up since five. Half awake since 3. So, yeah. Today is Andrew's party. Also, I'm helping one of the band parents today. I'll get $25 in my trip account. YAY! About the last entry, I never found what I was looking for, but things turned out alright in the end, anyways. I think. lolz. I wouldn't know. I never found it. |
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Yesterday was both good and bad. I spent time with Harry. The party was fun, and I had a wonderful time. That was the good part. The bad part was that Dest never showed up. When I called her house, her mom answered, and told me she was in the hospital. That was a blow that I wasn't expecting. |
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My mood has been down lately. I thought about cutting, but I got mad at myself. Not that long after, Harry called. I didn't tell him, though. I didn't see the need to tell him. Dest is okay. Though, her actions had her sent into the hospital, and I don't know when she is getting out. I feel confused. And I don't know why. Not about anyone or anything, just in general. It makes my head hurt, along with everything else. |
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I read through my blog earlier. It still amazes me the emotions that I went through from day to day. I was pissed at Dest twice. Heartbroken three times. Used once. suicidal a million times. It's like a wow kind of moment. I'm thinking about giving Harry the link, so then he can see more about me. I look at me doing that, and seeing it going of two ways. Really bad or really good. ____ I had tag day again today. I, myself, raised 40+usd. I feel proud. And a little sick, 'cause standing in the rain isn't fun. What was fun was watching this guy talk on the payphone and cry while doing so. My mom was like, "jeez, thank god he is gone. He cried for 45 minutes!" Turned out he came back. lolz! |
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Today was shitloads of fun. I watched Benchwarmers with Harry. That movie was really good. Better than I thought. And it wasn't funny in the cheap laugh sorta way. Also, Dest came home, so Harry, Allison, Dest, and me hung out for a while. And, yeah. That was today. Look at me and Harry! lolz. Purty |
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I thought about cutting. I thought about cutting over and over again until there was no more skin for me to mutilate. But it was just a thought. I got a C in science. It's the end of the world, 'cause Lord knows how much the cell theory is going to help me in real life. |
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My mom got a motorola RAZR thinger. The Magenta one. It's a nice phone. I thought it was going to suck and be a waste of money. My mom bought it off ebay. There is this store on there called cellpoint_inc that has these nice package deals. It comes with a data cable, a world phone, a hands free set, and a converter for the charger that comes with it. She spent 170.00 on it, which is NOT bad at all for everything that came with it. I would recomend that company any day. And they were super fast with their shipping, too. We ordered it on Sunday, and got it on Tuesday. That is pretty good. As soon as they got their payment, I got an email with the tracking number. Awesome. it's a sexy phone. yep. |