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tahksik Why am I so afraid? - Subscribe
I spent some time with Dennis today. We just played around the Clifton Commons. We didn't really do anything. I mean, we held hands and he'd wrap his arms around me. I wanted to kiss him, though. I had my chance, but I was afraid, you know?

I like him. I like him a lot. He makes me happy and we can talk about a lot of things. I found out last night that he went to the same camp that I did. He's a nerd like me. Only, he's more into Fantasy and Sci-Fi and I'm into Manga and Anime. We spent 2 hours talking last night.

I don't know. I was talking to Viki about him before, and she saw him today and gave me a thumbs up. I laughed, but it means a lot that my friends get along with him. It means more to me that the guy I'm interested in isn't trying to shove his friendship down their throat, like Harry did a million times.

I shouldn't compare. Dennis is a major upgrade, and I need to work up to kissing him. ^_^
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Mood: dreamy
The song that never ends: Outro -- Breaking Benjamin

tahksik So, yeah Feb 2nd, 2007 9:06:18 pm - Subscribe
Get off the sidewalk.

I have my provisional. Yayness!

What sucked was that the guy had to leave, and he left me at DMV. So, yeahhh ... I called Dennis and asked for a ride back. He was like, "I have no gas." I knew I had 20, and I told him it'd give it to him. But he was like, "make it five."

He refused to take 20, but then I made him take three fives. lmao. So, yeah. What he did was a huge favor, and he drove yesterday.

He was like, 'then atleast take one five!"

I was like, "My love is worth 5 dollars. Think of this being me giving my love to you."

lmao .. so, yeah...
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Mood: neurotic
The song that never ends: Pain -- Three Days Grace

tahksik You can buy love Feb 4th, 2007 1:24:10 am - Subscribe


Gateway MX8711

My mom and I haven't been getting along. And every so often, she tends to buy things irrationally to "buy" my love. I think it worked. Also, she fucked up my Toshiba and she feels bad about it.

My PC is Gateway, so when my mom handed me this one, I was like, cool. I think this was a good buy. I really like it. Click the links for the specs.

It has windows Vista on it, and from what I can tell, it isn't that bad. It hasn't really impressed me, but I'm not throwing my computer at the wall. If anyone has any questions about it or anything, I'll try my best in answering them.

I'll take more pictures later of it. Right now I'm just playing around with it. Yayness
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Mood: WHOOSH!

tahksik So -- CHYEAH Feb 14th, 2007 12:29:47 am - Subscribe
I thought about cutting myself, again. I almost did it, too. I figured it would be on my thigh, 'cause I don't wear anything above my knee in winter. I don't even know why I wanted to do it -- or why I was really crying.

Maybe it's because Valentines day is coming up, and once again I have no one. Last year, it wasn't that bad because I had other drama in my life, but now I'm really standing here with no one around me. And it's not like I wasn't trying or pushing people away. It's just that people have become too "busy" to deal with me.

Also, someone doesn't know how to take a fucking hint. Harry is just being a pain in the ass. A couple of days ago, he asked if he could be my Valentine, and I told him to find someone else. Then, yesterday, he was waiting for me after school. Apparently, he just called me to tell me that he moved on and to give me a ride home. I doubt that, 'cause when I got home, there was a lovely email from him saying how he will never get over me.

It kinda scares me a little. I know he's been drinking a lot, and I'm afraid that one of these days he's going to be out of control and hurt someone--including himself. It seems that every time I block him, he finds another way to contact me. I really do want him out of my life. I wish our relationship never happened because I did a lot of stupid things, then.

Oh wells, I have stuff to do... BYE!
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Mood: surly

tahksik Salon Products -- only guarenteed when bought in a salon. Feb 15th, 2007 10:45:59 pm - Subscribe
I'm sick of telling customers and people I know that when you go to K-Mart, and you see the Supper Skinny Serum on the shelves, it's not the best thing to do.

Unless sold in a Salon, you don't know if your product is fake, old, or tampered with. Paul Mitchell, instead of spending money on advertising, is spending money on making consumers aware of what they're buying. I see the commercial all the time, and it's true. I found an ABC News article talking about how the fake products are a problem. (linked below)

Also, it's not like every time you go to CVS or Publix you're getting the best deal. Most of the time, the product is overpriced. I know that in SuperCuts, every month we have a new product that is the SuperPick of the month. You can get 20% off that product. Also, Paul Mitchell is running a Buy One Get One Half Off sale on most of their styling products. American crew has a sale where if you buy 2 of their products (pomade, foaming cream, wax, etc), it's 2 for $22. I'm not sure about other salons, but if you do you research and look around, you can get good deals from Salons.


Paul Mitchell talks about product control

ABC News Article

Get a $2 off coupon for SuperCuts.
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Mood: burned-out

tahksik Save 150usd on Gateway's MX8711 Feb 18th, 2007 4:11:02 pm - Subscribe
Gateway MX8711 17" widescreen laptop with Vista.

We saw it in the BestBuy weekly ad. It is a really good machine and if anyone was thinking of getting it, then now is a good time to do it.

If anyone is thinking of getting it, but have questions, feel free to ask.

For a 17", it is very lightweight. The screen is so clear and sharp, it's amazing. If you have any wide screen DVDs, then definitely put one in to test it out.

So, yeah ... I'm out...
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Mood: bashful

tahksik Winter Break is here .. Feb 18th, 2007 5:55:58 pm - Subscribe
So far, I have not been sick. I almost made it through the winter with nothing worse than a stuffy nose. Now that winter break is here, I'm sick.

I thought my throat was sore from yelling at the stupid freshman at the theater, but then I developed a headache that would kill a horse. So, I went to the mall. (smart, ne?) Chris was at the mall, also, playing DDR, so I went to visit him. That place was so noisy that it made my headache dull (loud noise is a comfort for me). But it was so hot. So I left to find my mom in Sears. I was still hot ... even with my coat off. My mom said my face was red and stuff.

Yay for fevers.

My sore throat has turned into a painful cough. I feel like I'm going to pass out sometimes. Not cool.

AND I HAVE A WEEK OFF OF SCHOOL! I DON'T WANT TO SPEND IT SICK!

THIS IS SOOOO NOT FAIR!!!

Whatevs .... It's been a while since I updated on my life ...

Monday -- Harry stalked me. That was fun. I had to manage a bake sale and meet a teacher after school and he called me. I was kinda snappy, and he just hung up on me. He was waiting for me outside the school. I haven't talked to him since. After the bake sale, I had to walk home, but I was wearing heels, so I walked home barefoot. lmao.

Tuesday -- got in trouble for a writing assignment. Apparently I have no discretion for appropriate things ...

Wednesday -- V-Day and Snow Day. At least I didn't have to sit around watch everyone be all lovely and shit like that.

Thrusday -- Nothing important. ... or anything that I could remember.

Friday -- Junior Prom was on Friday, but I didn't want to go. No one asked me, and I didn't want to go anyways. (If someone asked, I would have.,.. but whatevs) Instead, me and some friends who also ditched J. Prom and we all went to the movies. We were trying to see Smokin Aces, but 2 of the people we were with were 16 and looked like they were 12 ... DAMN! So, we saw The Messengers. That was a terrible movie. Don't watch it. Also, there was this group of freshman in the front, and they were being rude as fuck. I yelled at them twice ... Someone complained and they got security and stuff ( I think the freshies were throwing stuff, also.) Once the guards came, they shut up.

Yesterday I went to the mall with my mom. In the morning, I woke up with a sore throat. On the way to the mall, I developed a small headache. Everything went downhill from there. I did get some earings, at spencers. I was also hit on by this kid in hot topic. lmao. That made me feel better about myself. lolz ...

So, yeah ...
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Mood: perplexed

tahksik At a loss Feb 20th, 2007 12:15:30 am - Subscribe
I really don't know what to think. I feel ... "betrayed" ... if that is the right word.

For a while, I thought that I really had a shot with Dennis. I thought that Jackie was really turning into my friend and she was encouraging me. She has been friends with him for a while and she kept telling me not to give up. I could talk to her about my problems and she could talk to me about mine.

I guess you could say that this is Karma.

Last night, Jackie IMed me, asking me if she could call me. It was around 10 or 11, I couldn't remember which. She was telling me how this girl called her, yelling at her, calling her names.

Jackie said that he name was Sam, and that she said she was Dennis' girlfriend. Dennis said that Jackie slept with him and that she's with someone new every week--or something like that.

Jackie was telling me that she kissed him two weeks ago, and that he had no problem with it. The only thing he had to say about it was that he didn't want to get into a relationship, yet.

The whole time, I'm just trying not to say anything or hang up the phone. I was mad--I still am. Is this payback for all the things that happened when she was with Chris? Why couldn't she just tell me or do something so I didn't find out ...

I don't know what to do... These are my friends. Jackie is the only one I could really talk to about my problems ...

I don't even know what to say to either of them, if I should say anything ....

________Edit_________

You know what -- I'm not going to stress over it. My friend Amanda introduced me to a friend of hers. He doesn't go to my school, he plays hockey, and he's super cute.

I'm just going to move on. There's no point in bringing it back up or dwelling on it. My name wasn't on Dennis, and if he was interested in me, then why would he kiss her? You know? I'm not going to let it bother me ...

Peace Mother Fuckas!
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Mood: sluggish
The song that never ends: Fading -- Gretchen

tahksik Freaks! Feb 21st, 2007 6:33:33 pm - Subscribe
Freak On A Leash Ft Amy Lee

So, yeahhh ...

Being sick sucks, but thankfully, I'm starting to get over it... hotness.

So, yeah. Hopefully I can go pick up my toshiba from Best Buy. So--yeahhhh

I'm hungry ... ttylaterz
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Mood: inferior
The song that never ends: Lithium -- Evanescence

tahksik A small glitch?! Feb 23rd, 2007 1:42:45 am - Subscribe
Iono ... but I think my computer might be hinting to something. Just look at the pictures ...

Mozilla Firefox 2.0.0.1











So, then I decided to have some fun with it ....








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Mood: sleepless

tahksik New Phone Feb 24th, 2007 4:17:51 am - Subscribe
I was eligible for an upgrade since Monday, and today I finally did it. I was looking at some of the free ones they were offering, but the one I really wanted and liked was only $20 bucks, and I could live with that.

My mom had questions, so I was just going to call and ask them and order it online 'cause they were the one with the deal. So, I called, asked a bunch of questions, and somehow mentioned the phone I wanted. (I was asking why when the one in Red (refubed) would be in-stock) and she said that she didn't know. She then said that she would be able to sell me the new one for free. YES, FREE! after mail in rebate. But, you know what, I could put up the $50 now. I don't mind.

The phone I'm getting is the Samsung C417 Gold. I've seen the phone around and I really like the design of it. My old phone was such a brick, and I'm not even kidding. It was thick and clunky. This one is thin and purty. I've read online and around that the buttons are flat and that it is hard to dial by feel, but I've gotten used to my mom's razor, so I think I'll be fine.

So. YAY!







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Mood: whatever that feeling is when you realize you have to work the next day -- yeah -- that one

tahksik Oh wells -- PEACE! Feb 25th, 2007 6:39:03 am - Subscribe
I'm not going to stick around. I'm too rude.

I've asked for tags for about a year and a half, and it's something that I really want. I have a feeling that it's not going to happen. It's just a feeling. I'm not sure.

I'll keep the account open so I can read and continue to comment. I'm just not going to use Aeonity as my blog hosting site.

Maybe if tags come in or something else I could use, I'll start up again. I really liked the community, and it's probably the reason why I've stayed as long as I did. Leaving has been on my mind for a while, and now I think it's time. Aeontiy has no room for the rude.

~toodles
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Mood: useless