I really don't know what to think. I feel ... "betrayed" ... if that is the right word.

For a while, I thought that I really had a shot with Dennis. I thought that Jackie was really turning into my friend and she was encouraging me. She has been friends with him for a while and she kept telling me not to give up. I could talk to her about my problems and she could talk to me about mine.

I guess you could say that this is Karma.

Last night, Jackie IMed me, asking me if she could call me. It was around 10 or 11, I couldn't remember which. She was telling me how this girl called her, yelling at her, calling her names.

Jackie said that he name was Sam, and that she said she was Dennis' girlfriend. Dennis said that Jackie slept with him and that she's with someone new every week--or something like that.

Jackie was telling me that she kissed him two weeks ago, and that he had no problem with it. The only thing he had to say about it was that he didn't want to get into a relationship, yet.

The whole time, I'm just trying not to say anything or hang up the phone. I was mad--I still am. Is this payback for all the things that happened when she was with Chris? Why couldn't she just tell me or do something so I didn't find out ...

I don't know what to do... These are my friends. Jackie is the only one I could really talk to about my problems ...

I don't even know what to say to either of them, if I should say anything ....

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You know what -- I'm not going to stress over it. My friend Amanda introduced me to a friend of hers. He doesn't go to my school, he plays hockey, and he's super cute.

I'm just going to move on. There's no point in bringing it back up or dwelling on it. My name wasn't on Dennis, and if he was interested in me, then why would he kiss her? You know? I'm not going to let it bother me ...

Peace Mother Fuckas!

Ah you end on the infamous quote to everyone one of us non-conflict people. To say something or not. I have been in a boat where everyone tells me I should stand up for myself and if the person is your friend they will see it eye-to-eye that they harmed you. Then the ball is in their court. Or you can sit back and let things continue on the way they are, and they will never know they have wronged you. Instead you might feel at blame. I guess what i'm saying is, the choice is yours to make, the balls in your court. To be walked on or to get them off your back. The only true thing I can tell you is don't do either option half-hearted. if your like me and do that, you will back down from your point. Sorry for hijacking your blog.
-=The Radical Dreamer=-