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I thought about cutting myself, again. I almost did it, too. I figured it would be on my thigh, 'cause I don't wear anything above my knee in winter. I don't even know why I wanted to do it -- or why I was really crying.
Maybe it's because Valentines day is coming up, and once again I have no one. Last year, it wasn't that bad because I had other drama in my life, but now I'm really standing here with no one around me. And it's not like I wasn't trying or pushing people away. It's just that people have become too "busy" to deal with me.
Also, someone doesn't know how to take a fucking hint. Harry is just being a pain in the ass. A couple of days ago, he asked if he could be my Valentine, and I told him to find someone else. Then, yesterday, he was waiting for me after school. Apparently, he just called me to tell me that he moved on and to give me a ride home. I doubt that, 'cause when I got home, there was a lovely email from him saying how he will never get over me.
It kinda scares me a little. I know he's been drinking a lot, and I'm afraid that one of these days he's going to be out of control and hurt someone--including himself. It seems that every time I block him, he finds another way to contact me. I really do want him out of my life. I wish our relationship never happened because I did a lot of stupid things, then.
Oh wells, I have stuff to do... BYE!
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