You know the song by Three Days Grace, "The Animal I Have Become"? Well, I think that song is the story of my life. I listen to it, and it gives me hope, thinking that someone else feels the same way I do.

I need to grow a spine. I need to walk up to "him" and tell him how I feel before I let him get away. I've already let one go, and I don't think I can for another one.

And no, I'm not talking about Harry. I don't want him in my life, and I'm tired of him trying to be my friend and then we fight, then, at a later date, he is trying to be my friend again. He is just too much drama. Also, he doesn't want to be my friend.

The person who I'm talking about is flawed, but not in the same way Chris and Harry was. He's different, and he makes me smile. I love spending time with him and talking to him. lolz. He can pick me up, too .. lmao... and I'm heavy.

iono. Sometimes I feel like such a girl when I'm trying to demand his attention. I look back at what I do with him and I'm like, what the hell is wrong with me? Something in me tells me that these feelings aren't one-sided, but he is pretty friendly with a lot of girls, you know? I know that the way he treats me isn't something special because he treats most of his female friends the same.

I don't know. Maybe I will grow a spine and ask him to hang out or something. I would love to spend some time with him outside of school, to see how things would be.

Oh wells, I'm done being a fan girl

He sounds cool. Good luck with the spinal growth, hope everything turns out for the best.