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So the weekend was fucking divine, Awesomeawesomeaweeesome seeing Sarah, watched Movieees, Requim for a dream, FOREST GUMP, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind. All wonderful wonderful movies. The concert was pretty good. In some parts I thought lame, But Metric was awsome. Met up with Nastaha, Kara, and Chris, gawsh Chris is such a fucking sweetheart!!! I didn't want to leave! AWAwww... eee and I almost got onto the stage to meet Emily Hanes, The singer of metric. But the secruty gaurd screamed at me to get down tehehehe. Anyways... Back to fucking shit Nanaimo, was what I first thought when I arrived at the Terminal in Naniamo, Bac to all these stupid kids that I go to school with, Imature fuckholes who can't carry on a decent conversation. Hah. But, then I was glad to be back...In a way or two.....  I gotta start thinking more postive   bllllah anyways ttyl |
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I feel mentally and phsyically drained. Another fight with my mom, How it always is, Her not stop yelling, calling me a bitchbitchbitch, saying how I don't appreciate anything, That she's never doing anything for me everyagain "Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you" She says. Then says Stay at your dads. Why does she hurt me like this...Noone releizes how I feel inside. I feel like the girl, always in the backgruond, the one who smiles and smiles, But you will never notice, I try and tell me mother How I feel and she just responds with "Thats Bullshit", Well You know what mom, I've had enough of this. You've completly given up on me...So I'm giving up on you. I feel so ugly inside...Everyday trying not to fucking break up into peices. I try and try and try to tell you how I feel and work things out, But its always about YOU. And how much YOUR going through. Never mind your fucking utterly depressed daughter, who struggles with this, day by day. And it fucking hurts. So, so much Now I'm listening to Coldplay... "Honey you are a rock, on which I stand, And I've come here to talk, I hope you understand, The green eyes, Your the spotlight, Signs upon you." |
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Werd..... Today was actually pretty fucking good. School was fun, Handed stuff in...Art class was sooo good, I actually did work, Ashley gave me a good idea for my drawing, its an Alice nad Wonderland thing  Sketched with black ink You'll see....The after art, school was over. Walked to Woodgroove...Took the bus. I was pissed off because the bus took like an hour and a half just to get Downtown. I was upset. But its all good... After Rehersal...Caitlyn showed up, I totally didn't remember that she was gunna meet me there! It was so awesome. She's so wonderful and brilliant. But we couldn't hang out, because Dad was just about to pick me up. Fuck...Kayyy I think I really like her. And I think she might like me? I don't really know why I'm saying fuck. |
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1. How tall are you barefoot? 5'4" 2. Have you ever smoked heroin? nope 3. Do you own a gun? only a cap gun 4. How much do you rule? I don't 5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? what 6. What do you think of hot dogs? There kidna gross 7. What's your favorite Christmas song? I truly dislike Christmas 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? water, or coffee 9. Do you do push-ups? haha NO 10. Have you ever done ecstacy? ALMOST 11. Are you vegan? Hell no 12. Do you like painkillers? Sometimes 13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? My eyes 14. Do you own a knife? Kind of 15. Do you have A.D.D. No, I got tested of ADD though 16. When is your birthday? August.7 17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment: art. sand. caitlyn. 18. Name the last 3 things you have bought. tim hortons pirate chips soup 19. Name five drinks you regularly drink: juice water coffee pop alchohal 20. What time did you wake up today? 10ish 21. Current hair? ? 22. Current worry? I hope she likes me 23. Current hates? Lots. When people stare. Fake Friends, wanted to be friends again (cough) Liers 24. Favorite places to be? DOWNTOWN DOWNTOWN DOWNTOWN The Beach The Stage The Park 25. Least favorite place to be? ugh In the North fucking end, where I live. Ew. Suburbian 26. Where would you like to go? Away From here<3 27. Do you own slippers? most likely 28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs? On the stage...Living in a snazzy apparnemt. Having Money... 29. Do you burn or tan? nooo. I tan easily though 30. Last thing you ate? Sushi! 31. Would you be a pirate? I AM A PIRATE 32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink? Last Night ofcourse! 33. What songs do you sing in the shower? 34. What did you fear was going to get you at night? 35. What's in your pockets right now? Kleenex, and coins 36. Last thing that made you laugh? Seeing Hippies, picking cherry blossems... 37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? hmm Not sure 38. Worst injury you've ever had? stomach flu 40. How many TVs do you have in your house? At Dads-2 At Moms-5 41. Who is your loudest friend? hahaha theres lots 42. Who is your most silent friend? hmm I'll have to think about that... 43. Does someone have a crush on you? Possibally? 44. Do you wish on stars? Yesss! 45. What is (are) your favorite book(s)? The Virgin Suicides, anything Edgar Allen Poe, White Oleaner 46. What is your favorite candy? Fuzzy Peaches, LollyPops, Watermelons 47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Not Sure 48. What song do you want played at your funeral? hmmm Theres Lots... 49. What were you doing 12AM last night? Falling Asleep 50. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings? Couldn't tell ya! |