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homeis where the heart is (cheesy but true)lmao home at last. I just got back home about 20 mins ago sooo sooo good to be home ! i totally missed it here so freeking glad ot be back home!!! i cant even tell you. london ontario was ok stressful but it was good to see family, one thing that really pisses me off is all this "BACK TO SCHOOL" commercials and ads its liek FUCK it isnt even halfway through august yet. i think its an insult to everyone everywhere especially kids.ugh. anyway....it was my birthday yesterday *hooray* it was alright got lots of money 250$ a greenday c-d,a dvd,and candy and other junk plsu saw dukes of hazzard...it was alright kinda dumb ofcourse but funny lol |
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lacking something? I've been thinking. about alot of things...mainly about last yearand everythign that has happend wow. this summer in seussical i was really very depressed girl, i felt lonely helpless and pissed off and cried alot. it was not good. ive realized a lot. ya know when u find a friend and u think that friend is a awesome friend and you cherish that friend and u really love that friend with all your heart and really beleave that you'll be good friends for awhile...well atleast it seemed that way...or seem to get connected to people to fast well no not really, its kind of the opposite really i dunno what. but i wish we allwere friends again, the way it was how we would hang out and talk on msn for hours and stuff. whta happend. i miss that. then i do something wrong? i really wish it could go back to before. but it can't all good thing do come to an end i cant help this feeling an emptiness in my heart. |
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would you laugh if i told you that everything is meaningless and a dream to wake up to if we could change this moment, every heartbeat every second... would u have someone to hold onto? |
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i'm learnig to move on...it was just a waste of time spent i guess. I'll see you, you'll see me ill just walk across the other way its ok we'll pretend we dont know eachother, our lives, the things we talked about, the secrets we shared. it didnt matter, to you.... you could've cared a less. Your fools. But the funny thing is even though you hate me, ill never forget any of you. yes. i'm used to people leaving me. my theory has come to that at times I get to connected to people, it hurts. Im trying to leave the past behind and live in the future...this feels weird, just everything everythnig that has happend. knowing 2 people you thought u could talk to and trust arent there and to me they were the ones i thought would be there...like when i needed them the most...they werent there. i know nothing lasts forever but hey, maybe thats a good thing....(?) farewell~ |
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another second spent thinking of this i can't beleave it came to this automatic twist a smile fades through my face the reflection in the mirror drifts off to space my mind flashes at the things you said before i used to think i was dead nowi know that it was just a lie |