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Hello Febuary, and all of its coldness, sun deprieved, rainy, weather, exhausted days. I have not posted in a long time. Life is satisfactory, alright, good? Not much new in my head of mine. Had the worst hangover of my life last, which led me to laying in bed for the weekend barely touching food. Its okay now, because I feel better and my appetite is back. The downside, not being able to go to Karleys house for awhile. I really need to apolize to her mother soon. Haven't been really proud of the paintings and art I have been doing, I have only done a couple 2 or 3, but for some reason I feel like just stomping them on the ground and spitting on top of each canvas. I recently got my bridge pierced, in December. I love it. Dreadlocks are doing good. They do need work in the back though. Its raining outside, and all I can really think of right now is way my ciggerates have this disguisting aftertaste now. Ciggerates taste gross in general. And now my toe is bleeding. |
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I have really began to bond with my mother in a whole different way now. I like our relationship. She is feeling emotional lately, lots of emotions and ups and downs. Oh Mom, everything will be okay. I feel so fucking attached to my mother. I don't really like staying over at my Dads place. She is going to Ontario in a couple of weeks to be with Nona, who is going to be doing her chemo. I want to be there so badely. To help care for my Nona, to see my family, to spend TIME with them. Last summer I didn't do that, I was too busy have my nervous breakdown and catching buses to random places, fuck me. Not sure if I will be able to go with my mom to Ontario, she is thinking about it. I wouldn't doubt it if she says I can't go. God, I want to go so badely. Who knows how badly Nona's health is right now, and I would like to do everything I can to help her. Also, I would feel so home sick to be away from my mom for that long. Its weird. Dreading my mother in the past and now feeling such closeness and missing my mommy. Haha. |