but alas i found em all in the theatre we went to see hte perfect man (with hilary duff) ew. So ofcourse it sucked ahah but it was jsut so much fun seing everybofy i swear i haven't laughed or smiled like that in the longest time ever...
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ahah so last night me,alex,katey and lydia went 2 the movies. Ofcourse I'm a total spaze and i got there 10 mins early and thought i was at the wrong theatre...or they were just going to show up fashinobly late but alas i found em all in the theatre we went to see hte perfect man (with hilary duff) ew. So ofcourse it sucked ahah but it was jsut so much fun seing everybofy i swear i haven't laughed or smiled like that in the longest time ever...
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today was the first day of arts alive...yeah. it went alright we spent about almost 2 hours working on the song its coming along. my lil brother is on crew :p i think he thought it was boring but hey it was only the first day there be plenty more work to do I tend to hide my emoutions quite well. i cant figure out if that is a bad think or yet a good thing. anywho...saw somepeople had some laughs that was about it...i cant stop crying,i cant stop this. i feel i have no control ...noone to holdonto,no sholder to cryon,noone to talk to,none who understands,or who even cares to. nothing seems to cheer me up anymore...can things get better? its the first day maybe tomorrow will be a good day. |
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why do u wanthim? -greenday I saw you standing alone With a sad look on your face You call him on the phone Looks like he left you Without a trace Tears falling out of your eyes He's living in a disguise You've been feeling bad for so long You wonder if it's right or wrong Why Do You Want Him? Why Do You Want Him? Now many days have gone by And you still just sit there and cry You're feeling bad for yourself His memory will always dwell You're so obsessed with his love That's why push came to shove You've been feeling bad for so long You wonder if it's right or wrong Why Do You Want Him? Why Do You Want Him? Why Do You Want Him? Why Do You Want Him? You find a way out... To throw it all the way But you can bet... You got someting to say Why Do You Want Him? Why Do You Want Him? Why Do You Want Him? Why Do You Want Him? |
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i know i should just forget about it. but i can't. its impossible. i con't even find a purpose for getting up in the morning. its getting to the point where i despice myself and shiut myself away from the world. I thought starting arts alive would make things a bet better but the truth is its making me feel worse then ever before. nothings working. nothing gets better. i cant think straight, i cant act or function when im feeling like this. which is surprising that im even writing in this thing .him.whenever i see him a peice of my crumbles.im a fool.a bloody fool.i regret everything i said to him. and that fucking email.thers nothing i can do.what was said was said and what was done was done. is that just it? .... i need someone. I wish I could tell you But the words would come out wrong Oh if you only knew The way I felt for so long I know that we're worlds apart But I just don't seem to care These feelings in my heart Only with you I want to share The first time I caught a glimpse of you Then my thoughts were only of you I hope that when time goes by You will think the same about me Many nights awake I lie I only wish that you could see I know that we're only friends I hope this feeling never ends If I could only hold you It's the only thing I want to do. The first time I caught a glimpse of you Then my thoughts were only of you --this is suchhhh an awsome song i love it. its by greenday i wish i could say i wrote it :p 
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I must have been asleep for days. it drowned her deep inside of him. promise that i'll run away with you. why r u so far away but feel so near it kills her inside. |