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I totally despice how i compare myself to other pp-l? why do i always do that and make myself feel like crap why!?!?! -------------------------------------------- me and alex had a long conversation yesterday. I felt good to let some shit out.whew. I slept fo ra good 11 hours last night and woke up refresheed and and anna are going to combs today it will be fun.i hope. Boy oh boy. just thinking about july makes me vomit. in a way im looking forword toseeing every1 again...but I feaar that i will be lonesome and have noone tohang out with. whenever im with the both of them...its like i don't even exsist i feel totally ignored. now thinking about it...ive never really "bonded" with anyone. Maybe this summer will be the eyar. im still not looking forword to seeing some ppl. but ill just have tosuckitup. It was raining yesterday. It was gorgeaus. I love the rain farewell kind blog. |
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I cried yesterday. It was a good cry. I shared some things and it was good to let it out...real good. Im in class and board I really want to write but cant think of anything...its pissing me off Guess what? I know where i want to be buried!!!!!!!!ehhhh In New York Central Park right where the john lennon memorall thing is...i suppose it would be rather hard to baryy me there....so mom and dad please do me a favor and spread my ashes there!!! I must get some work done B4 i flunk {{love}} |
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Im sick of pretending that everything is alright that i'm fine and have a wonderful littleee life. fuck it..When I smile, its not real its simply to prentend that everything is 'ok'. im not saying everyone around me needs toknow that my lif is shit, all im saying is im sick of actikng like everything is ok. itisn't. |
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what is love? a joke a fantasy a dream a place? what is love...i forget. |
| yesterday wassss soo beautiful. The morning was windy and rainy but around noon itwas raining butit was sunny and around 3 it was sunny with a beautiful light breeze and just drops of rain ! |