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I think about when I was a little girl How I had that peace of mind And playfulness and child innocense up til about the age of 7. 10 years later... |
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Sooo. I feel as though. My depression has been kicking me in the ass for the past 3 weeks now, the usual feelings of hopelessness, self-pity, sadness, darkness, pain, cutting and suicidal thoughts. I feel like I have tried so much and I have been through alot of pain. I don't want to die, I know that. Although at times I really do feel like ending my life and don't. I've been through this much at more at almost 18 years old. I can get through this. I'm proud of myself for not yet giving up. Even waking up in the morning and going to school is an effort in itself. However, If I don't strt helping myself get better now, things are going to be going downhill. I'm really grateful I reconize that. For example, stop smoking a pack a day, get more active and walk. Walking really does help with the depression. Gets the endorphines out. I have to take care of myself. In the end, all you have is yourslf. I must not give up, and I have to try harder. One day at a time. To get myself through this and so much more. |
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Wandering where my baby be Mama smoked crack and my Daddy raped me Slept outside on the living room porch Ciggerate ashes from the night before Wandering where my baby be Broke a body and broke a door (Bloody doors) 1st Capo Em C Do not steal. |
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Series of 100 This is for an art project, find an image, create an image, capture, photograph it. 1. Introduction 2. Love 3. Light - [link] 4. Dark - [link] 5. Seeking Solace 6. Break Away 7. Heaven 8. Innocence 9. Drive 10. Breathe Again 11. Memory - [link] 12. Insanity 13. Misfortune 14. Smile - [link] 15. Silence - [link] 16. Questioning 17. Blood 18. Rainbow 19. Gray - [link] 20. Fortitude 21. Vacation 22. Mother Nature 23. Cat 24. No Time 25. Trouble Lurking 26. Tears 27. Foreign 28. Sorrow 29. Happiness 30. Under the Rain 31. Flowers 32. Night - [link] 33. Expectations 34. Stars 35. Hold My Hand 36. Precious Treasure 37. Eyes - [link] 38. Abandoned 39. Dreams 40. Rated 41. Teamwork 42. Standing Still 43. Dying 44. Two Roads 45. Illusion 46. Family 47. Creation 48. Childhood 49. Stripes 50. Breaking the Rules 51. Sport 52. Deep in Thought 53. Keeping a Secret 54. Tower 55. Waiting 56. Danger Ahead - [link] 57. Sacrifice 58. Kick in the Head 59. No Way Out 60. Rejection 61. Fairy Tale 62. Magic - [link] 63. Do Not Disturb 64. Multitasking 65. Horror 66. Traps 67. Playing the Melody 68. Hero 69. Annoyance 70. 67% 71. Obsession 72. Mischief Managed 73. I Can't 74. Are You Challenging Me? 75. Mirror 76. Broken Pieces 77. Test 78. Drink 79. Starvation 80. Words 81. Pen and Paper 82. Can You Hear Me? 83. Heal 84. Out Cold 85. Spiral 86. Seeing Red - [link] 87. Food 88. Pain 89. Through the Fire 90. Triangle 91. Drowning 92. All That I Have 93. Give Up 94. Last Hope 95. Advertisement 96. In the Storm 97. Safety First 98. Puzzle 99. Solitude 100. Relaxation |
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Ah yes. The age of Seventeen, Becoming Eighteen. Into a women. I feel like such a child sometimes. Then again, I'm really connected to my inner child. Sun is finally here, more and more each day. Not sure what to make of it lately. The heat, My birthday is in 3 months. Life in itself. The intensity is killing me overwhelming back breaking me These pills are doing too little, too much For my unstaining mind. And this time seems to be going by so goddamn fast, The time that is slow, Highs and lows. Although I find myself in verdigo. Standing still, but spinning; ill. The good ones never last for long, Wailing in the spring rain. Folks that never stay, never stay long, never fucking stay sane. Fuck the lust, Fuck the love, Fuck the drugs and the powder, as my best friend is stiffing up her nose. This blows. From the second she brings him to her mouth. The blow it which she demands her indulges. |