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the_corbin
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taking stock of my current possessions for the relocation, only one major piece of furniture appears to be missing. not for long, however. a sofa is most often the very first important domestic purchase of any young adult. ive managed to avoid this purchase for two years, albeit begrudgingly over the past twelve months. unloading my lucky gift card at pier one today made me feel kind of woozy. im not quite sure why i stumbled into the eaton centre after my first big purchase, but when i got in i could see all five floors from the spot i stood in, adjusting the strap on my bag. waves of people were swarming up and down escalators and i felt almost nauseous. my business in the area had been dealt with, and still i floated in and out of stores, my head tight as rattan and my feet light as down. finally!! |
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the_corbin
three Jul 7th, 2007 9:36:19 pm - Subscribe
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its hard to complain about anything when this is what ive wanted for so long. still, im finding this really difficult. for some reason i feel like ive been living in this house for at least several years, even though its only been since last august, and in toronto, even though its been less than two years. this is what i want, this is what ive wanted. |
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the_corbin
four Jul 15th, 2007 3:42:07 am - Subscribe
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i spent weeks harping on how difficult this self-imposed transition will be, and how no one could possibly understand how conflicted i have been feeling about the move away. but good friends turned out to be the best friends ive ever had last night, when i was surprised with my first ever surprise party celebrating my moving away, with a packed house of nearly all of my favorite toronto people, most beloved musicians, a slide show that blew my mind, friends from afar, and a song about me performed/written by two of my besties. it was so moving - if i wasnt so surprised id have been bawling, as i know i will be the moment i actually realise im leaving the place where i came to be embraced (and embrace myself) as squirrelly. i dont think i could describe the night as anything less than absolutely perfect. i dont think ive ever felt so special in my conceivable memory, and it felt good to be shown that the people that i love here see this move as a positive thing, and that they will miss me as much as i know i will miss them. my apartment is becoming increasingly sparse and the piles of boxes growing higher. today i watched a few episodes of scrubs and was reminded of the high debt all students invariably accrue throughout their studies. i didnt feel so bad anymore but still went online and obsessed about my student loan application. |