Dec 11th, 2005 9:01:48 pm - Subscribe
|ether someone has my password or there is another The_Empty on this site. How fucking annoying. I've decided to leave this land of online blogging and go back to keeping shit to myself. The real friends I had on LJ have decided not to comment on my blogs or tell me when they're off restriction. Fuck it. One day you think you have real friends, and the next day you realize the only reason it feels like that is because you put in all the effort to go see them. I'm done. Goodbye to all of you loyal commenters, for once I felt loved.|
Dec 10th, 2005 1:34:16 am - Subscribe
|I've figured my life out. For once I know what the hell I'm doing with myself. After I graduate, I'm going to a local collage, then I'm going to become an English teacher. I think it will be fun. Challenging nevertheless, but fun.
I finished "This Lulliby" by Sarah Dessen. She's amazing. I think I might go to whatever college she teaches creative writting at just to be in her class.
School and work both seem to be going alright. We'll see about tomorrow.
Ex-lover is remaining ex-lover because he's far too imature and an asshole for me to want to deal with.
I'm a bookworm, I'm alone, and I'm content.
|mood: at peace
music: Tilly and the Wall
Nov 22nd, 2005 10:01:58 pm - Subscribe
|yes yes I know awesome song. I haven't been on here for a while due to my computer freak-out. It's getting worked on so, for the time being I'm computerless.
I've been talking to Daniel, the ex- we all grew to love and hate depending on the week. things are going good, he's clean and getting his license and a job, which is the only way i will talk to him. Sounds harsh doesn't it?
School's good, are there any trig tutors around the IE area?
Got in a car accedent, $3,000 worth of damage. gah, my poor little car.
music: Tilly and the Wall
|So sick so sick of being tired.||
Nov 14th, 2005 4:24:54 pm - Subscribe
|For the past three day I've worked 6 hour shifts. I know your thinking "get over it" but no, it sucks because I'm the only one that works besides my lowerbay technician, and I'm worn out. I don't know what I'd do if I were full time.
There has been this homeless guy hanging around my work which I don't mind except for his stare, I mind his stare.
I saw him on Friday night. It was a difficult time for me. I fought so hard for my heart to forget the hurt, but I couldn't. I wanted so badly just to put all of the bad times behind us and be happy like we once were, but it was once a lie and how do I know it won't be this time. I saw the exorcist beginnings listed on the upcoming movies and all I could think about is how I would never be able to watch that movie with anyone else but him and feel protected. This time I hope it's not a game. I hope he's not on meth, I hope he's telling the truth. At the same time, I hope I'm not stupid enough to fall in love with an idea again.
music: Taking Back Sunday