i REALLY love you
Date: Sep 13th, 2004 2:40:37 am - Subscribe
Mood: smelly
okay.. so ben likes allison apparantly. ahahahah. i
think that it's funny. but she doesn't. the bad thing
is that it's going to be awkward. like when we go out
on saturday nights. like this saturday which is my
birthday and i don't want my birthday to be awkward
that would suck. you wanna know what really sucks
right now my foot is asleep. and it hurts. o well. um..
last night we went to Rock the Universe and saw David
Crowder band which was freakin awesome. i love them.
um..alex promised me he would grind ashley. ahhahaha
it's funny. i dunno what else to say. i don't like josh
peed. he's a perv. he's a kind of a prude and he
tries to hard to be grown up and act cool. you don't
have to act like that. it is so stupid. why do kids try
to act grown up why try to push it. i know i'm not.
i don't wanna. i wanna be a happy teenager. why
can't everyone else be like that. be happy with
where they are and what God has given them?
well i think that's all i have to say. i love ya'll. and ben
is a liur. lol. and i wish i was a slinky. lol and alli
you are my number one and i love gettin high with you.
lol. life is great.
xjenx
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ALLI LEAVE ME ALONE!
Date: Sep 5th, 2004 12:26:27 am - Subscribe
Mood: helpless
well..my life is going. the hurricane is going to kill
us and what does my mom do nothing. she's so crazy
like one minute she's all oh my god we are going to
die and then she's like no that's goofy to tape up or
board up. so. she's nuts. whatever. well no it kind of
frustrates me. cus she just drives me nuts. i dunno
how to deal with her. she just..ahh. oh well. i met a
cool guy. and alli found my emo blog. how i dunno.
but whatever. i'm worried about joe and mrs.denise
they scare me with thier houses. but im sure they will
be okay. i hope anyways. this afternoon was pretty fun
we hung out and watched taking lives. and got ashley
in trouble. lol R rated is baad. o well. last night was fun too.
I love ben. he's the best friend i could have but i'm
worried about him. with his parents and all. it makes me
worried. i dunno what to do about it. or what to say
to him to make it better. or if i should say anything
i'm just gonna be there for him. i think that's all i
can do. well i think that's all for now. i love you alli!
now that you've found my emo blog. jerk. lol
xjenx
I'M SISTER I'VE GOT YOUR BAACK!
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another day...
Date: Sep 3rd, 2004 5:10:48 pm - Subscribe
Mood: zapped
well..i haven't updated in a while but that was because i just had
too much going on. so it's okay. i killed my xanga.becuase nobody
was commenting anymore so that was murderd. and now i have this
one and my gj. so it's cool. i gotta go i'll updated more later. Michael
dissappointed me. narrow minded.
xjenx
STAY COOL, STAY EDGE,PUT GOD FIRST!
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Rain on my parade
Date: Aug 26th, 2004 8:38:26 pm - Subscribe
Mood: drained
i'm so tired of this week. it's been so long and just sad
i don't like it. i'm tired of crying over it.
grandpa in the hospital. i hate my uncle. i hate my dad
something he couldn't help. i hate it all. and it makes me
so sad for feeling like this. i wanna be happy.
i'm tired of this rain on my parade. and then what do i do?
i fake it. i fake my smile and my happiness and my all
around mood. i turn on my oo i'm in public jen side and
nobody sees the other part. nobody. i cry and cry and type
in my journals and cry some more. and i've been so bored.
sitting at home while everyone else is at the hospitital with
grandpa and i'm not and i feel like a jerk. a total jerk.
it's not cool. i just sit here doing nothing at all. and ben..
man i was hopin he would come over but he won't. he d
doesn't love me anymore. i feel it. he won't talk to me
or come over or hug me or anything. and now i'm freakin
crying about that. i want our friendship back i want that warm
caring relationship we used to have back. but i don't think he
does. whatever i can't really do anything abuot it i suppose. and
that's fine. it's not but it is i guess.
i need a hug and somebody that'll let me cry on their shoulder
just for tonight. that's all i need. and i'll be better. but i won't get
it. o well.
xjenx
i wear my pride across my chest!!!
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NEWNESS
Date: Jul 16th, 2004 12:10:12 am - Subscribe
Mood: amused
Well a new journal. exciting! i don't think many if any people are
going to find out about this one. and that's ok. i'm excited about that
and all. okay i'll update more later.
xjenx
STRAIGHT FUCKING EDGE!
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