Rain on my parade
Date: Aug 26th, 2004 8:38:26 pm - Subscribe
Mood: drained
i'm so tired of this week. it's been so long and just sad
i don't like it. i'm tired of crying over it.
grandpa in the hospital. i hate my uncle. i hate my dad
something he couldn't help. i hate it all. and it makes me
so sad for feeling like this. i wanna be happy.
i'm tired of this rain on my parade. and then what do i do?
i fake it. i fake my smile and my happiness and my all
around mood. i turn on my oo i'm in public jen side and
nobody sees the other part. nobody. i cry and cry and type
in my journals and cry some more. and i've been so bored.
sitting at home while everyone else is at the hospitital with
grandpa and i'm not and i feel like a jerk. a total jerk.
it's not cool. i just sit here doing nothing at all. and ben..
man i was hopin he would come over but he won't. he d
doesn't love me anymore. i feel it. he won't talk to me
or come over or hug me or anything. and now i'm freakin
crying about that. i want our friendship back i want that warm
caring relationship we used to have back. but i don't think he
does. whatever i can't really do anything abuot it i suppose. and
that's fine. it's not but it is i guess.
i need a hug and somebody that'll let me cry on their shoulder
just for tonight. that's all i need. and i'll be better. but i won't get
it. o well.
xjenx
i wear my pride across my chest!!!
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mux - August 27th, 2004 |
