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i keep thinking
Date: Aug 18th, 2006 3:15:32 pm - Subscribe
Mood: crafty


we sat on my bed that fateful night that changed my views on relationships, changed my life.

he sat up and said something he figured profoud, gave me a smug smile, then a little smug nod to emphasize the brilliance he thought he'd spoken. but i wasn't listening.

i sat in awe. he looked like an angel.......wait, archangel?.......sitting there. as soon as he sat up in my dark room he was in the perfect lighting. he looked perfect. the curtains could not completely block the streetlamp's glow and it streamed in with ribbons of light. they swept across his face, brushing his jawbone and making it look strong and mythological. he looked like a modern, young zeus. he was closer to narcissus, but the light joined with him in a way that took the arrogance out of his eyes, made them soft and angelic. his face lit up like that he looked strong and caring, devilish and charming. i was in awe of his beauty. he was truly beautiful, as if he embodied the bisexual, mythological lovers of greek mythology. he was too beautiful to be sitting where he was, i knew that then. in my state of awe and drunkenness i wondered if he'd realised that too and that's what had made him so mad. as if he felt too much in shadow, couldn't see how the streetlamp had turned him in to a perfect photograph to live forever in my mind's eye. he sat in his momentary perfect gorgeousness and waited for an answer. i was wishing for a paintbrush and a piece of paper to magickally appear in my hands. he thought i couldn't think of a comeback.

he moved. said "huh". a little grunt meaning, "see, i'm right and you have nothing to say to it cuz you know i am". but he had no idea, did not know my mind at all. and when he said that "huh", he shifted to the right and the effect was ruined. he was just a boy again that was bent on hurting me. he had a softer chin, normal cheekbones, arrogance in his eyes. I knew that i had lost nothing.


Comments: (1)

emogirlie - August 18th, 2006 that was a really nicely written post. I enjoyed it. too bad about him... sadly, most people tend to think they're always right even though they have no idea what goes on in other people's minds.

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