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p.s. the conclusion to
Date: Aug 26th, 2006 6:03:20 am - Subscribe
Mood: bewildered


before my last entry i wrote of a man who did me wrong. i wrote of his wrath and his anger, his meanness. that boy apologised. i said i accept it at face value, against my own better judgment, because he regretted it with his whole being. but i said, i have seen the evil in you now and it's a moment we can't take back. since we can't turn back time i cannot, never, forget it, or forgive what he said, the way it was said. but i said i will accept the apology. we may go to concerts, hang out, go to mass outings together but it will be changed. he is still not welcome in my house. he is not welcome near my skin. he is still on friend probation until the hurt he caused heals over. i was turned off by his anger, his cowardice was appalling, that fateful night. at the same turn i was impressed by his courage and sincerity in his apology. in his willingness to admit he was wrong, not try to turn it around on me(well, a little but not too much). and when the apology turned in to a heated discussion about that night he listened and did not leave the cafe. he sat tight, took it, apologised a billion times. said when he was walking home he thought a lot through the hour it took. and he didn't get mad. but remorseful. regretful. i believe him. but like i said, i have seen his evil side, the side created only to hurt, and i can't ever lock that away so i accept him back as a friend, with caution and at arms length. the end?
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