tigerflys Aeonity Blog

Song lyrics

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 00:20:24 -0400

These lyrics mean a lot to me at this second. Enjoy. Most will know them. Good ole Garden State soundtrack. Remy Zero songtitle: Fair Hey, are you lonely? Has summer gone so slowly? We found the ground, but that damage was done. It's cold as you fade into the sun. Where'd you go? To me? But you're alive! Well, it's only fall... Read More

poisoned

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 01:43:48 -0400

It's weird how uncomfortable I feel at home right now. My roomie is so medicated most of the time, either on prescriptions or coke, and he doesn't see it as an addiction and it creeps me out. And he's so inconsiderate but sees himself as this tough on the outside (with his tattoos and shaved head) but cookie sweet on the inside type, but he's not. ... Read More

p.s. the conclusion to

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 06:03:20 -0400

before my last entry i wrote of a man who did me wrong. i wrote of his wrath and his anger, his meanness. that boy apologised. i said i accept it at face value, against my own better judgment, because he regretted it with his whole being. but i said, i have seen the evil in you now and it's a moment we can't take back. since we can't turn back time... Read More

a viewpoint that begs others to share

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 05:53:55 -0400

i have recently decided that i probably won't marry. i may find the love of my life and i may want to, but i will probably keep them at lover status, keep seperate bedrooms if not seperate houses. i have also decided that i don't want to have kids too old. i have 4 yrs before i turn 30. i have decided that in my 29th or 30th year, when my credit is... Read More

i keep thinking

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 15:15:32 -0400

we sat on my bed that fateful night that changed my views on relationships, changed my life. he sat up and said something he figured profoud, gave me a smug smile, then a little smug nod to emphasize the brilliance he thought he'd spoken. but i wasn't listening. i sat in awe. he looked like an angel.......wait, archangel?.......sitting ther... Read More

sexual revolutions?

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 02:50:46 -0400

so i figured out that i can not be a free-love sexually spirited 1970's being. I can also not be part of the shared lovers beatnik generation of the 50's and 60's. I can not do threesomes or do casual one nighters. I can not do friends with benefits and f%&$buddies leave me feeling senseless, empty and used. I have just now figured out that I g... Read More

life

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 00:37:36 -0400

so i got promoted at work. i am starting to feel more in control of my life now. but everything spins so fast and i feel like i am running with time, one step behind. and you only live once and all that jazz. i need to stop talking and start walking the walk. i am getting up the courage. i am living on $5 a week, if that. i am living off the ki... Read More

love-warning, graphic images involved.

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 15:08:06 -0400

every one of them have left me. names have been changed to protect identities. Sam: this last attempt. well, he left without leaving. vacant emotionally. no rooms left. i looked in his eyes and he was gone. lust was left. she always sticks around. but love and caring and kindness had taken a vacation in a dark reach of his mind that i couldn't f... Read More

looking for trouble

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 20:39:04 -0400

i'm looking for trouble tonight. but i'm keeping myself in check. i put on my "chastity belt" pants. they have two buttons on top, plus a clip and a snap, then 3 buttons down the front. no one is getting past these. i can't hardly get past these. i need at least 5 extra mins to get them open so i can pee. seriously. plus, it doesn't help that i've ... Read More

what comes will be better than what i've been through before....

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 04:50:58 -0400

i just finished the movie, "Rules of Attraction", a first(??) movie for Shannyn Sossaman. It is a Brett Easton Ellis mindfuck and has put me in a funk. And an email from my mom hasn't helped. This new life in her new town with dad is making her miss her young social life i think. I think she skipped the dating scene entirely and is regretting i... Read More