timooo pain August 5, 2009 - Subscribe

apparently, there is a little something going on. its not nice being kept in the dark. guessing your way around. trying to search for the little pieces that would fit into the puzzle. but if its dark, how do you know if it fits into the puzzle? who told you it was a puzzle in the first place? telling someone something, that you've never told anyone else, gives that someone the power to hurt you. but, what is life without hurt and pain? its a life more painful than anything. senses numbed, heart hardened; unfeeling.

0 Comments Mood: powerless music: jesse mccartney - leavin'

timooo i wanna tie some balloons and fly away August 8, 2009 - Subscribe

hope for the best, plan for the worst. treasure the good times. and memories. good things are worth waiting for. dammit im so philosophical these days. must be the damned humid weather! totally overheating my brain, resulting in these weird utterances! tag limying ya, and you'll have more time to learn more! hahaha bec walaueh, glum also complain. happy also complain. wat u want sia! hahahaha Dori thanks. u too!

0 Comments Mood: spirited music: celtic woman - one world

timooo CHECK BLIND SPOT August 13, 2009 - Subscribe

i am not gonna die of road rage i am not gonna die of road rage i am not gonna die of road rage i always thought (and hope) that i'll die peacefully in my sleep. but judging by how im driving, i think its more likely im gonna die in a car accident. its time to say goodbye to those need for speed games which are obviously affecting me subtly. just returned from dinner at the airport, and i crazily (and foolishly and recklessly and stupidly) changed 3 lanes in one go, cutting off this car on the left that had to brake to avoid ploughing into me. as in, i dunno how i did it. the first 2 lanes were clear, as in there were no other cars behind. then after moving into the 2nd lane, i zipped between a car right in front of me and another car that was on my left. my feeble reasoning was that i was travelling at a relatively high speed and i didnt want to plough into the car that was in front of me, so i decided to cut in between them instead, since the car on the left was comparatively slower. on hindsight, that's the dumbest logic ive ever heard in my life. i could simply have slowed down and calmly moved behind the car on my left! :@ luckily, the driver of the car on the left was alert and managed to avoid me. I'M SORRY NISSAN SUNNY CAR PLATE SGT XXXX! I NEED TO BE MORE MINDFUL OF OTHER CARS IN FUTURE. BRAKE AND NOT ACCELERATE. ohman i so do not need this stupidness in my life. just one month before i pluck off that triangle, please dont let me fuck this up. oooookay, that aside. dinner at crowne plaza, that airport hotel. buffet dinner, to be exact. the variety was good, and the service was excelente. but the quality of food was just so-so. sashimi not fresh enough, same for the oysters. okay but i must admit that the desserts were fantastic. and that's high praise coming from me :) love is a decision, not an emotion??

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timooo blindfolding yourself August 20, 2009 - Subscribe

"so you've lost?" "it was never a game to me; its not winning or losing." "so you're the loser in the end right?" today has never been shitier (or is it shittier?). now i know why there hasn't been much shit in the past 2 months, not because i've been lucky, but because all the shit was stored up so that it could all be released on me at the same time. "if you're stuck in a shithole, just climb up the pile of shit and slowly make your way out." "what if the pile of shit is so high that you can't even get on top of it?" its like the old chinese adage: 不听老人言，吃亏在眼前. sometimes you are just so blinded by whatever's happening that you ignore all the circumstantial evidence around you which points in the exact same direction. selective blindness and pure foolishness; vanquished. "then its time to cut your losses." "how?" "get your hands dirty, clear the shit such that you can climb on top of it and get out." "get out?" "get out, and get out quick." i never thought of losing and being a loser as the same thing, but when it comes down to it, it really means the same thing. you've lost, thus you're the loser. whether there's actually a winner or not is another thing. suddenly i see. i don't know how im gonna cope with it next year, but that's that. why worry about something that you don't know about?

0 Comments Mood: sketchy music: elliot yamin - can't keep on lovin you

timooo murmurs August 26, 2009 - Subscribe

okay i discovered that shittier is actually spelt as such, and not with one T that i thought it was. hahaha that aside. met up with jan's bunch (becos jan is the ringleader muahaha) ytd for food and fun. again, at her house. still having vivid memories of my last visit there, i decided to play it safe this time and bring an extra shirt. luckily it wasnt needed this time, though bday boy dan ended up with cake in his eye and our sweet coupling shared cake between them (literally). oh gawddddd. i was having a random convo with this person, and we were both wondering how things come to you when you least expect them. and how things come to you when you least want them to. like how when you thought you've decided on a fish, and suddenly many other fishes start swimming up to you. randomrandomrandom. anyway, ord is coming and i've just signed my first extra duty. woooooots. this is the famed ord syndrome everyone goes thru i guess. adios! You can't take away my strength Fix these broken veins There's nothing left to fight (Live free or let me die) You can't take away my pride, I won't be denied There's nothing left to fight (Live free or let me die)

0 Comments Mood: trippy music: skillet - live free or let me die

timooo THEconvoPARTtwo August 29, 2009 - Subscribe

it feels so wrong, yet feels so right. it feels so right, yet feels so wrong. the more i know her, the more i realise that i don't actually know her at all you're not the only one who discovered that then should i still carry on with this? why shouldnt you carry on? because i dont want to get hurt? what makes you think you'll get hurt? now that i know her more, i realise that everything that we had has fallen to pieces well, it all depends if you still want to pick up the pieces. and get cut by the pieces? or looking at it another way, you could patch it up. it'll never be the same again, though so its a risk better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all was there even love in the first place? i think im slowly becoming more and more narcissistic. i wonder if that's a good thing or bad thing. freakin aftereffects of spending too much time with fanatical exercise ppl. more air cycling, more frog situps, more rollers. here i comeeeeeeeeeeee

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