timooo june 15 June 15, 2009 - Subscribe

sometimes i think church is a weird place. as in, not that church is weird per se, but the people in it. in office, we get shitloads of office politics. one of the reasons i look forward to weekends is going to church, which lets me escape from all those nonsense. but then, when you start getting politics in church, then its really unsettling and seriously quite sad. cos everyone's ultimate aim should be worshiping or serving. not arguing and squabbling. i don't know. ive been in this church ever since i my family put down roots here, and i don't really see me going to another church, especially those mega-churches. anyway, office was pretty tolerable for much of the day. i still had this feeling of euphoria in the morning (despite loads of shit happening); this fuzzy feeling you get when you're in love. i honestly hope im not. the last time sometime like this happened, i lost a good friend because i suddenly realised it wasnt actually what i wanted. and the way i handled it just spelt F-U-C-K-E-D U-P. more about how i spent my last week soon. Well I'm not paralyzed but I seem to be struck by you tag ivan me too! but even if we were the same year (which we technically are), we'll be in different (rival?) schools!! rachel kpg? u never used to use short form for anything!! hahaha gotcha. :)) bec here, hope this pacifies you! :D

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timooo power isn't happiness June 19, 2009 - Subscribe

just back from watching ghosts of girlfriends past. jennifer garner's still as pretty as ever! okay, seriously the show was better than i expected. though, as with all romantic comedies, it ends happily ever after. not that i'm complaining. just the movie to end my week, after having 5 really happy days! i dunno.. even if nothing comes of this in the end, at least i would have felt happy for a period of time. honestly, i havent been this happy for quite some time already. so whether or not it will work out, it would have been good anyway:) someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. but power isn't happiness, and i think that maybe happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less some food for thought. tag limying sorry la!! it was a purely instinctive thing, and u were right in front of me then! valerie im not emo! haha. u dun emo too k? lol limying okay, not everyone is weird! lollllllll

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timooo meltzzxzxzx June 21, 2009 - Subscribe

okay 4 updates in a month and counting! usually if i have so many updates, its either: 1) the weather is frigggggging hot and i needa bitch about it 2) there's some new thing going on about buses and public transport and i needa bitch about it 3) im in school. 'nuff said 4) im extremely depressed and last but not least, 5) im happy! for this month its probably a combi of 1 and 5. i have given my facebook account the username timoeskimo in loving memory of my preferred climate zone. i jus meltz once im out in the sun nowadays. this is definitely not the month to go suntanning. i'll probably die of a heatstroke before i even get a proper tan! one of these days when i get real fed up about the heat, i'll jus jump into the swimming pool in camp, with my smart 4 and all. anyway, its been a happy month though the initial euphoria is starting to fade off. we'll see how it goes :)

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timooo hush hush June 28, 2009 - Subscribe

its been freak-out! week over at my camp. everyone's freaking out about the fact that we might have to stay in due to the recent spate of flu cases. i have so many things lined up in these coming weeks, please dont let it happen!! ahhhh why oh why cant i ord earlier. nonetheless, i still had quite a good week. its quite unbelievable what good mood does to you. no matter how shitty it gets, the good mood would just simply overwrite everything and i'll still end up in a good mood (though i may be angry/pissedoff/disgusted/sianed/demoralised for a few seconds at that point in time). lalala:) ive been in a happy-but-unsure-but-happy mood these few days. hopefully in the coming weeks i'll get rid of some of the uncertainty, so that all that's left will be happiness! :) im still quite astonished about the effect that the sermon delivered 2 wks ago has had on me. simply put, its just 'trust and obey.' which is easy to say, but hard to do. nevertheless, it was quite a motivating message and its another thing that's been propping me up these days, knowing that God is in control. im not exactly sanguine about my chances this week, but i trust that God has his plan. song leading this morning was srsly not fun! there were last minute technical glitches, afterwhich i descended into panic mode. okay la, maybe damage control mode is more appropriate. alot of impromptu and slip-ups! but thank God for bringing me thru anyway. from the very limited feedback that ppl gave me, it was okay, maybe just that i was too jittery after the first part. oh well, you live and you learn. (i discovered this indie band, the hush sound. love their music!) tag bec okay! i hope ur happy with your phone bills now:)) limying haha at least u get to suntan! i wanna go tan also cannot!:S yongwen i hardly think that singapore can EVER be described as cold. please find a more appropriate term hahaha! valerie haha so when i go out i wont hafta jostle with all the students who are out cos they're not in sch! :D ivan plspls not guy hor! gosh. im still working on it:) are u trying to say tt ur sweet by using 'caramelise'? :/

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timooo shitwallowing June 29, 2009 - Subscribe

okay, i survived the first day of this new week. no confinement yet, but rumours of it grow every single day. oh, plus i actually made a trip to the medical centre, decked up with masks and all. i realised that i look quite sinister wearing a mask, heh. shall go mask-shopping soon and add it to my treasure trove of disguises. hopefully i didnt catch anything at the medical centre! :X anyway, i'm trying to count my blessings instead of my shit. counting shit is simply way too tiring, and srsly depressing! on the other hand, counting my blessings does cheer me up (to various extents, depending on what i actually counted). life seems much much much easier when you're happy. try it sometime; (its really hard to do, but when shit happens, start thinking of the blessings u can count) - the shit will become so infinitesimally small that it doesnt even seem to matter anymore. of course, you cant stop halfway when you're counting your blessings, else u'll jus lapse into the wallowing in self-pity mode again. If you want to be happy, be. -Leo Tolstoy anyway anyway, watched transformers 2 ytd with the boys. i came late (sorry!) so didnt really have time to catch up with them, esp ppl like hakim and handoko who were making rare appearances. okay, the movie was really draggy and long! plus, the cinema wasnt exactly comfortable, so i kept fidgeting in my way-too-small seat. that is the reason why i absolutely hate GV cinemas and prefer cathay's ones. okay la but i must admit the action was good, and there were quite afew humorous scenes here and there. not to forget, megan fox, without whom the show would jus be a geek flick. hahahaha. im sorely missing the presence of elynn jie n mei in my life! i cant believe ive actually survived so long without meeting them. on the bright side, elynn jie will be back in a few wks time! i'll probably only see mei in the next hols though, all because she shifted to the west side! ahhhhh. okay la, i guess video calls are better than nth:) see? im starting to get better at this whole count-my-blessings-not-my-shit thing. another exciting day awaits tmr! tag fiona the music thing is actually a custom field.. gotta set it smwhere in your options. i cant help u if i dont know who u are! haha valerie yay! learnt a new word huh. haha. oh, and where did ur blog go? :O

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