I need to release some issues that are building up inside me and making me angry.
*my mother depending on me
*my oldest sister telling how to run my life
*my significant other not appreciating me
and telling me how beautiful I am
*my father not developing a meaninful
relationship me
*my mom for letting that "man" beat up
on her around my lil sis and me
*my mom for making "him" dinner before
making sure we ate
*my mom for telling the cops everything is
ok when really it wasn't, when I called
them
*my brother for being such a low life
*myself for asking for other's opinion before
I do something
*myself for not having cofindence in ME
*myself for not speaking up for myself
*myself for the low self esteem
*the very first boy I ever loved for having a
child with my cousin
*myself for being afraid to take chances
*myself for loving men more than loving ME

just needed to let go

Your anger is understandable, no one has any right to treat you so badly, you have every right to want these things, a parents repsonibilty is towards their child first and your mother isn't doing that by staying in her 'relationship' but you shouldn't beat yourself up, esp. b/c you have enough wisdom to let them go and not hold onto them. I hope that things will get better for you.

awww...hope things get better