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Jan 21st, 2005 10:12:36 pm - Subscribe

Ok this is how it goes....

Yesterday night i finally realized something... something very important about who i am. So as soon as i knew that i had to tell my girl friend(rachel).... now this is where you take a dagger to my heart cause its melted inside my chest... anyways she freaked out and i told her though i am like i will always love her more than anyone and like i want to marry here and have kids and grow old with her i just had to tell her our we wouldn't be honest and trusty with each other... its wierd to say cause like about the bi thing like i could do stuff with guys but i don't cause im in love with rachel and were gonna get married and like the bi form is wierd cause like i couldn't get sexual i could only kiss and touch but its wierd i guess im kinda but like kinda not cause i wouldn't have sex with a guy thats just not right...all i know is i love rachel and im gonna marry her and no one is gonna stop me. ok anyways...
The next morning i felt like she hated me but then onec i got to talk to her at lunch she was just scared, scared i was gonna leave her(i would rather die from a chemical burn) that would never happened my love for her is beyound anyones mind. So we talked it out and she came over after school and we are so much closer now cause of the honesty and ... we had *** for the first time and it was amazing even though i suck at stuff like that, but it felt so good to be so in love with someone so beautiful and with a great personality... GOSH im so crazy then after words i snuggled with her and told her how crazy i am about her and that she doesn't need to worry about me i will always be with her no matter what and like that i wouldn't have had sex if i didn't want to spin the rest of my life with her that was like the breaking point showing that im 100% sure im ready to be with her forever....
Later her dad came and got us we went to the store and got food to make dinner... we do a thing every week and make food from a different country today was greek we had some really good food! ohh man did you guys miss out!!!! oh yea im off probation!!! i got my letter today, no more hell, no more drama....
mood: wonderful
Music: Saves the Day
(3) comments

avatar marlene

January 22nd, 2005

Aw, I'm so happy for you! That's great. And, now that you are in love and wouldn't do anything with anyone else, wouldn't that make you straight? Well, I'd consider so. Being in love is great! =)

avatar trent

January 22nd, 2005

yea... idk its confuzzling

avatar marlene

January 22nd, 2005

Seems that way.



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