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Lately I have been in a slump and I'm wondering about myself and the laziness I've succumbed to. I've tried to look for the source of this demotivation deciding that I do not enjoy the way I spend time and looking as though I am slowly but surely succumbing to a fat suit, poor health, worse hygiene (ok so its not quite that bad)... Is there something about me? Is it something I can change. I'm going under. I'm failing but is it a mental health issue or is it laziness. I don't defiantly sit here not doing anything, but if you ask me how I spent my day I'll tell you honestly that I didn't do anything, that is if you're the right person. I'm ashamed to live like this. I'm disgusted with myself and what I am becoming. I know that attributional belief and a series of coping mechanisms might get me out of this, when I stop and think I know this... I've just become limp. I don't even have my own sense of twistedness anymore. I don't even have the scik way of looking at the world that made me feel like something more than a clone. I dont' leave the house during the day. I've gotten weird. I don't know what to do with myself. *big fat stupid sigh* tron |