- Mental Junkyard… mind the dogs

pillow mints	Aug 5th, 2007 8:13:46 am - Subscribe
Today was another great triumph for the pharmaceutical sector of society once again proving that humans on drugs are far superior to sober humans. "a gram is better than a damn" I've caught up on much of the work I've been missing out on due to illness and begun a new course of mood stabilising goodness which should hurtle me into the coming weeks with a calm faced momentum. The strange feeling of standing outside a crowded room and not being able to make out what people are saying has mostly faded for now and the feeling of social paranoia, while still there, is at least manageable for now... you all love me right? Things in my relationship are good and the gnawing longing for the past has faded. I'm getting tired of dreaming things that seem real, so real that when you wake up, you almost relive the fresh feeling of grief that realigning yourself with the waking world brings. Its a pristine grief that I turn to on my pillow when my eyes open. it can be overcome This butterfly effect of waking and sleeping is probably the single most destabilising feeling that anyone could experience. Its a ground hog day of pain. But Life is so much more than these emo rantings and while I'm up up up and away on pseudoeffadrine, the world looks so pretty between the clouds. Loving you all... loving myself... loving life... not thinking about dying. Tron
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