- Mental Junkyard… mind the dogs

sleeping with the past	Sep 2nd, 2007 3:33:03 am - Subscribe
Last night I went to a birthday party. It was a gathering of old school friends. We have known each other for more than 10 years. That feels kind of strange. Looking around them all. They're so straight laced really. They're not perfect, but they seem to get through life ok. I was the only one in the group without a job, Still at university. Of course, on paper I can tell them that I'm doing my second degree. It doesn't matter that I don't mention that I didn't complete the first one. It felt strange reminiscing. And now I've got a partner who fits their mold better than I ever did. I can't pretend to be some arty farty type anymore can I? I dislike looking back on the past, but I'm still around. I'm still seeing the same group of friends. I'm still doing the same old things. I'm still stuck at uni... I'm so ready to move into the future. I see my future as having a job, working hard, having a great relationship with my partner, who has been absolutely adorable lately, and as being safe, secure and comfortable enough that I can exppress myself in my free time. I don't want to end up a shell of my old self. I'm still frightened of things, but I'm not going to let that be a problem for me anymore. Motivate me.
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