fallen
Date: Jul 24th, 2008 3:14:03 am - Subscribe
Mood: crushed
so im not quite sure who reads this, but i promised myself that i would put myself out there, so here goes,
i am completely in love with him, no guy has ever treated me the way he does, he is the sweetest most kind, loving, and amazing person i have ever met, and ive never felt things like i have with him before. i find myself trying to impress him which ive never done with anyone before, i try to dress and look really nice, which doesnt really happen anyways haha but i put in extra effort n somtimes i dont even realize im doing it, and he likes me back, but hes going away to college next year and doesnt wanna date, but i find myself longing to be in his arms, and i miss him constantly even when he just leaves, and i love the way he holds me tight n cuddles with me when we watch movies and hes so funny and thoughtful and i am crushed cuz i know it will never work
so thats my rant for now
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effin
Date: Jul 20th, 2008 10:53:38 pm - Subscribe
Mood: stressin
stressed out dude. to the max. for one thing i have to worry about my douchebag of a swimcoach cuz i have 3 swim meets this week. then theres the whole issue of going to NC. 20 family memebers. one house. kill me. i have less than 2 weeks to find someone to take over my job at epac and finish all my shit i gotta do. i dont even know what the hell im supposed to be doing half the time. And since im not gonna be here the week before the show starts im gonna have no clue what the hells going on =[ and to put the cherry on the sunday, i have had no sleep for the past 36 hours which makes everything worse.
someone make me smile?
please?
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lyrics
Date: Jul 19th, 2008 4:06:11 am - Subscribe
Mood: philosophical
Quote: Always look on the bright side of life
soo ive been working on a song for the past few days and i think im going to post the lyrics i have so far. please respond with any critisizm, thoughts, and/or suggestions. thank you!
We sit on a couch
Your arms wrapped tight around me
Protecting me from everything
And everyone
I look up into your eyes
Tears stream down my face
Knowing those eyes
That look of sorrow
And now your leaving me
Gone forever
But now you’re far away
Never looking back
Your miles away
I try hard to keep from crying
And I wish you would come back to me
But I just keep on loving still
I sit on a bench
In the pouring rain
Hoping to see your face
Amongst the crowded streets
And long to see those eyes
Those eyes that brought me happiness
But now you’re far away
Never looking back
Your miles away
I try hard to keep from crying
And I wish you would come back to me
But I just keep on loving still
Where to go
Where to turn
One thought haunts and hurts
Should I drive 6 hours
Just to see your smiling face?
Knowing that we will never be
But even though your far away
I see sunny skies comin my way
Lookin up to where those gray clouds
Are getting fainter everyday
P.S.- Probably changing the first stanza it doesnt really fit much
P.S.S.- special thanks to dylan for helping me out with the musical end =D
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photography
Date: Jul 17th, 2008 4:41:44 pm - Subscribe
Mood: content
check it out please
www.flickr.com/a-walters
=D
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another
Date: Jul 16th, 2008 6:36:50 pm - Subscribe
Mood: complete
Quote: if you want to be happy, be
blog for today
today has been my day of contemplation and realization
so ive been thinking about a lot of things these past few days. and although there hasnt been much time to think lately due to swim team/lessons and work and rehersals 6 nights a week, i have still been thinking none the less. i do not expect anyone to fully read through all of this due to its length, however if you do i thank you for taking a moment out of your busy life to care. writing. i feel like i havent written a poem in ages. which isnt good because i love it. i feel like i have perminant writters block, and though there have been a few major emotional events occuring in my life the past 3 days i havent been able to write a thing. perhaps if i continue to write about nothing ill be able to come up with my true feelings. lately i havent been giving in to how i truely feel about some things. i havent been taking enough time to recognize what is going on around me. people are constantly changing and i havent taken the time to even notice or care. suddenly i find i am losing myself. i used to be more grounded and aware. but now its as if i have drifted away. i dont care about things i should care about. i find myself seeking attention. i am constantly lying to my parents. ive become extremely unorganized. i hate things i used to love. and now it all comes down to him. for all the things above i do not blame him. i love him so much. and he has rejected my feelings though he feels the same way about me. i cant help thinking, what if i had acted sooner? would things be different now? but in my heart i know they wouldnt have been different. he is still the same person with the same goals and dreams. not willing to let anything get in the way. soon we will be miles apart, and all of this will be forgotten. change in constantly happening around us. stop for a moment to notice this change as i have not. you only have one chance to live your life. its not like a game when your little and you mess up so you get a do-over. its not like an essay where you can white out the things you have said. everything you say is like ink and ink can not be erased. choose your words carefully. love others who live in the shadows. love your family. love yourself. love friends. love strangers. love the people who have loved and lost. love those who are victims. love the people you wish you had in your life. love those who care, not only about you but others. strive to be the best you can be. do not dwell on your past but learn from it. learn about everything you possibly can. learn how to save the environment for we only have one. learn how to help others. learn how to help yourself. learn about philosophy, but do not spend hours contemplating the meaning of somthing. spend hours with those you love. you never know when you might lose them....
with miles between us
how could love have seen us
and given us this chance?
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