Sometimes I just wish I could pick certain people out of my life, permanently. Not like I never met them, but, like they left me sooner. I don't want to explain this in depth or go into particular detail.

Someone I've known for a long time has always hurt me, Ever since I could remember. They've tried to make things right, like twice that I know of. I've always felt like they didn't ever care about me. From past expierences, conversations or no conversations, actions... *sigh* I mean, this person had the biggest impact on my life, no one could ever hurt me this much in a million years.

This person I know has really tried to fix themselves up again, and promises nothing bad will happen again. They want me to give them another chance, one top of the 500 chances they've already screwed up, and let them back into my life. For some reason, I have that feeling that I should look the other way, say fuck them, and move on with my life. But I don't know how I'm going to feel years from now when I approach them again. It's going to be really hard, no matter the choice I make. It sucks that my journal is the only place I can talk about this.