||As he asked if I would come along, I started to realize.|
Just trying to get by--
I hope I did the right thing. I can't keep secrets like that from someone, it's something he deserves to know, but never will now.
What do I want? That's what I thought about last night while talking to Tanner... what do I want? I honestly do not know. I thought I knew. I know that I sometimes jump too much into things that need to be thought about more than just a week or so.
I need someone who's good to me, but doesn't treat me like a princess. I want someone strong who can do physical labor if needed. I want someone with smarts, who knows about cars if mine happens to break down for a reason. I want someone with a sense of humor, but isn't the clown of the group. I want someone to be serious when I need them to be. I want to be able to talk to them about anything, anything at all, and never regret saying it.
I don't need someone right now. I need to be just me. I need to have my freedom.
Although, I have heard, that when you finally get sick and tired of being with anyone, and you've finally said, "I'm fucking fine being single!" *BAM* that's when someone good comes along.
Hmm... I'm not sure if I'm ready for that.