Inspiration.
Mar 8th, 2006 4:15:56 am - Subscribe
feeling Are u kidding,i'm numb from feeling too much.
I saw THE PIANIST again today to be inspired by Adrien Brody's character,a true survivor in every sense of the word.I think it helped a bit,and i am beginning to accept my fate,although at lunch time,i actually threw my hands up into the air,exclaiming,"I can't believe i am really going in.This is unreal."But i don't have time to find my feet,and ground.
Before i go,this is for Alvyn,who i have grown alot closer to over the last three months,seeing that we are the final two guys in the class to enlist.Thankyou for your friendship,i appreciate it and may you have a smooth time inside.I'll be seeing you later though.
Get a life Kelvin,its only army.Its not like,in Huis' words,"concentration camp".
But..what if...
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Getting closer and closer to the day.
Mar 7th, 2006 9:37:32 am - Subscribe
feeling melancholic
Grooving to: nothing
Enlistment's on Saturday,and i'm trying to meet the closest people around me as much as possible,as often as i can.Two weeks in there is...An Eternity.
I see National Service as the beginning of the end to some friendships.In fact,i have formed a mental list of friends who i know i will lose gradually as a result of NS.I hope they prove me wrong though.But that's alright,its just another phase of my life i am going into,and this group of people are just likewise,a phase of my life.And for this reason,i say GOODBYE to them,first.Its premature,but what the hell,i rather inflict the hurt first than later others do it to me.
But on the other hand,i know there are friendships that will grow from strength to strength.I just want to say,thankyou for being friends that you are,being accepting of my flaws(unlike certain friends i know who just stamp on it,bitch about all your shortcomings,for no purpose other than to hurt you.These,are not friends.) and being there constantly when i needed(and still do need) your support.THANKYOU!
As Saturday draws nearer,i grow SADDER.My mum,my sister,even my dad,YOU,Elizabeth...how am i going to leave these people behind.I think if anything,the one thing that i will struggle with most is my emotional attachment with people back home,on the mainland.Wow,this is indeed harder than i thought.
But i'm glad to say,love works out differently.
Mmm,i'm tired.
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