My heart, a weapon?
Date: Feb 23rd, 2006 5:42:41 am - Subscribe
Mood: hardcore
my anti-drug <33: 'christmas in hollywood' - hollywood undead
<>martini kisses<>
I think its really weird how stuff happens. One thing after the other. Thers never a break, no breathing space. No time to sit back and 'wait' for the next thing, coz well, its already there. One door shuts, another opens. And if you're me, about 20 windows edge open too.
I was going to quite my job today, i was standing in that office, with the resignation in my hand. And then i stopped and thought, why do i have to? They're the one at fault, not me. So i didnt. So im still working as the crummy kitchen hand part time, but i dont really give a shit. Coz after a confrontation from me and my mum (hah go mum) they (the guys im working for) know im ready to leave as soon as something as happens that im not happy about. Again.
~Its called not letting your guard down. Or just being the stubborn cow we all know and love, meh. Which ive learnt not to be over the past couple of months. With this whole crap ex drama, school and now work. Not to mention the never ending battle with some of my mates.
But im taking a step back now, finally.
...Some strange people (not naming any..) think life is about luck. Fuck that. Lifes what you make it. You can sit on your ass all your life and wait for stuff to happen if you want to. But im just saying now, it wont happen as quickly as you think it will. Thats if it actually happens at all...
~:~Im.. looking into the future, heh, and i cant wait for whats going to be happening. Moving again.. to somewhere i can breathe. Dont exactly know when we're going to.. we were talking about maybe the end of this year? But yea, im already looking into it. lol. trust me
I think this town has a real bad impact on kids. Obviously. They think its a dead end, a one way street where the only way out is to get pregnant and go on the benefit. But for me and Courts, we wanna get out of here. And we're going to! While everyone else it gonna be layin on the couch, watchin the tv, with millions of kids running around in a lil dump.. we're gonna be the ones doing something with our lives. We've got it planned. And no one is gonna stop us, eh court's? :]
A lot of bad shits been going on lately, and strangely enough i know it could have been avoided. If id actually taken the time to listen to some of my closest mates i could have turned away.. But. Everything happens for a reason right?
Learning curve.
Gotta move with it or sink. And im not about to sink just yet. If ever.
xx
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