unspoken_x's Blog

promise me this
Date: Apr 17th, 2006 3:00:41 am - Subscribe
Mood: jaded
my anti-drug <33: 'where'd' you go?' - fort minor

Its so stupid. I want to move. I want to move so bad. But there's stuff here thats keeping me, holding me down. At times its hard not to feel trapped. And i guess thats what i am. And its what i will be until i leave.

"Its a phase," they say,"it's time to move on," they say, "you know want to get out of here so grab the chance and take it," they say. But why cant i? Why am i so stubborn and naive?

I boast about leaving this hole, only to bounce back a few moments later and realise is this what i really want? Is this all for what i want to live for? the answer is obviously no. But why is it so hard?

These things pulling for me to stay are minimal despite the fact my dads here. The fact my clsoe friends are moving on and moving out doesnt sway from the cold reality that we're all going to be moving on anyway. So i might as well get it over and done with now. Shouldnt i?

She said the house is blessed; yet filled with negative energy. And what the hell is that supposed to mean? That we're 'blessed' in this house but have to moev to get away from this supposed negative energy?

Fuck im confused.

I just want to leave this town behind; whats happened here will never be forgotten, and for those reasons in the end that why i have to go. We have to go.

Thats about it i guess.

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