Fabulous Lives Are Only in Story Books
Date: Jul 30th, 2006 2:37:58 am - Subscribe
Mood: wasted
Music:: the district sleeps alone tonight by the postal service
Downloading some new music.
This summer is so boring.
No trips. Few Friends. Lots of work.
The highlight of my summer is work.
&& I find that to be kind of sad.
I actually really like work cause I get to talk to people....it was mostly Tony, but hes leaving. But work will still be better than home. Which is God awful boring. really.
I need to get more friends.
And i know that is something that cannot be forced. And I know O'Hara girls/boys certainly arent on the market. Maybe teh new Villa girls. Sometimes i feel like im poison or something, the lack of friends i have.
or maybe its this negativity im displaying right now. actually this is ok cause its my journal and i dont act like this. (mostly)
anyway, the kids at work today asked me why i didnt go to wheatfield.
and i dont remember why i went to ohara.
not that i really mind it, but whatever.
i just dont remember why i would have wanted to attend. (oh wait i still dont)
but luckily soccer is starting.
but i have no motivation for anything. i should start running so im in shape. ill do that.
going on vaca with the mullins.
omfg please SHOOT ME.
it will be fun, just in a sort of organized and educational, have fun this way right now sort of way. i feel so horrible for being her friend cause im not honest with the girl....but how could i ever be? shes too, well sarah mullin. not accepting or gossiping or partying or anything that i really look for in a friend.
speaking of parties, i havent been to one this summer. oh wait i never go to parties around here, or anywhere for that matter.
but i want to go to a party, or out or something, too bad the only ones that i can attend are those of jeff (amys boyfriend.)
which i will really never go to. i feel bad saying no, but i dont like them or the attendees. ill try and be nice since these are my friend's "people" but frankly i find them quite fake & generally stupid. which i have no problem with, just not as an entire lifestyle & honestly ive not patience for general stupidity. so none of those fetes for me.
and i swear to god if chuck doesnt stop trying to be my bff ill scream. cause you know, im normally pretty decent to people, like even if i dont like you, ill be polite & listen to your problems. but i dont want to be your bff yo. though i am on the market for someone to spend time with other than my lover matthew.
but not you chuck. no not you.
anyway, im putting out a personals ad.....any girl or boy that wishes to hang out and share their inner most secrets with and have crazy times and gossip and laugh and such, please apply.
i have one thing to say about this journal, thank god almost no one i know reads it. lol.
ugh i have to get my tail moving on the school website. bah. im really not looking forward to doing that either, cause mrs. moser isnt looking for a new website really at all. ok time for sleep then. bye
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