Can You Ever Bounce Back?
Date: Jul 28th, 2006 9:28:24 pm - Subscribe
Mood: sultry
Music:: Oc Music
REmember when I didn't eat so much? And I was skinnier. Well I can't seem to bounce back....I just eat and eat and eat.
Today was supposed to be a new day, a new diet, and more excercise. Like I used to, I've been really lazy about it all lately & trust me it has definitely taken it's toll.
Intake Today:
Breakfast: A Bowl of Cereal + Milk
Lunch: Fruit Smoothie, Sandwich on Weight Watchers bread, Small Salad with 5 Calorie Dressing
Dinner: 2 Taco Bell Tacos (this is bad bad bad), Godiva Ice Cream Bar, & Clementine.
Excercise: 1/2 mile run.
Good for me cause I cannot run for my life.
But I'm going to do something later tonight completely out of necessity.
My hair is really nice.
Its super big and curly.
I like it. Right now its clipped out though,
and wispy stuff is hanging down. i dunno, i think its pretty.
I felt very pretty today.
Went to the mall with britt.
I stole something. Very invigorating.
I probably will never do it again.
But now b has a fantastic new necklace.
i love looking at boys and making them want me. generally i can only do this when i feel particularly fantastic or flirty, but i did it today and made a boy drop his bag. and i made the kid at taco bell stare at me for a good ten seconds after i went away. it was a good ton of fun.
i wish i had more money though cause i loved the clothes at forever 21 and especially charlotte russe.....random.
they were fantastic.
im still hungry.
and i shouldnt eat.
shit.
fat ass me has to go to mystic and put on a bathing suit. alright.
excercise and the O.C. NOW.
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Behavorial Awareness
Date: Jul 23rd, 2006 11:49:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Wreck of the Day
Music:: Anna Nalick
I noticed that I tend to flock to males rather than females when choosing friends. I just don't "get" girls. Or I just don't like them generally, I suppose.
No matter where I am.
Or what the situation.
I will find one guy that I am comfortable with and then I'm set & everythings fine.
It's weird though, how I can talk to guys no problem, but when it comes to girls I'm speechless.
I really do not even know what to say to them to make them like me or want to be friends with me. I don't understand their humor (mostly).
Girls as a whole just confuse me.
So I just back off of them and stick with guys.
And the odd thing is, I am in no way a tom boy. I am extremely girly (i think).
And I'm not a huge flirt.
Who knows. I need to make some girl friends. Cause boys generally want other things out of friendships...or can't have them due to girlfriends.
i think if you bf or gf is limiting who you hang out with, thats complete bullshit. I'd slap whomever it was and tell them to piss off. but thats just me.
Anyway, I feel really disgusting right now.
Cause I'm all ice creamy from DQ.
And I've eaten far too much today.
And I just ate my dinner.....way to late cause of work. I def shouldnt have eaten it. Spinach pasta with broccili and a kaiser roll. agh.
better tomorrow.
im promising myself.
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You Have to be Kidding me....
Date: Jul 22nd, 2006 6:22:04 pm - Subscribe
Mood: outraged
Amy P. fuck her.
she gets to be in gymnastics and i don't.
my god im so much better.
shes STILL hurt...go figure.
lost her giants.
cant twist.
cant tzuk.
cant do fucking anything.
shes working on FRONT THROUGHS.
what the fuck
i miss gym so much.
i want to go back.
its not like i do anything else.
empty space, empty time.
i need to figure out something to do.
i dont want to dance. i want to do gymnastics.
too bad i cant.
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May God Smite Your Souls
Date: Jul 22nd, 2006 5:31:52 pm - Subscribe
Mood: bothered
Music:: Poetically Pathetic by Amber Pacific
This blog is going to be entirely dedicated to the customers I serve at Dairy Queen.
Firstly, please speak audibly.....contrary to common belief, NO! I do not enjoy attempting to decipher your ghetto lingusitics. And stop asking stupid questions....quite clearly you are from Niagara Falls.
Secondly, if it's extra charge and you do not like it, do not get it. Seriously......as if yelling at me is going to make it cheaper. I am nothing but a little ant in an ant farm, and quite clearly the queen couldnt give three shits about you bitching about forty freaking cents. Get a fucking job and stop bitching. Forty cents, you can find that in a rain gutter. Fuckers.
Thirdly, we only have soft serve. This means no matter how many times you can ask, or in however many different ways, we will still ONLY HAVE SOFT SERVE ICE CREAM. && asking what soft serve is, certainly will not improve my mood. It is the opposite of hard ice cream...this IS NOT rocket science....despite the common believe it may be.
Fourthly, do not treat me like some hick who decided not to finish high school or finish college. I work at Dairy Queen because I am still in school. Chances are, I am smarter than you are and will ever be.
Fifthly, do not and I repeat DO NOT deny the kids at children's hospital one dollar because you are too cheap. IT"S ONE DOLLAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I honestly am baffled, how in God's good earth are you going to say no to a children's hospital??? You get back all the money in coupons anyway. This is something I will never understand, the lack of charity in NF is astonishing. I want to slap the people with their ice cream cones, but I don't have to God will smite them anyway, as I'm convinced. That is truly ridiculous.....someday your kid is going to be in there and because of your stingy ass they are going to die. And furthermore, don't look at me like I'm asking for your soul or asking you to join my coven of zombies when I mention donations.
Psh people.
Oi.
-Hay
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Its Feesible
Date: Jul 19th, 2006 12:15:44 am - Subscribe
Mood: defiant
Its feesible to reach my goal weight by august 31.
Im thinking....I make it happen in half the time. With lots of cardio, lots of walking, lots of conditioning & only necesscary eating.
im seriously so fucking fat right now.
118 as of like 2 mins ago.
and i have my period, so i look fatter.
thats great.
107. here i come.
on the brighter side of things....im eating properly again.
but i stopped excercising for like a week out of laziness. but im going for the gold here. counting calories (the healthy way lets hope), counting fat intake (between 20 to 40 g), and lots and lots of cardio and conditioning.
im ready to be skinny again thank you very much. and im ready to be pretty again, thank you very much. as motivation I only ate 750 calories today AND dyed my hair. Woot. Dark brown.
Im going to the beach on friday.
Since i have off.
im so so so excited.
and i bought new sun screen.
neutrogena spf 45. thank you.
no skin cancer for me.
though i wouldnt mind a little tan. 
apparently im sort of with matt again.
who knows.
we are weird.
best friends who kiss.
whatever. i love him.
even when he annoys me, he makes the world go round.
what would i do without you, you big jerk?
went to teh beach earlier in the week with amy and her boyfriend.
i love being able to hang with amy.
i still dont like jeff.
but she does & their happy. so thats good.
went to canal fest with smullin. walked around a bit. matt and randomly scott came. i basically ranted & went to matt after. we slept on his porch out of lack of anywhere to sleep. it was nice actually. probably cause i got the couch. he got the floor. but i could watch the streetlight & the sun.
i think we will sleep out there more often.
today i bought a new shirt & tank top & bathing suit from old navy. since they were cheap cheap cheap. made my day.
i wish i were richer.
my gas tank is empty again.
boo.
my hair is dark.
really dark.
like chocolate brown dark.
i decided against blonde.
too fake for me. (naturally auburn)
but now i think i like it.
its semi-permenant anyway.
it brings out my eyes.
thankfully.
ok well i itch cause we have bugs all over at work.
soon to be 107.
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